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Bluelighter
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- Dec 7, 2006
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ive been thinking alot lately about the fact that i need to find myself some kind of skill or education set to better serve myself in the long run of life. i have been thinking that college is probably the best way to go, as it offers the most broad range of possibilities and social settings.
the thing is, im quite apprehensive about going to college. im 24, i have no previous college courses to my credit other than one single class i took and passed about 4 years ago. i barely made it though high school. i know im a smart person and a fairly logical thinker. but when i feel challenged with something in a learning environment, i tend to shut down. i dont like being challenged, as i feel it is like i have to "prove myself" to somebody for their approval, and when i do succeed i feel....well, embarrassed. i dont feel good about those kinda things. i know others take great pleasure in challenges and succeeding in something difficult, but i dont.
i guess what it comes down to is that i dont feel that i am "good enough" for college. like the whole thing is a competition between everybody as to who is smarter and who has more friends, and id just rather not participate in that. i know im smart, but i just feel like im not good enough for it still. does that make sense?
i just totally lack the self confidence to sign up for college and actually go and learn and be humble to the things that i dont know and to be open to learn them even if they are difficult. i wish there was a way to just overcome this and to feel good about the fact that im going to college and sure im just starting out and there are a million people who are way ahead of me but hey at least im doing it and ill get there someday.
does anybody have any advice? can anybody relate to what im saying?
the thing is, im quite apprehensive about going to college. im 24, i have no previous college courses to my credit other than one single class i took and passed about 4 years ago. i barely made it though high school. i know im a smart person and a fairly logical thinker. but when i feel challenged with something in a learning environment, i tend to shut down. i dont like being challenged, as i feel it is like i have to "prove myself" to somebody for their approval, and when i do succeed i feel....well, embarrassed. i dont feel good about those kinda things. i know others take great pleasure in challenges and succeeding in something difficult, but i dont.
i guess what it comes down to is that i dont feel that i am "good enough" for college. like the whole thing is a competition between everybody as to who is smarter and who has more friends, and id just rather not participate in that. i know im smart, but i just feel like im not good enough for it still. does that make sense?
i just totally lack the self confidence to sign up for college and actually go and learn and be humble to the things that i dont know and to be open to learn them even if they are difficult. i wish there was a way to just overcome this and to feel good about the fact that im going to college and sure im just starting out and there are a million people who are way ahead of me but hey at least im doing it and ill get there someday.
does anybody have any advice? can anybody relate to what im saying?