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Hey everyone!!! I hope that all of you are doing well. As for me, well, I fell down a flight of about 10+ stairs last week and have been laid up for a few days. I had to go to the ER and unfortunately I have injured my back and my ribs. Nothing permanent, I hope. So I think we ALL now where this conversation is headed........ pain meds.

I was given a script of 12 7.5mg lortabs and to my surprise, as well as most of yours most likely, 12 pills lasted me four, I said 4, days. I didn't abuse them in any way. They lasted me longer than they were supposed to. I was pissed that this happened in the first place and was worried it would take me back down the rabbit hole.

To my surprise though, I did not like they way they made me feel. After being clean for so long, just one pill made me tired and feel sick. I was amazed, maybe if your in real pain they work differently, I don't know. Either way I feel like I slipped up and am sorry. I am clean again though and am not starting all of this over again. I'm still in pain but have requested non-narcotic pain meds.

well I hope everyone is doing great and look forward to hearing from you guys. I really need the support right now as I'm in pain almost to the point of breaking down and getting a real script. My doc said that I might have to if what I'm on doesn't work. Oh well, I won't let it control me again.
 
^^ Wow man that is so good to hear that even in the face of such a potential trigger, you managed to not succumb to relapse. You should be very proud of that! Thanks for the update :) <3
 
Yeah this is most admirable....

certainly puts me to shame as far as family-induced cold turkey strategies go.

seriously, dude. congrats =D
 
Hi everyone :)

I hope that you are all doing well and enjoying life today. I'm still doing great and my back has healed after falling down a flight of stairs, what a dumb-ass. I didn't relapse because of the pain meds I was on either. I mean when they ran out, they ran out without me "obtaining" more. I was wondering if any of you have stopped taking opiates for a few months and the next time you took some, you all of the sudden disliked them?

When I injured myself, my script of lortabs ( see post #41- great Dave Matthews song by the way #41) the tabs made me feel sick. I was taking them as prescribed on top of that. I used to be able to take a handful of pills, be it hydros or percs or snorting an OC 80. Now its like one or two 7.5mg tabs make me sick. I'm just curious because it seemed odd to me at the time.

I know that I when started taking adderall a lot for fun I would feel good and energetic. Now adderall makes me terribly sick and tired as well. I can take twenty mgs of addy and fall asleep. Needless to say I haven't taken any of that shit in quit some time. I must just be weird because when I start out taking something its fun and makes me feel good. Now if I quit taking it for a while and try it again later, it has the opposite effects on me than when I started taking it. Any one else seem to have this problem/miracle. I say miracle because it keeps me from wanting to continue to take something that I don't need in the first place. Unless my retarded ass falls down some more steps, LOL. ;)

Anyway, I'm not taking anything now, still living the clean life. I was just thinking about this for some reason and wanted to see if anyone had some insight. Other than that I'm doing great and I hope that you all are as well. I look forward to hearing from you guys and I hope that all of you are being careful not to fall down some fucking stairs, those things are pointy ya know.
 
no thats not weird. I quit taking opiates when I took 9 tabs and felt NOTHING when I was 18....I had 80mg ocs alot....all they did was make me feel fucking sick.....this was after a long long break and they still didnt do shit...just made me feel illl


im beginning to wonder about adderall. I like it...But I dont think I like it that much. I dont think I like any drugs. I just do them because im a pathetic low life fuckbag
 
^^^ BAO, I'm starting to feel the same way that you do about drugs, I don't think that I like any drugs anymore either. Which just may turn out to be a good thing so that I can get on with my life and let this chapter of it be over with. Although, I might not know you, but I don't think that you are a "pathetic low life fuckbag." You had the decency to try and help me answer a question and I thank you for that.

I just don't understand drugs anymore, and I hope that I never have to try and understand them again. I hope someone can understand this, because I don't fully "get" it yet. Best wishes to everyone and I hope that you all are doing well.

- drewskie :)
 
Hello again to everyone. I hope that you all are doing well. Well, I have a confession to make, I have relapsed once again. I had been sober for almost four months and I just could not take it anymore. I feel terrible for giving in, but life just seemed so dull and I missed the energy that opiates gave me. On the positive side I have a low tolerance :) I'm going to attempt to make this an occasional thing though, not a heavy daily habit. Any way, I'm thinking about trying to go to a clinic and try bupe or something because I don't want to go back down this road.

I think that maybe if I had some to curb the cravings and all that jazz that I could stay off for good, which is what I want. we will see, anyway I just needed to get that off my chest and I hope that everyone else is having a great summer, or winter wherever you may be. Thanks for any advice.

- Drewskie
 
Hey drewskie, thanks so much for the update man. Sorry to hear you relapsed but I'm sure you're aware it is extremely common for people who are getting clean off drugs so please don't feel too bad about it. I really hope you can steer WELL clear of the wrong path, like you said you don't want to go back there again. You worked so hard to get clean. I know you said you're hoping this can just now be an occasional thing, but do you think it might be better to just quit again after you've had your relapse? It's up to you of course but if it was me, it would be too risky for me to dabble again...
 
Hey you should listen to some comedy (helped me a lot The Simpsons!) maybe good ole cartoons or comics like bill hicks or patton oswalt should make you roll around laughing just to remember whats its like to be sober and in such pure joy. Good luck it sounds like your through the "hard part" but the real hard part is going to be living life without thinking "If I was only high if only i had x pills I could do this or that." You gots it in you to succeed and succeed you will!
 
yeah bro just b careful cuz that "occasional thing" is how i started and many others. while u might b able to pull off the occasional use for a couple of months or even a year, u will prob slip back into active addiction. im saying this from my own experience and many others i know. the best thing to do is just abstain from use.

i've been going to NA meetings and they help alot. i know its not the most popular way for members of this site but it sure has helped me. while shits gotten very bad for me, the meetings help me realize it can get a whole lot worse if i try to "control"my use. just a thought...
 
thanks everyone for the advice and input. You all are so right, I don't want to use at all because I know myself and that "occasional" thing would lead me straight back to being an addict. I was just using that as an excuse to justify my actions. The truth is that I slipped up. I have to keep my mind on track towards the end goal.

Like someone said saying " oh, if I only had x amount of pills I could do this or that." I have be aware and careful of my thoughts right now because I'm on such a fine line and it would be so easy to slip up and erase all of this hard work. I really appreciate all of you guys that take the time out of your day to listen to people like me and give your advice.

I will keep letting you guys know whats going on and hopefully I can help someone through my experiences with this. I wish you all the best and thank you.

- Drewskie :)
 
Hey guys I need some major help. I have been smoking 2 and 3 fentanyl patches ( 10mg patches) for about three weeks now. Well, now I'm out of patches and really no way to get anything else right now. I have already decided to go to a methadone clinic in the morning as I'm about to be in a shit ton of pain. Also, I'm soooo tired of playing this pointless and reckless game of opiate addiction. I mean smoking fentanyl, what the fuck is wrong with me. Any way I just need some advice or info on the whole methadone process. Thank you guys for the info.
 
Mate I don't have any personal experience with methadone therapy but I sincerely wish you all the best, you're doing the right thing by going to the clinic <3
 
well I went to clinic this morning and took my first dose. This is the happiest I have been in a long time. I already feel a little "normal" and I don't want to be to optimistic but I think that this is going to finally be an end to my drug seeking days. This might be the miracle
I have been waiting for. No more always thinking about my next fix and how I'm going to get it. I know its only my first day but I finally have hope again, I don't feel like I'm imprisoned by addiction anymore. I can't wait to put my life back together and move on.
 
^^ So glad to hear this man, it sounds like you're in the right frame of mind and have the determination to make it work. Keep up the good work :) <3
 
It will work out if you put work into it. Basically you have everything you need to succeed, it just depends on you whether you use it.

Methadone will make you stable enough that you can focus on your life instead of getting meds or scoring. It really is pretty cool. You will be fine as long as you stay with the plan.
 
how long will it take for the methodone to "hold" me for an entire day? Right now I'm only getting about an hour or two of relief, then I'm craving something the rest of the day. I have not taken anything other than the methodone the past two days, I'm just curious as to how long it will take to really work. I'm going to do everything in my power not to use ever again, but thinking about it most of the day is tiresome. I took 35mg methodone today and I will take 40mg in the morning, which will be my third day in treatment.
 
It needs time to build in your system. Just like cutting it where mgs gets halved every 24-28 hrs...the opposite it is true when getting on treatment. So later the amount you are taking is not the true amount but actually higher. Just a matter of adjusting and for the d.o.c.to leave your system. I'd say a week your body will get more accustomed...keep going up 5 (or 10) if the allow...all depending uopn habit size...listen to your body but be patient and give your body time to adjust to the new drug.
 
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