People know you're an addict, they probably don't know how to go about discussing it with you, or don't want to hurt your feelings by mentioning. I was in your position, years ago when I was at University. I didn't think anyone knew, even though I was constantly making mistakes, and nobody said anything to me. Once I got sober, people would talk about it, but not before.
The longer you let this continue, the worse you will get. the best way to get sober is to address the issues that are motivating you to use. For me it was severe OCD and zero self confidence. Once I worked on the OCD and found ways to control it through cognitive behavioral therapy, I worked on my self confidence. I was bullied mercilessly in school, and at first felt ridiculous paying a therapist to listen to me whine and cry, but therapy brought up so many hurts that existed in my subconscious, I was finally able to deal with them as an adult, which removed a lot of the insecurities and paranoia I had as an adult. Getting through that left me raw, but having it out and no longer subconsciously ruminating over it allowed me to realize my value as a person, and the desire to escape life was removed. Then I focused on getting sober, and it was a piece of cake that time. Prior to therapy I had already been through numerous outpatient programs, group, 12 steps, and inpatient rehab. It was a struggle that spanned over seven years. Once I got out of rehab after dealing with my issues, it was so easy. No struggle, no cravings, just time to focus on the continuation of getting healthy. I had anxiety, but this time I also had valid coping mechanisms for dealing with the anxiety, and I got through it.
You need to figure out what is driving you to use, and come up with a game plan for resolving. Actually write down your goals, your plan, the steps you need to take to fully execute your plan, and then take the big step of working on the first step. Don't focus on everything at one time, just focus on the step you are working on. Once finished, go to the next step. It will help keep you from being overwhelmed.
When you start the withdrawal process, keep in mind no matter how painful, it is temporary. You are a strong person, it takes incredible strength to manage life, school, family, and an addiction. If you can do all that, you can get through withdrawal. If you have to keep it on the down low, tell people honestly that you are discontinuing a medication, and that you're not feeling well. They don't have to know that you were abusing it. Ask them for patience and support. When you are feeling your worst, focus on what you hve to gain by getting healthy, and that the pain is necessary for your health and happiness. Above all, the pain will go away. The anxiety you will feel in early recovery will go away as well. Keep in mind that the anxiety you feel in withdrawal is the worst anxiety you will ever have - and it gets better. You will never have to feel it again once it's over.
I wish you the best! Good luck!
The longer you let this continue, the worse you will get. the best way to get sober is to address the issues that are motivating you to use. For me it was severe OCD and zero self confidence. Once I worked on the OCD and found ways to control it through cognitive behavioral therapy, I worked on my self confidence. I was bullied mercilessly in school, and at first felt ridiculous paying a therapist to listen to me whine and cry, but therapy brought up so many hurts that existed in my subconscious, I was finally able to deal with them as an adult, which removed a lot of the insecurities and paranoia I had as an adult. Getting through that left me raw, but having it out and no longer subconsciously ruminating over it allowed me to realize my value as a person, and the desire to escape life was removed. Then I focused on getting sober, and it was a piece of cake that time. Prior to therapy I had already been through numerous outpatient programs, group, 12 steps, and inpatient rehab. It was a struggle that spanned over seven years. Once I got out of rehab after dealing with my issues, it was so easy. No struggle, no cravings, just time to focus on the continuation of getting healthy. I had anxiety, but this time I also had valid coping mechanisms for dealing with the anxiety, and I got through it.
You need to figure out what is driving you to use, and come up with a game plan for resolving. Actually write down your goals, your plan, the steps you need to take to fully execute your plan, and then take the big step of working on the first step. Don't focus on everything at one time, just focus on the step you are working on. Once finished, go to the next step. It will help keep you from being overwhelmed.
When you start the withdrawal process, keep in mind no matter how painful, it is temporary. You are a strong person, it takes incredible strength to manage life, school, family, and an addiction. If you can do all that, you can get through withdrawal. If you have to keep it on the down low, tell people honestly that you are discontinuing a medication, and that you're not feeling well. They don't have to know that you were abusing it. Ask them for patience and support. When you are feeling your worst, focus on what you hve to gain by getting healthy, and that the pain is necessary for your health and happiness. Above all, the pain will go away. The anxiety you will feel in early recovery will go away as well. Keep in mind that the anxiety you feel in withdrawal is the worst anxiety you will ever have - and it gets better. You will never have to feel it again once it's over.
I wish you the best! Good luck!
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