It’s a horrible feeling to have someone in the back of your mind that you know was yours, waiting for you with all love you could carry and all you can do now is miss them looking at you and just hope they feel the same. But there’s an air of conscious that comes with that thought, saying; the love mustn’t shine for each other anymore, its the over, get on with it… But I cant and I wont.
We both needed someone, to grow with, to cry on and support in our lives, we both suited that role so perfect, we just fell into each other and sunk deep. For some reason I still think we somehow need that ‘connection’ in our lives still, but all I can do is sit silently and just wish that connection would exist, but I’m just watching whats left fade away into just a brief concise memory. I’ve tried all I can to keep whats left of us as close as I can, but what I want and thought she wanted doesn’t matter anymore, because I’m on the outside of the relationship again and shes moving on, while I stand still and wait for that damn train that’s never gonna come again.
I’m slowly waiting as we quickly drift apart and then It’ll just be like the normal “ex” we’ve all had, someone that meant the world to you, grew and adjusted with, then all the volume turns down to nothing and you forget what they sound like, just like that. It wont be long until we’ll both read these very same lines and the meaning and love, wont seep between the space of each word, because we would have moved on and the words would have lost their connection to epic feelings.
It’s only now that feels like there’s any importance, when every sentence is capturing some happiness or memories that we can both feel where it matters most. I just wish I could write better to give my words true meaning, to capture exactly whats trapped inside me, in a series of short paragraphs, to remind us what it is, that we’ve shared all this time and how important it’s been in both our lives, but I cant write as beautifully as the things I feel in my heart and these colourless words just don’t express the emotions I feel enough.
We both needed someone, to grow with, to cry on and support in our lives, we both suited that role so perfect, we just fell into each other and sunk deep. For some reason I still think we somehow need that ‘connection’ in our lives still, but all I can do is sit silently and just wish that connection would exist, but I’m just watching whats left fade away into just a brief concise memory. I’ve tried all I can to keep whats left of us as close as I can, but what I want and thought she wanted doesn’t matter anymore, because I’m on the outside of the relationship again and shes moving on, while I stand still and wait for that damn train that’s never gonna come again.
I’m slowly waiting as we quickly drift apart and then It’ll just be like the normal “ex” we’ve all had, someone that meant the world to you, grew and adjusted with, then all the volume turns down to nothing and you forget what they sound like, just like that. It wont be long until we’ll both read these very same lines and the meaning and love, wont seep between the space of each word, because we would have moved on and the words would have lost their connection to epic feelings.
It’s only now that feels like there’s any importance, when every sentence is capturing some happiness or memories that we can both feel where it matters most. I just wish I could write better to give my words true meaning, to capture exactly whats trapped inside me, in a series of short paragraphs, to remind us what it is, that we’ve shared all this time and how important it’s been in both our lives, but I cant write as beautifully as the things I feel in my heart and these colourless words just don’t express the emotions I feel enough.
