Mental Health Fear of waking up depressed & anxious?

[Legally High]

Right now I feel clearer headed about life than I have in a long long time. I'm afraid of sleeping and losing the insights I have now. I'm afraid I will get desperate, and lack perspective, fill my rx for ambien and black out setting me way back in my recovery.

Is this a normal struggle for anyone else?
I'm usually so low down that I feel like I'm not thinking clearly at all and am blindly stumbling through life.

 

[chasingabee]

What are the insights you have now? Why would you forget them?

 

[Legally High]

I felt like I had a "window" of feeling like I could see the life I wanted and how easily it could play out. But now I'm all agitated and feel like my heads scrambled, most likely because I'm out of bud to make me feel good at the end of the day. I fiend for grass when I run out though, because of the pleasantness. Other substances I use for functionality, or to evade withdrawal. But nothing's quite like the bud headspace.

 

[Legally High]

I'm glad you asked I feel like therapy just getting my thoughts out there. My mood sucks I'm looking forward to trying lamictal next.

 

[Levorphanol]

just focus all of your attention to your psychological health, drugs can come later. Definitely try therapy and even maybe see a GP about it. Hope you get better man