JohnBoy2000
Bluelighter
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- May 11, 2016
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Man I discontinued psychiatric drugs completely a few months ago and things have been relatively okay.
I still get worked up about some things and this evening it began to get a little overwhelming.
I find ketamine connects me back to "base" thought, waves, the universe, our place, our purpose - neural reset.
I shot 30 mg and then 20 minutes later another 30 mg, IM.
It kind of felt like a pressure valve releasing.
In one sense I'm bummed cause I thought I was done with pharmaceuticals but out of ALL the drugs I've tried most recently,
- a wide array of prescription drugs, all SSRI's, mirtazapine, seroquel etc., all
- most recreational kind that have potential therapeutic benefit, cannabis, methamphetamine (made me feel wonderful but at the same time totally like dog shit), LSD, MDMA
Ketamine was the only one that when I come out the other side of, I feel stable.
Is this my life moving forward?
Having to do the occasional shot of ketamine just to stabilize from time to time when psychological shit and emotion and shit gets overwhelming?
.....
I felt it was very glamorized by the track by British rock group, "Bring me the Horizon".
I can totally relate to that scene/mood/feeling having grown up in a similar environment; the track is as I understand it written to reflect the effects of ketamine use - kind of like pleasantly checking out for an hour or so.
.....
Point being, ketamine feels like my saving grace at this stage of development/recovery.
I still get worked up about some things and this evening it began to get a little overwhelming.
I find ketamine connects me back to "base" thought, waves, the universe, our place, our purpose - neural reset.
I shot 30 mg and then 20 minutes later another 30 mg, IM.
It kind of felt like a pressure valve releasing.
In one sense I'm bummed cause I thought I was done with pharmaceuticals but out of ALL the drugs I've tried most recently,
- a wide array of prescription drugs, all SSRI's, mirtazapine, seroquel etc., all
- most recreational kind that have potential therapeutic benefit, cannabis, methamphetamine (made me feel wonderful but at the same time totally like dog shit), LSD, MDMA
Ketamine was the only one that when I come out the other side of, I feel stable.
Is this my life moving forward?
Having to do the occasional shot of ketamine just to stabilize from time to time when psychological shit and emotion and shit gets overwhelming?
.....
I felt it was very glamorized by the track by British rock group, "Bring me the Horizon".
I can totally relate to that scene/mood/feeling having grown up in a similar environment; the track is as I understand it written to reflect the effects of ketamine use - kind of like pleasantly checking out for an hour or so.
.....
Point being, ketamine feels like my saving grace at this stage of development/recovery.