Ty herbavore, how is everyone. I am still off the dope and meth.. as i promised. No one knows yet, i still pop the occasional tranquilizer / benzo since i have them left over. Can't bring my self to flush them how ever i am not using them daily... thank god. I am hitting about 3-4 meetings a week, most important goal right now is still to get a loved one !
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Feeling really depressed and hopeless
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herbavore
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^I promise you that if you make that "loved one" yourself, before looking to anyone else, you will have more love in your life than you can imagine.
Good on you for making the meetings and staying strong. :DSounds like a reasonable taper of the benzos. An interesting exercise to do might be to stop and really analyze your feelings and thoughts when you are feeling the effects of taking a benzo. Ask yourself what you are feeling and what you are not feeling. Then ask yourself how you could achieve that same state using your thoughts. (For instance if the benzos make you not anxious because they make you not care what someone else thinks, how could you train your mind to not care what someone else thinks?)
Good on you for making the meetings and staying strong. :DSounds like a reasonable taper of the benzos. An interesting exercise to do might be to stop and really analyze your feelings and thoughts when you are feeling the effects of taking a benzo. Ask yourself what you are feeling and what you are not feeling. Then ask yourself how you could achieve that same state using your thoughts. (For instance if the benzos make you not anxious because they make you not care what someone else thinks, how could you train your mind to not care what someone else thinks?)
^I promise you that if you make that "loved one" yourself, before looking to anyone else, you will have more love in your life than you can imagine.
Good on you for making the meetings and staying strong. :DSounds like a reasonable taper of the benzos. An interesting exercise to do might be to stop and really analyze your feelings and thoughts when you are feeling the effects of taking a benzo. Ask yourself what you are feeling and what you are not feeling. Then ask yourself how you could achieve that same state using your thoughts. (For instance if the benzos make you not anxious because they make you not care what someone else thinks, how could you train your mind to not care what someone else thinks?)
Heh i have tried that training thing, barred out of my mind on xanax. Telling my self... see this is therapeutic i feel great i will train my self to always be like this. But it just never lasts... these days I am a lot less self conscious but when I'm on a benzos or dope or w.e it's like i don't give a fuck what you think about me and that's it
Will see what happens this time around
Maya
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Maya!
pming you now!! and congrats on the new job!!!
dognasher
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This made me happy. I really love hearing from people who are staying clean and who are working hard to reframe their lives! Hope all is going well, F1n1shed!