immediate frustration: prior to about 2 weeks ago, i lived with my brother and step-brother. then my brother decided he was just gonna leave (lease is up aug 1) and move in with his friends for no fuckin reason at all. whatever...as long as he's happy right? thats what i thought at first. its when he took the tv from the living room that things really started to get annoying here. its his tv and he has every right to take it, but he didn't need to. they have plenty of tv's over at the place he's staying at. so since there was no longer a tv in the living room, my step-brother brought his tv out here. so now he has no tv in his room. personally i dont really care about that, and its not that i don't like my step-brother, but he NEVER fuckin sleeps and we dont exactly share the same interests in whats on tv (this dude will watch sportscenter on repeat 24 hours ag day - i love sports, and sportscenter, but once i realize i've been watching the same exact shit for like 3 hours, thats enough for me.) not only that, i like to sleep in the living room (the blinds in the bedrooms are worthless and the couch is significantly more comfortable than the air mattress in my room.) so what happens now? he's ALWAYS in the living room. he's apparently also decided he's gonna be sleeping out here now because of the tv situation. and of course he's a channel changer. he doesn't watch commercials (which is right up there on my top "annoying" list - unless you are fucking psychic, you are always going to miss part of the show you were watching before, before you decide/remember to change back. i mean, we were watching the fucking lakers and celtics in the finals tonight and he's flipping back and forth to the stanley cup (which i could give a fuck about - and he knows this.) its like a tie game with 3 mins left in the game and this guy is watching postgame interviews from the fucking hockey game. jesus christ. aside from the tv/sleeping shit, i'm really getting tired of this kid. and again, i'm really cool with him, but as i've experienced with my very best of friends, too much is inevitable...and i've hit that breaking point. and really, this isn't even his fault, its my brother's fault. things were so much more stable here when he was here...and i'm the older one -25, they are both 21 - but they are both almost finished with college, and i'm just now getting ready to go back to school again after 7 years. bottom line: its fucking annoying and its my brother's fault.
less immediate frustration: i'm an audio engineer (well, i graduated in 2005, but i still know whats up) who works pretty exclusively with a producer and a rapper (all 3 of us in different states.) the producer is completely killing our relationship, and aside from the work we do together, we all consider ourselves friends. the rapper is on his job and doing really big (well, locally anyways) shit right now, but the producer is fucking everything up. we've been working on an album (rapper+producer+engineer) for at least 2 years now and all the producer wants to do is keep "mastering" or "re-inventing" or whatever his technique and its destroying the project. at this moment, i'm pretty much done with it. the rapper is completely eye to eye with me on this too. he raps to the beats, then the producer "updates" aka COMPLETELY CHANGES them and the rapper no longer likes them. his crazy ADD/OCD/whatever shit is destroying an album that the 3 of us knew was a masterpiece (in our minds anyways) for AT LEAST the past 8 months...maybe even a year. unfortunately, i'm actually friends with dude so this makes everything oh so more difficult and i'm the most non-confrontational dude on the planet. i can't even talk to him right now and he keeps messaging me and messaging me, and trust me, its all off the wall-haven't slept for 3 days-nonsense...and i can't handle it...i can't even respond in fear of what he might do, especially to himself. i hope he gets his head straight, because he is a muthafucking genius when it comes to producing, but i just dont see that happening before i've given up all hope.
ok. done for now. that felt good to get out (and that and even the half of it - trust me.)
now thats what i call a blog/journal!
less immediate frustration: i'm an audio engineer (well, i graduated in 2005, but i still know whats up) who works pretty exclusively with a producer and a rapper (all 3 of us in different states.) the producer is completely killing our relationship, and aside from the work we do together, we all consider ourselves friends. the rapper is on his job and doing really big (well, locally anyways) shit right now, but the producer is fucking everything up. we've been working on an album (rapper+producer+engineer) for at least 2 years now and all the producer wants to do is keep "mastering" or "re-inventing" or whatever his technique and its destroying the project. at this moment, i'm pretty much done with it. the rapper is completely eye to eye with me on this too. he raps to the beats, then the producer "updates" aka COMPLETELY CHANGES them and the rapper no longer likes them. his crazy ADD/OCD/whatever shit is destroying an album that the 3 of us knew was a masterpiece (in our minds anyways) for AT LEAST the past 8 months...maybe even a year. unfortunately, i'm actually friends with dude so this makes everything oh so more difficult and i'm the most non-confrontational dude on the planet. i can't even talk to him right now and he keeps messaging me and messaging me, and trust me, its all off the wall-haven't slept for 3 days-nonsense...and i can't handle it...i can't even respond in fear of what he might do, especially to himself. i hope he gets his head straight, because he is a muthafucking genius when it comes to producing, but i just dont see that happening before i've given up all hope.
ok. done for now. that felt good to get out (and that and even the half of it - trust me.)
now thats what i call a blog/journal!
