facing first sober weekend and nervous

[funlover]

I wrote a few days ago about my gastritis diagnosis, which my doctor believes is caused by excessive drinking over a long period and particularly my habit of drinking on an empty stomach, and my doctor telling me I must stop drinking completely for several months or risk facing much more severe problems. I am taking this advice (along with that of other people on the forum) because I really want to get better. And, I suppose it's time I went more than a few days or so without drinking. I am getting really nervous about the evening, I am supposed to meet up with some friends and it's not a big deal, but I have never ever that I can remember hung out with people socially without drinking. I don't know what makes me so nervous about it -- I guess the worst thing that will happen is that I won't have fun -- but I feel I guess afraid everyone will realize I'm not all that much fun or funny or easygoing or whatever when I'm sober. I'm also just afraid of how upset I'll be that I can't drink, or that I won't be able to resist.

 

[Maya]

^how was last night OP? I hope you didnt get drawn into drinking alcohol. Your health comes first always remember that!

 

[funlover]

Thanks maya. I did not drink and also managed to resist today at brunch. It sounds like a tiny thing but for me it's huge. I literally always drink at any social/ semi-social event. This is the first weekend I can remember not drinking at all.

 

[Maya]

^congrats hun you did great! We have to always take care of ourselves as we won't be young forever. Best of luck

 

[ilikestims]

Congrats!

I know how you feel. But remember, the biggest danger is the slight erosion of willpower of a thousand cuts. In other words, it takes precious resources everybtime we "just say no," mentally or verbally. Those tiny triggers add up. To remain sober you will need to make some hard choices about the kind ofnfrinends and social engagements you take part in.

 

[funlover]

Funny to see your message, I was just having a really hard day with it all. My husband is going to a party Saturday and I'm dying to go, know I won't be able to resist temptation so staying away. I'm having trouble not feeling resentful even though I don't want to be restraining him because of my own problems. I'm already feeling anxiety about knowing I'm going to be upset and it's only Monday!