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feeling all sorts of lost

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Hello all

I'm not sure where else to go, so I thought I'd post here. Perhaps to hear a few kind words of encouragement or at the very least as a way to vent.

I'm a 23 year old male living in the US. Up until today, I have lived with my mom and stepfather. My mom has always been slightly nagging, but aren't all moms? We have a loving relationship though. My stepfather, even though we live in the same house, I barely talk to him. It's an awkward situation.

Recently, they got a divorce. This all happened within the last week. My mom found out he was cheating, she got all the necessary paperwork and filed a divorce, it got signed and processed, and she just moved out a couple hours ago to live with close relatives in another state. I am currently taking classes at a local college so I was not able to follow suit.

Aside from being a little stressed for the past week, I've been holding together okay. But just now as I walked through the empty house (she took most of the decorative stuff, which was hers) I feel lonely. I miss my mom. She's also older considering my age. I'm 23 and she's almost 65. Her health has been deteriorating over the years and all this certainly hasn't helped.

I suppose eventually we all grow up and have to "move out" eventually. Leave the nest. This has all happened so suddenly though. To make matters worst I'm stuck living with my stepfather until I can receive financial aid to move out, but that isn't until July at the earliest. I rarely talked with him before and this whole scenario has just made him meaner and less amicable (as if that was possible). My living situation will be ultra uncomfortable for the next four months.

Like I said before, for the last week this has all seemed like some kind of strange dream but it all hit me at once and its just feeling so real right now. I feel lonely and just depressed. I know things will get better eventually, but right now it sucks. I have a ton of "friends" but no one I can really truly talk to and open up.

Thank you for reading if you made it this far. It means a lot. Thank you.
 
sign up,my friend. join in the community.find sanctuary here where we are all cut from the same cloth. thank you for being brave enough to share. you gotta start somewhere...why not here ?;)
much peace and love...........skillz<3
 
Hey man, so sorry to hear about all of this. Big changes like this are not easy, and it's harder if it happens without warning. Do you have any friends you can at least stay with for a little while?? Is it possible to transfer the course you're studying to a college near where your mum is living now, so you can move over there with her? Or perhaps you can speak to your teachers and ask them to defer your classes for a few months just while things settle down. Perhaps you could even get a job so you can move out on your own or with some friends. I know it seems like there's no way out of your current situation but there are ALWAYS other options available. It just sometimes takes a bit of effort to work things out properly.

You take care of yourself okay?? <3
 
I feel your pain brother

I am 24 and live with my dad we argue 24/7 and there is a complete communication breakdown. I cant find a job, am about to start a Plumbing course at college though so cant move out as it'll make life harder to go to college.

I feel trapped, im constantly hungry never have any money, have no transport and feel like killing myself on a daily basis.
 
Hey man, make an account and join the TDS family. A lot of us are going through shit, some people with situations INCREDIBLY similar to yours. You might be stuck living home for now, but as long as you've got a computer, you can come on here, make posts, be able to reply to them, and get some really incredible support. Let me tell you, if it wasn't for BL and people like n3o, I may not still be alive and typing to you right now. I also have very little support in real life, and you will be amazed at the amount of support you'll receive on this forum, from people all around the world <3
 
Hey brother
just wanted to tell you to hang in there.
everyone has tough times in life, its how you deal with those times that shape the type of person you are. Things will get better if you continue to do things that will help you get out of the situation you are currently in. Go to school, get whatever you need to get a job and have money to move out.

This sight is a great place to release your feelings and get feedback from other people.
Take care of yourself
Morris
 
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