Feeling empty & no real reason...

billyswifey

Bluelighter
Joined
Sep 11, 2009
Messages
299
Location
MelBURN, Australia, You know, The huge island in t
I feel so empty lately, I cry for no reason when I'm alone, I broke down in tears at work last week, I sob myself to sleep at night.... Life is pretty peachy, I have a stable job where I just got a promotion after 5 months, I'm going to start studying again at the end of next month to further my job prospects (I can get a promotion to shift manager from this course) and I'm pretty happy with my home life.

There is just no reason for me to feel so empty, as though something is missing.

Has anyone ever felt like life was almost perfect but still so empty at the same time?
 
Honey, your teariness/crying patterns sound exactly how I was when I was severly depressed.
I have never had anything to be particularly sad about but when I'm depressed that doesn't matter. Everything is clouded by sadness.

Are you still seeing a psych? Are you on any meds at the moment?

Please, as always, PM me if you ever just need to vent to someone, because you know I've been where you are now <3
 
That's about how I feel now. I have everything a person should want, but I just don't care. It's not too great :\
 
thats the worst. I hate when i feel like that. I feel empty sometimes even when nothing is going wrong and hell things can even be going great! it doesnt matter
 
Have you thought about doing some part-time volunteer work. Really helped an ex-partner of mine who 'should' have been happy, but wasn't. She found actually making a difference to other people, even if only once or twice a month, really filled the gap in terms of self-worth and fulfilment. Maybe sign up for some charity runs? - kill two birds with one stone and all that...

Good luck.
 
That's the thing, I work at the childrens hospital, so seeing these kids faces light up makes my day. And we have an elderly man who comes in everyday & I make him laugh which in turn makes me happy.

As I said, I think I'm more scared than anything that my feelings exceed those of my friends & family.
 
I know exactly how you feel - or at least I feel like I do. I feel as though my happiness is somehow taking enjoyment from other people, as though I'm selfishly hurting them for my own sick enjoyment. It's incredibly depressing :(
 
I feel so empty lately, I cry for no reason when I'm alone, I broke down in tears at work last week, I sob myself to sleep at night.... Life is pretty peachy, I have a stable job where I just got a promotion after 5 months, I'm going to start studying again at the end of next month to further my job prospects (I can get a promotion to shift manager from this course) and I'm pretty happy with my home life.

There is just no reason for me to feel so empty, as though something is missing.

Has anyone ever felt like life was almost perfect but still so empty at the same time?

There has to be something else doing on. Are you old enough for menapause? Are you taking an anti-depressant?

You say "life is peachy" and that doesn't make a lot of sense if you're having crying fits for no reason. I just can't believe that you actually like your life if you're crying for no reason. Is that what you're telling us?

Maybe your job is stable but you hate what you do?
Is there anything else bothering you? Anyone in your family sick? It obviously can be just depression but usually something triggers or aggravates depression, its odd for it to just appear out of the blue (unless you have a depressive history but I don't think you would have made this thread if you did). Maybe you're just getting sick of routine and doing the same crap everyday?

The only thing I want to focus on is the fact you say "life is peachy" and it sounds a bit like denial working. There HAS to be something thats bothering you, is there anything you can think of? Husband problems? Anything?
 
^^ You need to do what's best for you hun. I'm sure you will make the right decision <3
 
I used to feel this way quite often, which is what eventually led to me becoming a drug addict. I forget what the original reason for those feelings were though. I know around the time that I started using, I had lost a lot of respect for both of my parents and found more solace in my friends and in drugs. However, that was a long time ago, and since then I've patched up my relationships pretty well. However I still guess I have some resentments, not just towards them, but towards people in general. I originally started using drugs to fill a void in my life, but now there's not much wrong with me. Just the fact that I still crave drugs and feel empty without them. Perhaps it's similair with you. You've said you quit alchohol, but perhaps you havn't replaced it with anything positive to fill that gap?
 
Have you abused opiates or mdma in your past?

I am curios why would you ask this does it contribute to depression? I am a recovering I.V. heroin abuser and I see my doctor every month and he keeps trying to push antidepresant drugs on me. So far there has not been one that hasn't givin me some real dark thoughts. The last one I was on (celexa) I had my 38 in my hand rolled up in a ball cryin for an hour I was scared shit. I refuse to try another....good luck OP I hope you get settled soon it sucks to be depressed.:|
 
^^ Opiate use/abuse and MDMA use are quite well-known for causing depression because they alter the chemistry of your brain. Anti-depressants take 4-6 weeks to have an effect and sometimes they can exacerbate the depression symptoms for a while before they start to work. They work for some people, but for others, like yourself, they just don't help.
 
Top