Falling apart

[Pyro13]

Hello all. I have recently picked up the habit of smoking meth once again. Back in May of 2012 I was fired from my job for an apparent thef of Norcos. Once fired and denied in employment, I began to drink and snort cocaine. The combination was awesome! One night my bro and I ran through an 8 ball of powder. With out connects asleep, I resorted to the local dealer and bought a 20 or crystal. We smoked out of a bulb and felt the most amazing high ever. My brother and wife kept asking me to get more. I was scared that history was repeating itsel, but thought that since it was all 3 of us, we would be ok. Well, tried to set a date before school, and failed. I am really great at manipulation, shuck is why in still getting high. Recently my wife and I have been going at eachothers throats. We get high and she brags about how she doesnt let it control her. Them she starts with all her hallucinations about how I have girls sneaking in the windows while she is home. She finally had enough and got help through a drug program, but did it behind my back. Today is day 4 if her sobriety and she is meaner than hell! Today she yelled that I had drugs coming in and out if the house, which I kinda do, but it was ok when she was high. I know that the quitting is near, and I guess that's what I dread. I don't stay up for days, I sleep every night and eat a lot! Dies any1 know when my wife will be ok, and any pointers on making the come down easier!

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Them she starts with all her hallucinations about how I have girls sneaking in the windows while she is home.

Dude, for the love of god, don't give her methamphetamine anymore.

My ex got equally psychotic with OR without methamphetamine, and believed that people were climbing through the air vents to have orgies with me. These air vents are so small that even a less than 100 pound adult couldn't get through it!

The second people start having hallucinations like this, you need to cut them off entirely and NEVER give them methamphetamine EVER again.

Finally, if you intend on using still, you need to leave her. If she wants to quit, she's not going to fare well with a meth using husband. She's obviously upset that you're using and she's being VERY vocal about it. It's only a matter of time until someone overhears her, and you get busted. Therefore, while you still have your freedom, get out of this bad situation you've gotten yourself into, by any means.

 

[modern buddha]

I think this might be better suited in The Dark Side. I am moving it there. Good luck with everything, OP and I hope things get better for you!

Welcome to Bluelight!

 

[Brobi-Wan Kenobi]

My ex got equally psychotic with OR without methamphetamine, and believed that people were climbing through the air vents to have orgies with me. These air vents are so small that even a less than 100 pound adult couldn't get through it!

The second people start having hallucinations like this, you need to cut them off entirely and NEVER give them methamphetamine EVER again.

Gotta co-sign on this. I used to bang cocaine frequently and as soon as the high wore off (so like five minutes later) I would immediately start to hallucinate that the police were staking out my house. My neighbors park their cars in the street so their kids can play basketball in the drive and I'd see just the wheels of their cars through the bottom slit on the window and think it was a cop car. From just THE WHEELS. I'd also panic a lot because we don't lock the garage and the back door won't lock anymore so if these hallucinatory cops wanted to bust into my house it wouldn't be all that hard. A lot of the times I'd even think I was seeing red and blue flashes coming through the windows, then go outside to confirm nothing was there, and go right back to hallucinating when I got inside. Also quite a bit of the "approaching cop siren" getting gradually louder that was never there. I cherished the times I banged coke and had xanax or trazadone handy because that definitely alleviated some of the edge. But I have to agree here. Drug psychosis is scary stuff and I certainly don't miss it. I guess the female version of drug psychosis is thinking you have a bunch of girls sneaking in behind her back? Who knew. . .

 

[neversickanymore]

Gotta co-sign on this. I used to bang cocaine frequently and as soon as the high wore off (so like five minutes later) I would immediately start to hallucinate that the police were staking out my house. My neighbors park their cars in the street so their kids can play basketball in the drive and I'd see just the wheels of their cars through the bottom slit on the window and think it was a cop car. From just THE WHEELS. I'd also panic a lot because we don't lock the garage and the back door won't lock anymore so if these hallucinatory cops wanted to bust into my house it wouldn't be all that hard. A lot of the times I'd even think I was seeing red and blue flashes coming through the windows, then go outside to confirm nothing was there, and go right back to hallucinating when I got inside. Also quite a bit of the "approaching cop siren" getting gradually louder that was never there. I cherished the times I banged coke and had xanax or trazadone handy because that definitely alleviated some of the edge. But I have to agree here. Drug psychosis is scary stuff and I certainly don't miss it. I guess the female version of drug psychosis is thinking you have a bunch of girls sneaking in behind her back? Who knew. . .

totally relate to the cop paranoia.. LOL at the female version.. insanity.

 

[mrflowers00]

haha sorry it's not funny but it kinda is i used to smoke crack and when the rush was gone i would straight trip balls i was talking to plants and trying to kill friends and my dad i went nuts got sent to a psych ward and it was the best thing that could have happened to me i was taken away from the crack and the DXM and i actually regained my sanity very quickly but don't make it so hard for your wife to quit