i had a pretty candid conversation with my grandmother today, where we went over how much money she's outright given me over the past three years. The total: $13,000 - cash. $10,000 of it came all at once when I needed an angel investor for my "electronics company," and I actually spent that money gambling in the options market, getting high, and putting the down payment on a Passat which I have officially lost now.
So instead of playing captain innocent when confronted with the notion that some of that money may have been spent on drugs, I admitted it like an adult. I did it because I notice how pathetic my friends look when they are down and out and lying to mommy and daddy about whether or not they need drugs. It's lame, and it's something an 18 year old would do.
I'm 27, and to be honest I need some maintenance meds that the doctors are just not giving me. My grandmother said she would pay for my drugs until I found a decent doctor, partly because she watched what happened to my uncle when he rode the rollercoaster of trying to quit until he bled to death in agony anyways, while completely sober, because of his fucked up liver.
I reasoned that if I only have 13-20 more years left to live, then I am going to need some medication to regulate the way I feel - benzos at the vary least. She asked me why I don't just get them on the street if doctors don't understand, and I said that I do. Then she said that she would pay for them so that I can concentrate on saving money during this shitty, shitty economy.
Btw I've been unemployed for three months and I just got hired as the manager of a really nice japanese seafood and sushi place. Not my first choice, but will definitely add to my life experience and it will be cool to know that I can float around high as a kite. Second time I've managed a restaurant. This one seems more legit though, as in less room for hustling.
So instead of playing captain innocent when confronted with the notion that some of that money may have been spent on drugs, I admitted it like an adult. I did it because I notice how pathetic my friends look when they are down and out and lying to mommy and daddy about whether or not they need drugs. It's lame, and it's something an 18 year old would do.
I'm 27, and to be honest I need some maintenance meds that the doctors are just not giving me. My grandmother said she would pay for my drugs until I found a decent doctor, partly because she watched what happened to my uncle when he rode the rollercoaster of trying to quit until he bled to death in agony anyways, while completely sober, because of his fucked up liver.
I reasoned that if I only have 13-20 more years left to live, then I am going to need some medication to regulate the way I feel - benzos at the vary least. She asked me why I don't just get them on the street if doctors don't understand, and I said that I do. Then she said that she would pay for them so that I can concentrate on saving money during this shitty, shitty economy.
Btw I've been unemployed for three months and I just got hired as the manager of a really nice japanese seafood and sushi place. Not my first choice, but will definitely add to my life experience and it will be cool to know that I can float around high as a kite. Second time I've managed a restaurant. This one seems more legit though, as in less room for hustling.
