Feeling so tired.. But waiting for hell ..how long??

Ready2beFree

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It's been close to 48 hrs no dose of morph. I feel so tired so so tired. Hard to walk talk think .. When will the worst start? I detoxed awhile back but it was different. I'm coming off a 3 week morph bender. Not time release.. Well not really. I snapped into four so wouldn't be. Anyway.. I'm so fucking done. I want to be awake in the evening with my kids and am husband..I don't want them to see me go through this.. But no choice. I've taken a few Val maybe a joint would help. Seems like once I hit the shower I'm ready to pass out. I want to kiss my babies goodnight and not pass out two hours before the hubby. Anyway.. Day two leg pain.. Tired.. Self doubt..sad.. Ect. Just wonder when I will throw my guts up and shit my pants. :\ I have an amazing date planned with my loving husband on Oct 3rd and I'm hoping to be (physically) well enough to enjoy it. I can't wait to put this shit in my past. When ... WHEN!!!! FEELS LIKE IM WAITING ON HELL
 
How much mg of morph you been taking on average daily? And honestly the worst starts at 48-72 but that's what everyone says short acting opis I feel after 48 it starts getting easier by 10-15% a day but the lack of sleep that builds up and the lack of food and not moving and always being in one spot weak gets way too much and wears you down
 
Yeah last dose mon morning. About 25-50mg day for 3 ish weeks... Since last quit.
I'm on Thursday and no throwing up mainly mental and bad lethargic feeling. I'm on lots vitamin b super supplement an some magnesium and calsium. And I have 4 vallume I'm saving like gold. No sleep last night but don't feel horrible today just some mental battles and tired .. I feel blessed thus far
 
It's inevitable that you will go through a lot of mental changes as you get your body/brain used to not having the chemicals. Just try to ride it out without worrying about it too much. Tell yourself, "This is temporary and to be expected." <3
 
I agree that the mental is more difficult than the physical, at least for me. Perhaps therapy could aid in the mental struggle as one is helping me sort through the past year of my life. I wish you the best.
 
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