ItsclearlyFake
Bluelighter
I met a girl and sometimes when we text, if too much time happens without receiving a text back from her I start feeling this pain-unworthiness-aloneness inside my stomach.
Then what I received the text, suddenly a feeling of amazingness and validation that I am 'enough' washes completely around me. Its amazing.
I am 27 years old and I remember that when I was 20 I met this girl I got obsessed with her, and this mechanism was the same. Horrible how much I suffered.
The sad thing is that my friends say to me that I´m an attractive guy and I´m handsome. That I deserve a good life.
But unfortunately it's seems due to trauma, or karma from past lives or who the fuck knows, I drag this brutal internal pain of unworthiness, precisely with girls. Do you think taking MDMA would help in solving this?
Then what I received the text, suddenly a feeling of amazingness and validation that I am 'enough' washes completely around me. Its amazing.
I am 27 years old and I remember that when I was 20 I met this girl I got obsessed with her, and this mechanism was the same. Horrible how much I suffered.
The sad thing is that my friends say to me that I´m an attractive guy and I´m handsome. That I deserve a good life.
But unfortunately it's seems due to trauma, or karma from past lives or who the fuck knows, I drag this brutal internal pain of unworthiness, precisely with girls. Do you think taking MDMA would help in solving this?