Mental Health Extreme but brief feeling of neurological detatchment

[al-laddin]

Ok so Ive had my go with tons of powerful psychoactives many many times. YOu name it Ive tried it. The only things that I have not used really are dissociatives. They just don't intrigue me as I have had to much Nyquil and don't like the way that feels and as I understand it that's a taste of what dissociative state is like.

Anyway, a few times in my life without warning I experienced a perplexing and terrifying state. It comes on out of no where and lasts only about 10-20 seconds. My heart will race and my brain will get the sensation of numbness and tingling. My world will simply cease to make any sense. My thoughts become nill and I feel panic as my mind struggles to make sense of any stimuli. Its what I would call a waking vegetative or coma like state. Now Ive had and suffered with DP/DR and during this time my bout with DP has been long over. This is different , its far more horrifying and I would rather cease to exist than live in a perpetual state like that. Literally it feels as though all neuronal activity stops functioning while I observe it. The few times this has happened it made me feel extremely depressed after the episode. Luckily its only happened twice. I have had panic attacks and anxiety attacks and this is different, I think. Although perhaps its a form of one. Can anyone relate?? Thanks

 

[al-laddin]

ummmmmmm anyone?

 

[herbavore]

To me it sounds very much like what I have experienced as a panic attack. What makes it different from the panic attacks you have had?

 

[al-laddin]

Its brief and feels like a neural detatchement.....feels like death. Nothing looks familiar ...the inability to recognize my own hand, my body, what anything is.....its like brain communication is severed with the body

 

[Brendles]

that sounds like de-personalization. I had a similar experience that lasted months. I felt like I was just an eggshell being inhabited by something else that had no characteristics except being distinctly not me, and that was terrifying because I'd have no idea what I was capable of. It felt like my entire body is just a bag of meat being controlled by something else, like I'm just playing a video game and my choices ultimately didn't matter because nothing seemed 'real'.

It really fucked me up, and I found that the only way to deal with it and eventually slowly make it go away, is to just not think about it. Which seems really counterintuitive, and I don't know if it's a solution for what you're describing, but I've seen other posts on here with people advising the same. Find a thought to anchor yourself on, if the connection between your brain and body is severed, try latching onto something in your brain that you can define as 'YOU' and then distract yourself by clinging to that anchor until the moment passes. Maybe after enough time associating that one piece of your psyche with reality, the moments will stop happening. I hope this helps somehow and that you can feel better.

 

[al-laddin]

Thanks man! I feel that Ive had DP/DR also...after a very bad trip, lasted a few years but there was an obvious progression of getting better. This was like DP x 100 . It was more of an "attack" and it was severe enough to the point were I felt braindead for a few seconds....when I say braindead I mean ....like I was a mute and if someone would talk it to me it would be an alien language...Unless DP can get that bad??? Like vegetable status?

 

[sub21lime]

Dude Omg! This has been happing to me recently, but ONLY when I'm faded on opiates, benzos and pot. I'll be laying in bed nodding the phuck out in a dream state, like half awake. After about an hour or so in this state something will snap me out, like a knock on the door or the phone rings. Ill open my eyes and will feel almost exactly what you describe, except I'm not afraid, just really confused. It's like, for 3-10 seconds ill forgot where I'm at, who I am, what I am etc. It's so phucking freaky. This happens to a friend of mine also.He thinks its the onset or early symptoms of Alzheimers. I thought it was me just being loaded. I'm going to do some more research on this.
Oh Yeah, here's a lil bit of my background. I'm 26 years old and have been opiate dependent for 6 years. I'm currently on methadone and take benzos a few days out of the month. I've also been smoking weed off and on for 13 years.

 

[al-laddin]

Im talking straight sober. Im also an opiate user, I use heavy opiods only once a month(believe it or not) and use kratom quite often. but these substances have never caused this. This happened many years ago and it was during a period of a few years after tripping a lot but only LSD and I had a really heavy bad trip , about 500-700 mics. After this I had some issues but this particular episode happened long after. I was however using alcohol nightly to a binge degree on most nights.

Yes. This does sound like symptoms of an alzheimers like condition. It pretty horrifying and from what I understand alzheimers is a horrifying condition. One way to fight alzheimers is to keep the mind active. Learn new things all the time as much as you can. Weed seems to give me a lot of mental issues so I don't enjoy it...anxiety, depression, dp/dr type of a feeling.