I am fairly familiar with psychedelics, mostly LSD, but I am drawn towards substances that can reveal more secrets of the universe… I am mostly thinking about salvia and DMT. And here’s my problem. I am scared. With LSD I am in control, at least sort of, but here… I know that one puff can take me somewhere where I won’t be able to come back until the trip is over.
I tried trace amounts of both DMT and salvia and salvia did freak me out a bit, I couldn’t recognize my wife and I forgot how to use language… it was just for like a minute but scared me a bit.
I know that even though with salvia there’s quite a risk the trip will be bad, DMT in “normal” dose is almost always fun, but I am still scared. My question is… did any of you have such a fear and learn how to overcome it… or should I take my fear as the sign that’s it’s not for me, at least not at the second?
Well, first of all, only you know what
type of fear you have and why. If there is nothing but fear, I think it's not the worst idea to just leave these things alone as long this is the case. But I do understand you, these
being shot out of a rocket type come ups are no joke. Can't say much about DMT but here is something regarding salvia divinorum that may help you out:
If you are planing to have "a good/joyful time" or an "insightful spiritual type experience", I'm not sure salvia is the right drug for it. It's no doubt one of the most bizarre and far out things I've ever come across! If you want to push the envelope of what
experience per se can entail, or want to challenge your intellectual grasp or framework of, well, everything, then maybe there is something in store for you.
Have tried all sorts of ROAs with leaves (had a lot of plants as well one day) before moving on to extracts. I think it's worth getting a standardized one, which takes aways the worry/gamble of "how strong will it be?". When I started exploring it back in the day, I did it with incremental doses, each day a bit more, analyzing it etc., ..easing my way into it, if you will. Don't worry, I dont't think there is a way of "getting used to it", ever!
This looks like a reasonable approach, and a way to manage anxiety, because many years later (still having large quantities of extract) I decided to do it again, for no particular reason. Looked at my notes (dose: check), prepared the space (setting: check) but I had no intention and clearly forgot how dissociative and alien the experience is (set: fail), which resulted in having an absolute horrifying experience, despite a moderate dose! But it left me with quite an appreciation of ordinary reality for some time, so it was not all bad. If you are not prepared to let go of reality, of everything you know and are to begin with, salvia divinorum will rip you out of it with no mercy and zero warning. And it not necessarily takes you to a happy and divine place afterwards, but it's possible to be blown away by amazement of how weird and otherworldly thing can become, whether "you" are there or not. And don't be fooled by the short duration of effect, that doesn't mean anything; I am serious here! That's how I feel about it. I was planing to do a report for erowid based on this experience, but this takes so much work.. (so haven't yet done it naturally).
I think respect it certainly advised with salvia divinorium. (These videos of trailer park folks unmindfully doing 60x extract for the first time surround by assholes called friends on the porch besides a busy road scare the living crap out of me, I can't watch them.) If I decide to explore it again, I will certainly ease my way into it as described above; sanity is not worth giving away carelessly.
Good luck.