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fasfter faster untill the thrill of speed overcomes the fear of death

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Yomaukkis

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I have severe lung cancer that can only be medicated having less than year to live...

is it wrong to abuse speed 0.3g or higher doses twice a day to feel happy and enjoy life without the depression that comes from the fear of death and end of life.

posts and replys of any kind of wellcome :)

I seriously enjou amphetamines feels like havent been happy like this ever.
 
oh my God im so sorry!!! :(

im glad that you're looking for ways to make the best of your last year though.
if i were you, id look into every possible way to extend my life-expectancy.
and i mean every way, medicine, supplements, vitamins, exersize, evurythinngg.
and using amphetamines wont help you live any longer:\

i dont wanna promote drug use, but its up to you, if you wanna use your last year using amphetamines because they make you happy, go for it :)
 
I'm very sorry to hear about the cancer <3

Is it wrong to abuse speed over the next year? There's no moral issue to it IMO, it's a matter of how you want to spend your time. As posted above my first choice would be to do what I could to try to heal. Sure it's not always possible but sometimes doctors are wrong, and sometimes people just cure themselves without any scientific explanation.

How long have you been using amphetamines for and what kind are you using? If you've been using for a long time I can understand you not wanting to struggle with quitting when you are being told that you only have one year to live. But if you're just starting to use them now I would think it's unlikely that using high doses daily for an extended period will continue to give you the same experience that it does at the beginning.

Whatever you choose to do I hope you are able to make the most of your time and find some peace.
 
past 4 years or so on weekends always binge from friday to sunday-monday... snorting... nowdays i think of using daily since it makes me happy
 
If you've been bingeing each weekend for several years then it may be that a big part of what you feel speed makes you "happy" is because the rest of the week is spent recovering for the weekend. It's hard to get much pleasure out of anything when the body is worn out and trying to return to balance.

Is cutting down an option? Or can you make sure to get sleep each night rather than stay awake for the entire weekend?
 
its just because i may got less than year to live ... wants to go full speed no matter how hard it goes on the body and heart-.
 
Morally, I can't judge you for it....I'd do it too..

On a more academic note; doing that much speed with your condition will only shorten your time left on this planet, so that is something for you to think about, something you must weight and come to an answer on.
 
^I agree.

Youmakkis, am so sorry to hear of your prognosis. It makes sense that you want to just enjoy the time you have left without becoming depressed but I will echo other's sentiments here it may take away the quality of the time you have left too(speed comedowns etc), and that may weigh heavy on your mind as well; As you are asking 'Is it wrong to abuse'? Are you getting any councelling with this? I would love for you to have some peace of mind and acceptance, with whatever you choose, I dont think this is at all impossible. <3
 
Hey man, feeling for ya, i hope u can say you led a fulfilled life before closing your eyes for good. <There are other forums to discuss/give advice about recreational use- see TDS Guidelines>

In any case, spend your money and time wise bro..

wish you a painless transition to other side..

Almost forgot; grats on taking it like a champ; hope to see you keep standing strong when it matters the most ;)
 
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I am really sorry about the diagnoses fuck that must be devastating. I don't even know what to say to that really. I can't even imagine what that must be like but you have my deepest sympathies.

If i knew i was going to die within say a few months i would have little doubt that i would abuse drugs so no way can i judge you. However id want to spend as much time as i could and live the rest of the days that i was still able to care for myself in the most fulfilling way possible. Speed will most likely shorten the time you have left not to mention other stuff that can happen from overuse of amphetamines such as lowered immune system and such and such. Speed takes a heavy toll on the body at the best of times so it would only be logical to assume that if you where sick that it would take a much greater toll. This is not even mentioning the psychiatric effects that you get with speed such as the awful comedowns, psychosis, paranoia and deep and sometimes suicidal depression. I know if i overdo it on say dextroamphetamine that i get horribly depressed beyond words and who wants to speed their last days like that? I know that speed can temporarily lift depression or fatigue for some people atleast but it comes with a high price hence the awful comedowns. The only real advice i can give you on that is to maybe get some counseling about all this and come to terms with the time you have left.

I pretty much believe that people should live as if they only had limited time left and actually accomplish what they want to do as best they can anyway. I believe in no afterlife so therefor i believe that we only have hear and now and since we have no great reward at the end of it all that we should make the best of the time we have now. Such are my personal beliefs anyway.
 
Is it wrong? No. You should spend your last days on this earth however you choose. Would I do the same thing? No. I mean I would try drugs that I never got to try but I would try to spend as much of my time left with those who I care about. But I do not know your family/friend situation so if you wish to spend your time left on speed I wish you a peaceful last year.
 
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