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Cursedzx

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So I've been down for a couple of weeks, stemming from a big night on mdma, keep feeling detached in waves, will come good for 20 minutes or so then I trigger another wave of feeling out of reality! I felt really shit the first 9 days after the night out, came pretty good for 2 weeks, smoked weed abit during the following week and now have these dp/dr symptoms flooding back. I have had enough of this and don't know what to do anymore. I eat well, take fish oil and work outside physically everyday. I'm going to to and see a therapist if I don't get better in the next few days. I know many people get this way but I guess I haven't found my way of getting rid of it.

Thankyou guys
 
Maybe you should just try sobriety for a while and avoid psychoactive substances, until you feel good enough again to be comfortable with using.

Because based on what you wrote above, you seem to think that the marijuana may have had something to do with triggering these feelings...?
 
I'm definately staying away from everything now, I think I've just tricked my mind into believing I'm detached at times, like my thought process is different. I've never been a heavy drug user and never had any problems like this. I believe I've read way to much on my symptoms and keep overthinking them hence cause this shit mental loop I'm in.

Thankyou for the reply though :)
 
Was in the same situation 2 and a half months ago mate, hopefully it's not what I and a handful of member on here like to recognise as a "long term comedown". Check the "MDMA Comedown Update" thread in the MDMA forum!

I'm about 95% from that night out, you'll get better, and it'll take what feels like forever but you'll be okay.
 
Cheers guys! Means an absolute heap for people to jump to my reassurance! Feeling abit better now! Ate way too many flippers +20 beers = dumb idea
 
The only really bothering symptom is the occasional dp, but that comes with anxiety and staying positive and taking care of myself will see that gone too!
 
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The only really bothering symptom is the occasional dp, but that comes with anxiety and staying positive and taking care of myself will see that gone too!
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I managed to feel better after 2 weeks, felt like I wasn't getting better from 2-4 weeks, then 4-7 weeks I felt myself getting a little (tiny) bit more normal each day, then in the last 3 weeks (7-10) I've skyrocketed in improvement and genuinely think I'm going to be spot on in couple/few weeks. Basically you can only get better! Just learn to relax, or keep busy with relaxing things (taking walks, they really helped me). That's my case but there are a couple of people here that have had this for 6 months and are only slowly recovering however I guess it depends on the dosage you took and how traumatising the night was. I only had 1 small bomb and a little bit of a panic attack (not a full blown one) in the morning.

People suggest supplements help. I bought a complete ton, basically bought Holland & Barrett haha. I took them from week 1-6 and it just made me feel artificial or "not naturally healthy" so I just stopped. In honesty, I didn't even notice any difference.

Start watching a TV show! I spent a whole 3 days watching True Detective and 24. I actually felt a lot better after that.
 
OP CBT also helped some of the dp sufferers I have spoken to before so perhaps this will be a good option to consider.
 
The dp only comes back in the morning I think, after a good run at night I almost feel cured! I must be a the final stages of this bog I'm in as it is nearly week 6 and by week 3 I felt fine, just smoked to much bud!
 
Feel like I'm starting too loose it abit, I'm stuck in a shit mind state, can't stop telling myself something is wrong
 
Relax OP, you will be fine, just stay away from drugs, meditate if you can tonight and rest as much as you can as well. I think that DP is anxiety related so you need to focus on relaxation and as I have mentioned, CBT helps with this as well.
 
I'm going to the doc tonight for a broken bone in my hand, so I'm going to mention that I feel as though by not being able to relax I am sending all sorts of mixed symptoms through my head. This means a lot maya, you are a good person. Over thinking and analysing are my worst enemy, sometimes reading things on the Internet can be the best and worst things to do
 
I also think I'm convincing myself I have Hppd but I think I've always had abit of snow in my vision, this anxious state is making me notice it
 
hey OP, I had at least two pretty bad DR episodes, the first one lasting for over two months iirc. it gets better, but only if you try to distract yourself from it. exercising is very important, so I'm glad you're doing that, eating healthy as well. you should also go out a lot, meet new people and experience new things. if you always see and do the same stuff, it will feel more unreal to you after a while.

I still get DR symptoms several times a week, but I learned how to deal with them and let them pass, so they're not so much of an issue anymore.

If you need advice, you can send me a message. :)
 
Thankyou for your post :) I think it's mostly anxiety based, as I was anxious for about two weeks last month, had all of these other symptoms but hadnt yet read about dr/dp. It's been on my mind 24/7 the last few days so I think I've been convincing myself that it's there.
 
yeah anxiety is a big part of DP/DR. I would even say that it is a direct symptom of anxiety (and even my former therapist said so). If it doesn't get better soon (with that I mean 2-3 weeks), you should consider seeking therapy. CBT helped me a great deal with dealing with my anxiety.
 
I might just ask the doc tonight if I can be prescribed some meds just to calm down and stop thinking so much! That in itself might be the cure!
 
yeah medication might help, but it's only temporary. You have to work on your mental health as well.

But don't worry, it will work out eventually, I've never heard of someone becoming totally crazy from DP/DR/anxiety. They (and that includes me) just tend to think that they will get insane. :)
 
Haha yeah, I'd like to think of it as a consequence of me reading into stuff to much haha last night I was totally calm for a few hours and felt 100% myself
 
Genuinely sound exactly how I was about a month and a half ago. You're literally pulling your hair out, unable to think of anything else but how you've probably messed yourself up. I'm not going to deny that it was the worst time of my life, seriously. You think you've ruined your life. How very wrong I was, although I'm still a little anxious, you get way better I promise you. I was obsessed with going to the doctors about my problem and they said I need to relax, I did not think any of that, I was CERTAIN i've done brain damage.

About 3-4 weeks ago I was prescribed with SSRI's (Citalopram) because I just couldn't handle it anymore, had to come home from uni crying on the train the whole way (think I had a panic attack). Doctors thought it was depression -> anxiety but I knew it was anxiety -> depression. But I still took it... for 2 days. My body was twitching everywhere, I felt really dizzy and didn't want to stick to these meds for 13 years so I stopped. Ever since I stopped I've done nothing but get better.

There are many people here who really think they've done brain damage. I understand that ecstasy effects the serotonin receptors but for it to wire your brain is ludicrous in my opinion, even if there are studies in rats. I pretty badly panicked over a drug side effect (took metronidazole the week before and got thrush) then for the first week I was obsessing about how to get rid of it and that it may be permanent. I didn't even realise the MDMA made me feel bad, all I know is I really stressed myself during my serotonin depletion, this is truly my cause of my anxiety I think. We've done a mind alteration, not brain damage IMO.

Cursed, you'll get better I won't say don't fret because I knew even if god or the worlds best doctor told me I'd still stress at the time.

How was your trip and comedown (first 3 days)?
How much did you take?
Also did you drink the night you were on it?

Feel free to PM me Cursed.
 
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