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Cocaine feeling of coke addiction...

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thegent

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So about three months ago I got access to extremely high grade coke, and never doing it before, became quite curious. So I would do a few lines, feel good...then it quickly turned into a daily habit. I would never go super crazy with it. I would say it was more of a "supplemental" use in my daily routine. On average I would go through about a half gram, and on some more social days a full gram (this is very high grade, though).

About four days ago my dealer ran out, and fuck, man...I miss it. I'm not going to try to find another dealer because I know that there is so much garbage in the other stuff, so I'm waiting for the next round. When I had to stop, I didn't go through any physical withdrawals despite being on it for several months straight. I just simply miss it. It's like my coffee. I miss carrying it in my pocket, and doing a little sneaky bump, and feeling amped up on my demand. I miss the numbness and the taste in my mouth and nose. It brought me into a nice deep, emotional, talkative state...Always positive.

I have never desired a drug like I desire coke. It's like a long lost love, but I don't feel a physical need for it. I feel it's like taking a vitamin that gave me an instant boost. Fuck an espresso, I've got something a little cooler, ya know what I mean? =D I'm sure that the mental desire for it will subside because it has become embedded in my routine. But my question is can the "addiction" ever really get worse than this?
 
Dude if you think "addiction" cant get worse than that then your setting yourself up for a world of pain. Also doing coke doesn't make you "cooler" or cool at all to be honest. If I were you I would just quit while your ahead or before your in to deep.
 
lol when you lose 40lbs and treat your friends like shit so bad that you push em away when you think you're being the best friend in the world, except you don't answer your phone for a week cause you're so spun out of your mind or either coming down and searching for more drugs, then pawn your parents items just to get ripped off on a 20 bag to get you through and hour or two depending how you spare it accordingly.. then you'll know you're addicted.

when you are sitting on the couch and burst into tears because you can't think of anything else but coke, then you are addicted mentally. there is no 'physical' addiction about cocaine, it's all mental. but there are those that were like me and couldn't function because all i thought about was coke all day and there's those that have manic episodes
 
I use to be a big coke head spending 80$ a day when I didn't have a job. I went a few months like this until 2 years ago, all I can say is stay away from it.
 
I dont see the problem here. OP obviously had handle on his shit. I wouldnt have been able to stay on that low a dose throughout a few months doing it. Kudos
 
VandiLLisM said:
I dont see the problem here. OP obviously had handle on his shit. I wouldnt have been able to stay on that low a dose throughout a few months doing it. Kudos
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Using 0.5-1 gram of "high grade shit" per day for three months solid, is hardly "having a handle on it". 8)

As for you question, YES, it can, and probably will, get much worse if you continue abusing cocaine daily. Rationalization is the addicts best friend and you will always be able to convince yourself that doing more is 'ok'. It is like this with any addict, and any drug. I never had a coke problem but was in the same boat regarding opiates years ago.

I thought I had ahandle on it, wouldn't get dependent/addicted, wouldn't shoot up, wouldn't steal, etc.. Years later I learned the hard way that it CAN and WILL get worse if that road is continued.

Use this dry spell from your source to maybe take a long break from it and get a better focus on life. You don't NEED cocaine to function. Sure it gives you energy and makes your more social and focused, but you managed to function BEFORE you had a source, no?

It would be much healthier to find a better "supplement'' to aid your daily routine. Eating healthy , vitamins, sleep and exercise helped my anxiety/depression more than stimulants ever did. You'd be surprised.

Don't take my post as being an asshole or anything, I just don't want to see you destroy your life over some powder. Unfortunately you are not immune to addiction or anything.
 
I really like hearing the real deal feedback from people who have suffered. It's truly a blessing to have this forum where people get to share insight over something so personal. I understand and appreciate your concern for me.

Just to play the other side, what's the difference between doing a half a gram of blow vs. a few cups of coffee? I honestly feel more adverse effects from other legal substances.
 
Don't forget that coke is cardiotoxic as well.

OP I think you might enjoy reading this.
The Basic Biology of Drug Addiction
A large painful withdrawal like opioids is only a part of addiction and stopping coke after steady use will still result in lowered dopamine levels for quite a while. Furthermore the short duration and constant redosing makes the habitual and continued reinforcement that much more of an issue. Think of something like cigarettes. Clearly they're addicting but have no great high and no horrible withdrawal; just craving one more for the rest of your life...
 
Yes, my mom and I abused coke for almost five years and we lost EVERYTHING. Sure we felt like rock stars doing an 8 ball every other day, but then bills came up, house payments and BAM, everything gone just as quick as the 8ball was.

While I did crave it for a few months or so after, when I did it again years later, outside of the original setting, i didn't like how it made me feel.

I continue to do it occasion, just did it again on Saturday. BUT the real way I knew I was over it was when people around me were doing it and I didn't feel the need to snort, so i didn't. God, that alone was sooo liberating, being able to say no to a demon that haunted me from the past.

But alas, opiates have my heart more than coke ever could. At certain points I have had to resist the urge to go online and buy it, but me loosing my husband, car house over some pills seems ridiculous. But like Brokedown said, rationalization is an addicts best friend and while i do rationalize, reality sets in and no, jail or anything else is NOT an option.

Like Amapola said, it does mess with your heart. My moms doc said she can NEVER do it again unless she wants to die, LITERALLY. She was having mini strokes from what they said and she has not touched it since.

Right now, there may not seem like there is a problem but over time things (hopefully wont for the OP) DO start happening and control is lost.
 
thegent said:
But my question is can the "addiction" ever really get worse than this?
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People far bigger and far stronger than you have fought far harder and lost. Be glad that you don't crave forever and ever like opiate addicts do. I'm only ever a couple of minutes from a needle in my arm, and I am not allowed to ever go an entire day without craving opiates indescribably bad.
 
i kinda know what you mean i just started doing coke again after a short break and ive been going it for 3 days now. and already i know its not good for me i feel like ive lost weight in the past 3 days an i got to stop. you should back out now be for it gets worst
 
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