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[chris daL]

Soooo .. I feel as if recently these past few months that I've been coming down from a really crazy year. Like truly, the past year up until August has been the most crazy, depressing, exciting, yet most negative/counterproductive year of my life. I've experienced and been through more things in this one year than I have in my entire life up to this point and up until August I thought I had dug my own grave to the point of no escape and due to circumstances completely out of my control I had been handed basically a golden ticket/free pass to get away from it all and make something of myself.

So its been several months that I've been away from the city going to school in a small town, and even though I've been practically handed the tools to achieve success with; I honestly feel drawn back towards the city where I know nothing but disaster awaits me and I can't quite tell if its because I just crave the drug or if I just have no place here;can't fit in with anyone due to severe differences in interest/hobbies/etc.

The university I attend is in a small town, due to lack of internet providers I cant game here which was one of my major interests,I also dj and was really into the music culture yet nobody here has even seen a mixer let alone listen to any sort of edm.

Every day that I should be proud of myself for performing well in school, I just want to cry because I can't make friends and every day after class I just sit alone in my dorm room daydream of rolling a bubble

Wat Do 8(

 

[pinpoint]

I can't make friends

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every day after class I just sit alone in my dorm room

...How are you ever going to make friends? Not by sitting alone in your dorm. You have to put yourself out there.. people aren't going to crawl out from under your bed and talk to you. Getting out there - it's scary, I know, but it's the only way. You'd be surprised how much you have in common with people if you leave your preconceived notions at home.

 

[neversickanymore]

Hey and welcome to BL

I can't quite tell if its because I just crave the drug or if I just have no place here

Probably both. Addiction involves both craving and social isolation.

I would start hitting up the gym at your school. Good way to meet some people as well as treat effects of the drug use and any addiction you may have.

 

[chris daL]

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...How are you ever going to make friends? Not by sitting alone in your dorm. You have to put yourself out there.. people aren't going to crawl out from under your bed and talk to you. Getting out there - it's scary, I know, but it's the only way. You'd be surprised how much you have in common with people if you leave your preconceived notions at home.

Hey and welcome to BL



Probably both. Addiction involves both craving and social isolation.

I would start hitting up the gym at your school. Good way to meet some people as well as treat effects of the drug use and any addiction you may have.

I mean I see what you guys are saying, one of the major reasons I really dont fit in is that pretty well everyone up here smokes weed, and thats kind of counterproductive to the whole sober living aspect

 

[neversickanymore]

Track down some people that don't. Gym might still be the place to do that.

 

[chris daL]

Guess I should see if the gym is even open, the school is moving into the summer months and my class is the only one running after this week.

 

[phactor]

Hey and welcome to BL



Probably both. Addiction involves both craving and social isolation.

I would start hitting up the gym at your school. Good way to meet some people as well as treat effects of the drug use and any addiction you may have.

Agree with both of these...

Addiction makes me isolate, hell, even when I am not using but also not working my recovery I start to isolate a bit.

I had friends when I was using but I was really on comfortable with 2-3 people.

 

[Ruby Slippers]

Where are you Humboldt State haha....social skills have to be learned in my opinion. Put yourself outside of your comfort zone a little. I know that it seems hard to do sober but usually this is all in our heads. Find friends online, in class or at work. You can do it.