Falling deeper into Very bad habit....

[Droolingfaith]

Hi everyone!!I am new to this website and I thought this might be a good place to find answers to some questions I have. I always thought that addiction was not for me, that I was protected against it. I always smoked a little weed, did somelines, smoked some crack… Etc.. In short, I tried a lot of differents drugs in my life without ever feeling the need of doing more or feeling “addicted” to them.

Until I tried shooting up pills…. It all started 8 months ago when I tried shooting a little dillie 8mg. And since then, everything keeps going up n up n up…. Except for my bank account and my health I think haha.. I started with shooting 8mg of hydro about once a week and now, I am shooting a minimum of 80mg a day doing around 4-5 shots per day. I remember how I use to feel with as little as 8mg: I would be high for like 2 hours and it was really fun.
My girlfriend was doing it with me but she didn’t keep up with me because she doesn’thave the funding to be a full blown opiate addict. So she stayed out of it. But not me. I don’t even feel high anymore when I do it, only a little rush that last about 30 seconds L. I don’t see the point of keeping doing this anymore, it’s completely ruining my financial life, and my health is probably next, I would think…

I tried to quit several times but there is something that keeps me bonded to it,like a slave. I cant stop. When I go a day without it, I start feeling some pretty crazy cravings, and follows the upset stomach and restlessness and EXTREME FATIGUE. I mean, whats the point of doing drugs like this when it makes you feel sick when you don’t have it and everything just become worst and worst with time??
I would really appreciate to know if someone here has been or is going thru the same ruff path in his or her life, and how the hell did you get rid of this addiction? Right now, everything seems hopeless and it feels like Imade the mistake of trying this and I will be doing it for the rest of my life…I really hope not. Any help would be GREATLY appreciated!! Thanks everyone!!

 

[AcidRAEn]

I was a pretty serious user for about two years and I have now been clean for about two years. It takes a lot of work, and unfortunately most of the people I know had to hit absolute rock bottom before they started to make a change. For me it was losing one of my best friends who died from complications due to IV drug use. As you know, it quickly goes from being a fun and enjoyable experience to being a necessary part of life if you want to avoid being really sick. My advice is to get out NOW before it takes over every aspect of your life. It takes a conscious decision and real effort to avoid temptation.

I would also recommend finding some sort of hobby or passion to put your energies into rather than the pursuit and use of drugs. Even after my friend died I used some until I found out I was pregnant. After that I had something that filled the hole the drugs had left behind.

 

[Jezebel'sCandy]

Hello! I can relate to you. I have been slipping deeper and deeper into the same habits. I haven't shot up yet, but I have thought about it very hard. I have been trying to wean myself off my addiction and I am down to 10mgs of opioids a day. I relate to the upset stomach and the fatigue. Those seem to be my worst symptoms as well.
Since one of my best friends also likes the rig. It's amazing to see the rush he gets off an oxy as compared to me snorting mine. I have to struggle to keep bills paid and food on the table. But my friend who likes to shoot never has money, lives with his dad (because his mom recently kicked him out when she found his rigs), and he also has Hep A, B, and C (ALL from shooting). I have been best friends with this kid since elementary school. It's hard to see him taking this road. It just rips my heart in two.
My advice, of course, would be to at least stop the rig. Take a few days off work if you can and just let your body rest and come off the rig part of the addiction. Try just taking some kind of nerve pill, Klonopin or Xanax to help with the W/D. They also help with the nausea and worry or anxiousness that comes along with quitting. I wish you the best of luck.

 

[AcidRAEn]

It's going to become a lot worse than just fatigue and stomachs issues if you continue. Cold sweats and hot flashes, a skin crawling sensation, extreme nausea, the inability to sleep..just a few of the symptoms I experienced at the height of my addiction. That will happen whether you're shooting or snorting. This isn't intended to scare you, or to belittle your current state..I just want to encourage you again to get out now..because it can (and will) get so much worse.

 

[Waynewood]

THey there friends, I understand what your going thru.. I've been using heroin IV for the past 7 years, I took 2012 off to hike the Appalachian trail. But I am currently using. I've been partying since I was 13 (booze,weed,coca in,acid,pills) but never used a needle intill 7 years ago. If you can stop I would recommend stoping. Cause eventually you will become addicted to the needle as much as the drug.. I know that sounds weird, but it is what happens. I used pills when I was 18 cause of my chrons and then I had cancer also. But I was deathly afraid of needles, now I shoot something everyday. The withdrawl symptoms you've experienced ( fatigue,restlessness'nausea) that is all courtesy of the opiates, that will never stop while you use, only way to stop it is to quit using, or use more.. I would suggest if you want to quit using, try to get some help.. There's councling services and meetings(N.A. Or A.A. And there's others) quiting on your own is very very hard, nothing is impossible, but with help its a lil eAsier. Before I took my hike, I was a stereotypical junkie, had my hustles to make money, had a phone full of dope dealer numbers, and just was in a bad way. Again I now use again and it's almost everyday, but I work hard and probally will dye before I quit now.. My family asks me what's the point also, I dnt have a good answer for that, I love getting high.. I did pills a while, but they were way to exspensive and dope is better and cheaper.. People often look down on you cause they use "pills" and I use heroin... But in all honest they are the same herion is just cheaper.. But again, if your serious about quiting I would look into a councling service and they could get you in some meetings and that will help some. It doesn't ever get easier or any different . If anything it gets harder... Well I hope I helped some what.. If you ever need someone to talk to, or have any questions I'm always willingnes to listen and chat.. I wish you the best of days and hope everything works out!!!

Wayne

 

[T. Calderone]

Many times it does take people hitting bottom before they consider finally quitting. It's like you said, where you find yourself not even getting high from using or enjoy it anymore. More like it's just keeping you from getting sick.

I did detox and rehab a few times but went back to using right afterwards. When I was really serious, I weaned off the opiates on my own. Have you checked into getting on a maintenance program like methadone or suboxone?

 

[Droolingfaith]

Hey i wanna say thanks to everybody for your help! Good to know theres others peoples who understand that messed up situation im in right now haha. I went to a detox center about 2 months ago and i stayed there for a day. Pretty pathetic hey i know... But right now i think im realising something; i have to get rid of using needles THEN i can consider getting completly clean from opiates. What i mean is, i went to see a counsellor this week who refered me to a suboxone clinic. I have to go for an assesment in about 2 weeks from now. I really think that if i start the subs and eliminate needles from my life, everything is gonna gradually progress for the better, step by step! It might seem stupid but im kind of feeling relieved knowing tat i might be put on suboxone. Because, like i said, i tried to quit and i dunno if i can do it by myself, i have my doubts. Well thanks everyone for the support ! I will soon find out wat subs maintenance is....

 

[neversickanymore]

Just an option you may want to at least give a try before the subs.. not knocking the subs at all just saying that they can be a real bitch to ditch..

medications for acute opiate detox

The medications I would explore the use of for detox would be:
>Clonidine< DOSED EVER FOUR HOURS..

one of either
>NEURONTIN< >HERE< >HERE<
OR >Lyrica<
OR >phenibut<

>A BENZO BUT JUST AT NIGHT<
>a nsaid<
>melatonin<
tylenol

(Opi Withdrawal) what is the best comfort meds for opiate w/d?

Your Personal Opiate Withdrawal Arsenal

 

[Droolingfaith]

Oh im sure i could detox at home with comfort meds. Ive got lots of t4's, ativan, clonidine, imodium, melatonin, seroquel, NAC: n-acetyl-cysteine. Its a health product which is suppose to help you detox. Im not sure if it works but ill give it a try. The problem is, i cant detox by myself at home, i need someone to be here all day with me cuz it wont work otherwise. I have nobody lol.... I will stick with my plan of starting subs on the 11th. And just by curiosity, is anyone ever heard of NAC??? N-acetyl-Cysteine??? Mucho gracias hehe!!!