washingtonbound
Bluelighter
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- Aug 19, 2013
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I’m wondering if anyone else experiences this; I feel that I don’t get much out of taking drugs anymore but at the same time I dislike sobriety/being around sober people. I’ve tried everything besides some of the weird research chemicals and there’s really nothing that does it for me anymore. I used to really enjoy psychedelics (particularly lsd and ketamine) on a monthly or bimonthly basis but unfortunately I experienced psychosis from that a few times so I can’t comfortably take them anymore. I used to like taking Xanax sometimes but I’ve seen people experience hell on earth from withdrawing from that and ever since lil peep died I can’t comfortably take it anymore. I really don’t like stimulants like coke and molly because of what it does to my heart rate and I start feeling really jittery and anxious on stems in general. Even drinking is a bad experience for me now and I get throbbing headaches and sometimes experience suicidal thoughts. So in general i feel that substances don’t do much for me anymore but at the same time I’m pretty miserable sober. Being around people that are stone cold sober is really awkward and uncomfortable for me. I especially don’t like being around people who used to have substance abuse problems because a lot of them constantly yap about how great it is to be sober and trying to convince themselves. Just wondering if other people get a similar feeling of not getting much out of drugs or sobriety.