fear and loathing in FLA

[izzy66]

i just want to be free, and happy....

so much of what you wrote is really similar to things i've written in my journals. even the 10 hits thing... i was there and kinda pissed about it cuz it wasn't workin out the way i expected. and wanted.

anyway-
about being free and happy...
you can get there cuz i did and not the way i thought. such incredible bliss and i was so confused because i didn't know what that feeling was. i didn't have any experience w/ "free" and "happy", didn't have a word for what i was feeling.

but what really surprised me was that it happened during a totally clean time in my life. i expected bliss/happiness to come from something i ingested, from something outside of me.

right when i least expected... surprised the hell outta me.
happy trails
-izzy

 

[CDClock]

Have you considered piracetam? It's safe and apparently potentiates psychedelics

 

[suffocating sky]

Damn bro I liked it so much I had to comment, I feel you on both apsects, it's like me and weed and molly I enjoy them, they've shaped the course of my life forever, I don't look at things the same. But what do you get when all you've done is lived for the moment and it's passed? Either regret or fullfillment, no one can tell you how to live your life. I've been down many a painful road as we all have, due to my addiction I got fired from my job (back up plan though) and had to move back in with my mom for awhile (not part of the plan) but shit happens, just make sure you can handle it when it comes down the pipe. Oh and lastly, keep a note pad with you, sometimes you just gotta jot shit down.

thanks man, and thanks to everyone else who responded, i appreciate the input.
i'd say more but i just typed my heart out, and my brain is starting to stall....

 

[Ismene]

There is the old adage:
"Once you get the message, Hang up the Phone"

Bear in mind tho that the guy who came up with this adage ended up a chronic alcoholic drinking 2 bottles of whisky a day and finally drinking himself to death in the most pitiful manner imaginable.

If he'd kept taking psychedelics insted of "hanging up the phone" he'd have lived a lot healthier life.