late teens id get so drunk id wake up still drunk and remain drunk half the day, then get back on it, wake up drunk again etc, then it came to sunday eve id feel on edge, id be in the bath and it looked like the curtains were ripping even though the window was shut. i remember going to a pub to meet a girl n few friends n felt disconnected, odd and dreamy, didnt feel right at all. couldnt sleep, sweaty, achey liver feeling, didnt get the shakes. in the morning id feel speedy, proper rebound. havent felt like that for years, dunno why i used to drink so fast and heavily. right mess. id be at work and my thoughts felt distant, reading stuff my vision felt a bit dodgy. if i was into valium back then it would have helped massivly