I’m so ready to stop using cocaine. i struggle with multiple mental disorders so stuff like impulsivity, self-control, judgment, doing everything to the extreme, etc. are huge supporters to my problem. i’m 24 and i’ve been using coke progressively for like 2 years now maybe. it started with using every weekend, going through a gram in 2 weekends and now for a while it’s been all day everyday using 2-3 grams. i’m very aware i have an addictive personality, it runs in the family, and shows itself in many different ways in my life. i’m not in denial, i know i have a problem, but ive always had the mindset that it’s not hard for me to stop, i only like it for the fact that i stay awake, i struggle with being excessively tired all day everyday no matter how much sleep i get. you know that feeling when it’s late but you wanna finish watching your movie and you’re fighting sleep so hard but your eyes just keep rolling to the back of your head ? that’s how i feel all day. it’s unbearable sometimes like i just want to be able to get stuff done or go do things with out dozing off mid activity, it doesn’t matter what im doing i WILL fall asleep, ive totaled my car twice because of this, ive slept through a zip lining excursion(literally standing holding the equipment and in the air), anything and everything. so using coke allows me to do all the things i want to do with full energy but i abuse it so i end up staying awake for multiple days sometimes. i know i can stop, i know i will be okay but the thought of having constant fatigue 24/7 scares me so much. i’ve tried stopping before and i sleep for an absurd amount of time, like multiple days, to the point where im just like i can’t do this anymore and i go back to using just so i can get out of bed and walk outside or something. I’ve permanently destroyed my nose, i used to be really active and fit and now i’m underweight and lazy, my skin looks terrible, im normally very irritable so now im constantly just a straight bitch, i hyper-fixate on things that don’t matter and waste hours of my day “getting something done” yet not finishing for weeks, i don’t take my mental health meds bc i feel the coke cancels it, my depression and SI have grown exponentially, im probably gonna have to file for bankruptcy because ive put myself in so much debt, I lost my job, i’ve lost close friends, ive stopped taking care of myself, and the list goes on. i hate the person i’ve become and now am because of it, i hate what ive done to my body, and i want to go back to being who i was before i started using but im so traumatized from the constant fatigue feeling that i choose to just continue ruining myself, i feel like i can’t control myself at this point. but i also can’t live a functional day to day life if im sleeping through it. r Any thoughts, stories, suggestions, advice, questions, recommendations, etc. literally anything, i want to listen.
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Cocaine exhausted and helpless; willing to hear anything
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thedukeofraoul
Bluelighter
as addicts we all suffer from impulsivity, we want that instant gratification but as far as getting off cocaine, you mentioned 2 years. do you have any types of insurance or government assisted insurance? a lot of them actually pay for in-patient rehabs, you mentioned you lost your job so it would be a great time to look into that, or even a detox, one of the good things about cocaine is the withdrawals aren't so intense as like opioids or benzodiazepines because cocaine is more a physical withdrawal more so than a mental withdrawal.
I'd love to be able to help assist you on this, you sound hopeless and desperate to kick the shit so that's the very first step bro. imagine trying to quit but not wanting to quit, that's what causes over 70% of relapses in the addiction community.
you could speak with a psychiatrist about maybe prescribing you some clonidine to lower your heart rate and maybe gabapentin to help calm your nerves too, and of course you'll need something to help you sleep, but from experience from others, the cocaine withdrawals only last 4-5 days. I was using coke a lot when I was in my late teens, early 20s and it's not as bad if you don't just sit in your bed and sweat, go outside, get fresh air but more importantly speak with an addctionologist and they can help prescribe you comfort meds to help you have a fighting chance to not relapse before you've got past 4-5 days.
best of luck and if you need anything shoot me a message or reply here. I'm also on the discord too.
TDOR
I'd love to be able to help assist you on this, you sound hopeless and desperate to kick the shit so that's the very first step bro. imagine trying to quit but not wanting to quit, that's what causes over 70% of relapses in the addiction community.
you could speak with a psychiatrist about maybe prescribing you some clonidine to lower your heart rate and maybe gabapentin to help calm your nerves too, and of course you'll need something to help you sleep, but from experience from others, the cocaine withdrawals only last 4-5 days. I was using coke a lot when I was in my late teens, early 20s and it's not as bad if you don't just sit in your bed and sweat, go outside, get fresh air but more importantly speak with an addctionologist and they can help prescribe you comfort meds to help you have a fighting chance to not relapse before you've got past 4-5 days.
best of luck and if you need anything shoot me a message or reply here. I'm also on the discord too.
TDOR
emkee_reinvented
Bluelighter
Don t know about that detox/ gouvernement involvement. Even comfort med s pushing it. They sound helpful these suggestions but very much rely on integrity of the system your in and severity of the addiction. My plain dr never was really helpful providing cessation tools. But did prescribe Alprazolam before it was known here and after that pregabalin.
But sharing info on use of any drug before you know it the whole story is out and your labeled. It is heavy use btw. the amount you describe. but my experience was not very good when i was hon oust. [if live depend s upon it
go see the dr]
That would definitely be a goal please your nasal cavities It will thank you for it somehow it seem one of the more corrosive thing s you can put up there. And after coming down you will regain energy and loose some of the guilt that ime seems to accompany Cocaine.
Talking to someone essentially the best approach but tackle the problem below it is a way to look at it get a trust bond before coming out the closet. No idea if Cocaine would cause difficulty in sleep, so i wouldn t go near sleep aids if not needed. Clonidine might be nice but needs blood pressure taken first.
The more realistic concern lack of energy and depression 2/ 3 gram is a lot. Dont know how fit you and heart are. For that a dr visit does wonders. If possible start exercising incl walking and a good diet. Invest in some Guarana or alike maybe some adaptogens. And what helped me stop was coming out of the closet to a friend and later sharing it with some other loved ones.
It is doable @bananass go for it.
But sharing info on use of any drug before you know it the whole story is out and your labeled. It is heavy use btw. the amount you describe. but my experience was not very good when i was hon oust. [if live depend s upon it
go see the dr]That would definitely be a goal please your nasal cavities It will thank you for it somehow it seem one of the more corrosive thing s you can put up there. And after coming down you will regain energy and loose some of the guilt that ime seems to accompany Cocaine.
Talking to someone essentially the best approach but tackle the problem below it is a way to look at it get a trust bond before coming out the closet. No idea if Cocaine would cause difficulty in sleep, so i wouldn t go near sleep aids if not needed. Clonidine might be nice but needs blood pressure taken first.
The more realistic concern lack of energy and depression 2/ 3 gram is a lot. Dont know how fit you and heart are. For that a dr visit does wonders. If possible start exercising incl walking and a good diet. Invest in some Guarana or alike maybe some adaptogens. And what helped me stop was coming out of the closet to a friend and later sharing it with some other loved ones.
It is doable @bananass go for it.
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