Thank you NSA.
It is amazing how things come around full circle. Between losing my brother to suicide, losing my job and a sever depression brought on by PAWS in conjunction with the events mentioned, I was lost - even just a few weeks ago I was hopeless. I had my streaks of consistent exercise and yes it did help with energy levels but it has not been until very recently that getting my fit on has been such a substantial help.
However at this point I know without my cardio and weight training efforts, I'd still feel like shit. When my exercise schedule is thrown off track, I can feel myself slipping back to a much less invigorated place. Without that invigoration I lose motivation and focus. I rely on focus and motivation to find my happy place these days.