I am 198 day clean from opiates. I feel like I should be happy I am no longer using. I feel like I am mourning the person I used to be . I quit cold turkey only used buspar for anxiety. Went to therapy but I just felt like the pushing me to use vivitrol so I ended that . When I used I was happy out going had energy etc . Now I just feel like going through the motions. Does it get better ?will I feel better mentally? I guess I just really want to see how others feel or felt 6 months or so in their recovery .