expectation

[satori18]

the silence in my head is the same silence in the room...phone not ringing, brain not thinking....except about you, and me, and how i let you take control of the situation.
fault is placable, i led you to think it is what i wanted, what i need even.
i can't take it back, do i want to?i just wanted it to turn out the way i planned, it is all crumbling around me, my strength...my contentment...you didn't take it but i gave it to you...on purpose?
the small unexplaiable, wonderful similarities are not enough to hold the small bond of a tadpole relationship together....i want the phone to ring, and i want to think....about something besides you.
thoughts of warmth and shared feelings, sweat and intellect, sex and...
my mistake
i thought that i could...not. that is what you need to make you stay to call. but if it hurts this bad now? is my lack of desire in this matter of physicality, because of my thoughts on it's importance, or lack thereof?
if i figure it out, will it even help.
god, just call because you know i will say...i miss you baby, not...why do you do this
hmmm...femenine,weak,strong,need,dependence,
resort to my sex...no
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satori shalom
[This message has been edited by satori18 (edited 03 October 2000).]

 

[zero9zero]

nice work.
i feel ya.
i think.

Dave

 

[satori18]

ha...dave yup...that is how i feel alot of the time... as long as it did somethig for you...thanks for ur respoonse
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satori shalom

 

[grapekoolaid]

I hear ya....BUMP

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~When darkness thinks that it's outdone me,
I must remember that the greatest love's
inside of me~

 

[libelula]

ahhhhh shafie my sister

sometimes when i read your words i feel as though i am reading something i wrote while in a trance...meaning that it reads (to me) as easily comprehendable as my own essays/scribbled ideas/letters...yanno, without the memory of actually writing it

love you much
libby
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"Once you are real you can't be ugly except to people who don't understand."-The Velveteen Rabbit
"....she finds God when she's dancing..."