Hey guys,
I have really grown to hate MDMA and alcohol. But I realized that these are 'the more commonly' used drugs in society. A lot of my friends seem to like them. Lots of people talk about their amazing experiences on xtc.
I must admit that the first time was indeed special and amazing as well. But I regret all other times. I think feeling in love is so much better than feeling happy on MDMA .Also, I can not always control myself on M. I tell people things that I am later embarrassed about. When the dose is too high, concentration span is so limited. I feel really dumb if I cant have a normal conversation and then the fun is over for me, while other people love going real hard and get messed up. After using MDMA I feel terribly sick and poisoned. My mind is clouded for days. I get extremely emotional and cry excessively. It's just not worth the happy feeling I get for 4 hours. Do more people feel this way? It could be that I can not take a serotonin depletion as well as other people. I often hear people say they feel washed out or weird, but never so terrible as I say. After two weeks, I start to feel normal again. I totally hate the drug now. When my friends start to use it, I stand amazed and perplexed. It is really not worth it for me.
As for alcohol, I get hangovers even after a few drinks. It's so neurotoxic and dehydrating that I dont get why so many people use it. I think other drugs can be more effective if a certain state or effect is desired plus being healthier and not possessing lots of unwanted side effects from alcohol. A lot of people do not understand me and think me weird for using drugs instead of alcohol. Maybe it makes me feel insecure, different and excluded. What do you think about this?
Criticism and feedback are always welcome of course. Thank you.
I have really grown to hate MDMA and alcohol. But I realized that these are 'the more commonly' used drugs in society. A lot of my friends seem to like them. Lots of people talk about their amazing experiences on xtc.
I must admit that the first time was indeed special and amazing as well. But I regret all other times. I think feeling in love is so much better than feeling happy on MDMA .Also, I can not always control myself on M. I tell people things that I am later embarrassed about. When the dose is too high, concentration span is so limited. I feel really dumb if I cant have a normal conversation and then the fun is over for me, while other people love going real hard and get messed up. After using MDMA I feel terribly sick and poisoned. My mind is clouded for days. I get extremely emotional and cry excessively. It's just not worth the happy feeling I get for 4 hours. Do more people feel this way? It could be that I can not take a serotonin depletion as well as other people. I often hear people say they feel washed out or weird, but never so terrible as I say. After two weeks, I start to feel normal again. I totally hate the drug now. When my friends start to use it, I stand amazed and perplexed. It is really not worth it for me.
As for alcohol, I get hangovers even after a few drinks. It's so neurotoxic and dehydrating that I dont get why so many people use it. I think other drugs can be more effective if a certain state or effect is desired plus being healthier and not possessing lots of unwanted side effects from alcohol. A lot of people do not understand me and think me weird for using drugs instead of alcohol. Maybe it makes me feel insecure, different and excluded. What do you think about this?
Criticism and feedback are always welcome of course. Thank you.

