Maya
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Wow! I wish I was there right now that's a very beautiful placeGood Morning, everyone.
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This is the 40th day that I haven't had a cigarette. Time flies by
Wow! I wish I was there right now that's a very beautiful placeGood Morning, everyone.
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Ya....seven billion strange looking things roaming around on a rock that is spinning and flying through an infinitely large space of mostly emptiness. And nobody really has any clue why. And what we deceide to do is put one another in cages to suffer more when we take something that makes coping with the unknowns just a tiny bit easier. Absolute insanity.
I left my phone at home today. Great start to my day. Hopefully things will improve from here forward.
Addy hon no one here can advise rather or not you should go on suboxone unless they truly know you or your situation. I may be biased here with what I'm saying so please keep that in mind. Most people go on suboxone because of the physical addiction, fear of withdrawals n as a mean of harm reduction.
It really depends on a number of factors really. What you are taking, how much you are taking, the dangers with what you are taking - for instance does it contain a lot of paracetamol which could kill your liver if more than 4g per day, can the substance be cut with something lethal ie fentanyl that sort of thing, lastly how strong is the psychological addiction "the obsession to use," are you using more n more? Is history repeating itself?
What have you done in terms of after-care? Counselling? NA? Other interventions?
Going on suboxone should be a last resort if you find you cannot stop n you have tried everything in your power then do suboxone but until then look for other ways. I say this because you've no longer got a physical addiction n adding suboxone would obviously add that to the mix with possible side affects along with trying to find the right dosage for you. But please don't rule it out as a possible option if all else is not working.
Take care,
Evey xxxx
this is great and i will think of it the next time I feal lonely.Ya....seven billion strange looking things roaming around on a rock that is spinning and flying through an infinitely large space of mostly emptiness. And nobody really has any clue why.
Thanks Evey
I don't have after care counseling, though I should...I basically suffered in silence when I was IVing because fear. Fear of judgement, etc. Never been to NA before either. I don't know what to doI feel lost and like I'm slipping back into old ways...
My pills contain 500mg paracetamol per pill...so...I've taken up to 4500mg paracetamol per day before, for like a week straight. So that's like 31,500mg per week. Fuck. I never looked at it like that before. Do you think my liver is slowly dying?Now I'm worried.
Thanks Evey
I don't have after care counseling, though I should...I basically suffered in silence when I was IVing because fear. Fear of judgement, etc. Never been to NA before either. I don't know what to doI feel lost and like I'm slipping back into old ways...
My pills contain 500mg paracetamol per pill...so...I've taken up to 4500mg paracetamol per day before, for like a week straight. So that's like 31,500mg per week. Fuck. I never looked at it like that before. Do you think my liver is slowly dying?Now I'm worried.
I feel lost and like I'm slipping back into old ways...
You gotta tell that new boyfriend of yours that you have problems with addiction. You don't necessarily have to tell him that you are presently injecting (if you are injecting again? and assuming you're not sharing needles?), but just that this has been a problem for you for a while now, and you're helping yourself by being honest about it. Relationships are meant to be two people helping each other. You don't know how much he could help you until you let him try. Or if he reacts badly, you cut your losses without losing any more of your precious time. But ya, I'm sure that being withholding about this is causing you anxiety, guilt and shame. Which of course only keeps the loop of addiction spinning.
It was a suggestion. In person, I'd elbow her and smile as I said it. Perhaps that was lost through internet communication. It's her business if she tells him or not, I am just saying that I believe that in doing so, she would be helping herself.
Geeze. Ever here of a CWE? Hah. Damn.
You gotta tell that new boyfriend of yours that you have problems with addiction. You don't necessarily have to tell him that you are presently injecting (if you are injecting again? and assuming you're not sharing needles?), but just that this has been a problem for you for a while now, and you're helping yourself by being honest about it. Relationships are meant to be two people helping each other. You don't know how much he could help you until you let him try. Or if he reacts badly, you cut your losses without losing any more of your precious time. But ya, I'm sure that being withholding about this is causing you anxiety, guilt and shame. Which of course only keeps the loop of addiction spinning.
Is this true, addy, are you feeling guilt n anxiety because your fella doesn't know. Red no offence but we don't tell people what to do, we advise them. It's up to ad whether or not she tells her fella. She's only been with him awhile n may not feel ready to tell him yet. Do you feel that you'd like him to know yet? Red is right, if you tell him he may be a good support for you n if he's funny over it then he's not worth it but if you feel you're not ready to tell him yet as things are in the early stages that's up to you. Only you can decide this.