i don;t understand why i sleep so much; sometimes i sleep up to 18-20hrs a day, but usually i sleep anywhere between 12-14hrs a day. when i do sleep, i have extremely elongated and vivid dreams, or so it feels. sometimes i feel it is necessary to drink alcohol, pop some pill, or smoke marijuana to inhibit REM sleep because of these fucking dreams! i absolutely hate them because never have i dreamt of mythical, fascinating creatures or of riveting adventures, always of upsetting and straight up scary topics for some reason. for the past four years of my life i never experienced any of these dreams or could not remembr any because of chronic marijuana abuse. however, abusing drugs is not an option for me anymore.
all this sleep is really been putting me in a funk lately to the point in which i feel ashamed for how much sleep i get resulting in making me want to escape by sleeping even more!. some days i feel like doing nothing else with my life but to sleep it away. my parents and therapist believe it is as a result of my medication, but for me it doesn't feel right scapegoating my drugs because this has been happening almost all my life, but on a slightly lesser scale. this summer i went on suboxone to stop my heroin and oxycodone abuse, and it has worked absolute wonders as i have not used either in 4 months (wow i still cant believe it)! Is the suboxone to good to be true; is it the cause of my extreme sleepiness? My parents think so, but i beg to differ as whenever i take it i feel more elated and energized, not tired and sleepy... I am on 1-2mgs of subs, 1800mgs gabapentin, 150mgs wellbutrin, and 50mgs hydroxyzine a day/night. My personal belief is that my depression is causing severe REM sleep.
frankly, i don;t know where to turn. i've tried exercising atleast 3-4 times a week for 30-60 minutes and sometimes even more frequent. i cut out almost all fatty foods in my diet, but i allow myself to have 1 exception a day whether it be icecream or fried chicken. i've tried setting multiple alarm clocks around the room so that i could not simply turn to my side and hit snooze, but nothing seems to work.
yesterday i didn't even take any of my medication for whatever reason, and last night/today i still had the same problem. i went to bed around 12:45 am and woke up at 1:30pm the today causing me to miss an appointment with my therapist and ditch a friend i was planning to exercise with. i tried to put my finger on why i sleep so much but nothing seems to really stick. is it my depression, not enough diet/exercise, some type of sleep disorder, my medications, or just lack of will power?! there are so many options and worrying about it makes me even sleepier and physically/mentally exhausted.
please help me bluelight, i cannot keep living my life like this!
all this sleep is really been putting me in a funk lately to the point in which i feel ashamed for how much sleep i get resulting in making me want to escape by sleeping even more!. some days i feel like doing nothing else with my life but to sleep it away. my parents and therapist believe it is as a result of my medication, but for me it doesn't feel right scapegoating my drugs because this has been happening almost all my life, but on a slightly lesser scale. this summer i went on suboxone to stop my heroin and oxycodone abuse, and it has worked absolute wonders as i have not used either in 4 months (wow i still cant believe it)! Is the suboxone to good to be true; is it the cause of my extreme sleepiness? My parents think so, but i beg to differ as whenever i take it i feel more elated and energized, not tired and sleepy... I am on 1-2mgs of subs, 1800mgs gabapentin, 150mgs wellbutrin, and 50mgs hydroxyzine a day/night. My personal belief is that my depression is causing severe REM sleep.
frankly, i don;t know where to turn. i've tried exercising atleast 3-4 times a week for 30-60 minutes and sometimes even more frequent. i cut out almost all fatty foods in my diet, but i allow myself to have 1 exception a day whether it be icecream or fried chicken. i've tried setting multiple alarm clocks around the room so that i could not simply turn to my side and hit snooze, but nothing seems to work.
yesterday i didn't even take any of my medication for whatever reason, and last night/today i still had the same problem. i went to bed around 12:45 am and woke up at 1:30pm the today causing me to miss an appointment with my therapist and ditch a friend i was planning to exercise with. i tried to put my finger on why i sleep so much but nothing seems to really stick. is it my depression, not enough diet/exercise, some type of sleep disorder, my medications, or just lack of will power?! there are so many options and worrying about it makes me even sleepier and physically/mentally exhausted.
please help me bluelight, i cannot keep living my life like this!
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