** Disclaimer: Far from poetry... just today's ramblings, inspired by a shitty night at the bar **
Like all things in life that one has expectations of,
I've fallen short again.
I'm sickened at the thought of these drooling guys at the bar,
Who, for the price of a few drinks, expect you to drop your panties on a whim
And be the cheapest thrill of their middle-aged life
Or these egotistical jocks who expect that picking you up in their $40,000 shiny red Beemers with the cool leather seats will have you begging for their attention.
Expectations fall short again.
Will my daughter expect me to teach her about makeup and boys and shoe shopping?
Will i expect her not to fall in love and get her heart stepped on, and expect her to be brilliant in math and physics?
Who has the right to expect such things, anyway?
But then there's me, who expects that the guy in the suit with the laptop and cellphone sitting at table 32 eating a caesar salad and drinking unsweetened tea *BETTER* drop me at least $5 out of that Persian leather wallet that he's been flaunting ever since he walked in to the restaurant.
There's me, who expects to have her heart broken as soon as its been captured...
And do i want that? no, i just expect it.
I hate that my mother expects me to get a $100,000/yr job and buy her a house or a Benz, and that my father expects me to have gone my whole life without ever driving out of state.
I hate that my cats expect a treat at 5:45 a.m. or else they will make my morning miserable and sleepless.
And him... he always expects so much of me.
He expects that i will return his calls, and kiss his ass, and always be there waiting, as his backup plan in a scheme of a wonderful life with a girl i think is trash.
I hate that he always expected me to cook him dinner and cater to his every need,
And that he expects me to forward him mail to him because he's too lazy to get a change-of-address form.
If i could take all these expectations and crush them, i would. I dont want to expect a certain thing out of life, and i dont want life to expect certain things out of me. It would be nice, for once, to just go through life, expecting nothing; no pats on the back, no raises, no birthday cards, no audits. Freedom from expectation. What a notion.
Like all things in life that one has expectations of,
I've fallen short again.
I'm sickened at the thought of these drooling guys at the bar,
Who, for the price of a few drinks, expect you to drop your panties on a whim
And be the cheapest thrill of their middle-aged life
Or these egotistical jocks who expect that picking you up in their $40,000 shiny red Beemers with the cool leather seats will have you begging for their attention.
Expectations fall short again.
Will my daughter expect me to teach her about makeup and boys and shoe shopping?
Will i expect her not to fall in love and get her heart stepped on, and expect her to be brilliant in math and physics?
Who has the right to expect such things, anyway?
But then there's me, who expects that the guy in the suit with the laptop and cellphone sitting at table 32 eating a caesar salad and drinking unsweetened tea *BETTER* drop me at least $5 out of that Persian leather wallet that he's been flaunting ever since he walked in to the restaurant.
There's me, who expects to have her heart broken as soon as its been captured...
And do i want that? no, i just expect it.
I hate that my mother expects me to get a $100,000/yr job and buy her a house or a Benz, and that my father expects me to have gone my whole life without ever driving out of state.
I hate that my cats expect a treat at 5:45 a.m. or else they will make my morning miserable and sleepless.
And him... he always expects so much of me.
He expects that i will return his calls, and kiss his ass, and always be there waiting, as his backup plan in a scheme of a wonderful life with a girl i think is trash.
I hate that he always expected me to cook him dinner and cater to his every need,
And that he expects me to forward him mail to him because he's too lazy to get a change-of-address form.
If i could take all these expectations and crush them, i would. I dont want to expect a certain thing out of life, and i dont want life to expect certain things out of me. It would be nice, for once, to just go through life, expecting nothing; no pats on the back, no raises, no birthday cards, no audits. Freedom from expectation. What a notion.
