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Michio

Michio

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Hi and thanks for reading my introduction! :D

I'm a 31 y/o M from USA.

I came to Bluelight because I was looking for a place where people discuss ecstasy use and abuse / addiction without being too judgmental. I've definitely abused e during my lifetime but recently had a wake up call and decided to stop using. I've been to Narcotics Anonymous meetings but never actually met another ecstasy addict at a meeting so it's kinda hard to relate. It's nice to see that some users here are old school ex rollers so I feel that there are people here I can relate to.

Some of my interests are philosophy, spirituality, metaphysics, reading, movies, music, etc.

Hope to meet some cool chill people here. Take care and see u around!

Michio
 
Hey Michio,welcome aboard, hope your dealing with things well.good to hear you went to source some help.im in meth recovery atm.

The shortage of mdma has led to a spike in meth use in oz.bad news tho.

Ivehad some heavy stins on mdma aswell..my favourite drug tbh..

Welcom again..check out the dark side,its therecovery thread..but read the rules, Big one is theres noDdrug talk.

C u soon
 
Hey gavatron@oz, thanks for the warm welcome.

I'm actually pretty good right now. I used to do alot of e years ago and have recently cut down quite a bit before i decided to stop.

I think I've "lost the magic," but whether or not thats true I realize that it's not worth it anymore.

My brain /mind has been struggling as it is with depression and anxiety since I was thirteen so I decided that I need to let my brain heal before I end up doing permanent, irreversible damage (well at least more than whats already been done lol).

It's pretty sad I actually wrote a goodbye letter to ecstasy lol. Talk about the 5 stages of death and dying!!! Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance. I don't know what stage I'm at right now but I've been through them all over the course of my relationship with ecstasy.

So many good people told me to slow down and not to be greed-e but like your typical e-tard I didn't listen. Oh well it was hella fun while it lasted but now it's on to better and brighter things. Anyway, I will check u out in the Dark Side. Take care :)
 
You have come to the right place if you are looking to discuss the topic of losing the magic and long term use of MDMA. I have been lucky enough to have switched from taking to MDMA to other entactogens such as Methylone or Mephedrone so I haven't lost the magic yet.

Welcome to Bluelight!! :)
 
Hey theotherside, thanks for the welcome! Yeah this site is kind of addictive. I woke up this morning and logged in and before I knew it I was gonna be late for class 8o.

Were you a heavy MDMA user? Why did you switch from MDMA to those other substances (I've never heard of them before)? How do they compare? I'm just asking because I'm interested but I don't want to try them (I'm trying to be good to my poor brain lol).
 
Yeah I used to use MDMA on average once a month, using several tabs each session. After getting burned by too many piperazine tabs, I heard about something about an entactogen called Mephedrone. Used google and found this site. The rest is history.

For me mephedrone let me "fly" without going too far if you know what I mean. I could still go to work in a good mood without the suicide tuesday feeling.
 
Welcome to Bluelight :)

You'll be surprised on how much of us, though most of us have met each other, have the same shit in common.. regardin all aspects of life

hope you enjoy your stay here :D
 
Also, yes you will find Bluelight to be very addicting in many ways. Once you get a friend base on here(which you will), you feel like you need to log in to see how everyone is doing..what new toys are out to play with :)
 
suicide tuesday feeling

theotherside said:
Yeah I used to use MDMA on average once a month, using several tabs each session. After getting burned by too many piperazine tabs, I heard about something about an entactogen called Mephedrone. Used google and found this site. The rest is history.

For me mephedrone let me "fly" without going too far if you know what I mean. I could still go to work in a good mood without the suicide tuesday feeling.
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Well me and my friends never tested any of our shit so I always wonder what kinds of junk / poison I ingested throughout my partying days. We we definitely not wise about our drug use.

lol @ suicide tuesday feeling. for me it became suicide feelings every day. i've been to the dark side forum and it seems like i'll be hanging out there while i'm here.
 
Hey Swerlz, thanks for the welcome. This is much better than an NA Meeting lol.
 
hey michio.

Lik youve found out pretty early,and TOS backed it up..BL is fucken addictive.i used to tweek and talk all sorts of shit.Im surprised the people who befriended me didnt bar me..

What sort of ammount of e were you doing?? I must've been an animal in my hay day.. Not dick sizing,and to be honest its nothing to be proud of..but i had 18-24 months where id roll twice a week..and about 3 months of that time it was tues,thurs,sat night and then sunday arvo sessions at a bar thats like an institution..Fisho's( fishermans wharf)- fuck we got loosd there.alot.I had roundies on tap..litteraly.

Was getting 5 boxs ticked at a time(000) -everyone was my friend.....

Big hello to the australian police out there that may be reading this...suck myyy dick eddyy.
 
dicksizing

hey gavatron@oz

Honestly my memory is pretty bad so I can' really say for sure. I know for sure I found E between the ages of 18 and 21.

One night my friends and I were getting ready to go to the club and we were underage so we would drink as much alcohol as possible before going into the club since they wouldn't serve us. I was getting sick of this situation and wanted to try something new.

It's kind of fucked up but the first time I heard about ecstasy was through the tv show "Beverly Hills 90210". In one of the episodes one of the characters took e and had an overdose and had to be taken to the hospital. Instead of this being a moral lesson on the dangers of drugs, I ended up using this reference to suggest to my friends that we try it. And it just so happened that my friends dealer sold e. That night was magic and after that i was hooked.

I'm 31 now and I've been doing it on and off ever since. I think from the ages of 21 through 26 was when I got heavy into e and 3 of those years really heavy. Sometimes a bunch of pills 3 nights in a row biweekly for months. Like I said my memory is pretty bad. I had some bad trips as well and went psychotic twice due to my drug use. I was young, stubborn and stupid and didn't give a fuck about myself. Joined the military at 26 and cleaned up my act (somewhat).

And here I am.
 
nicely done..

I smoked weed daily from 13-24,acid once a week at 16 for about 6 months( that hurt... Too the stage where i had to read the tag mumsy had sowed in the back of my hoodie to remember my name-lol) amphets here and there..
Then found mdma,got involved w some mad cunts,had enough pills at times to fuck 2-3000people up,and thats if they doubled...the good roundies turned to gas bombs(speed) so eased up.fucked out on coke real nicely...talking 2000 a week habit(prices are slightly different here) But got that sorted.slowly,and fell into the glass pipe..which im struggling with at the moment..

Fun and games,unfortunately its cost me a fiance...not good.but its a cunt of a drug and i was a cunt of a man when it was in full swing...

Thats me in a baggie.come to the social in the NMI-its at the top of this page usually.. See u therd
 
gavatron@oz said:
Too the stage where i had to read the tag mumsy had sowed in the back of my hoodie to remember my name-lol)
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lol. wow it sounds like you are pretty hardcore. i can totally relate to the fiance situation. me and my ex were into partying way too hard and both of my psychotic episodes were while we were together. it got to the point where i was using all of my money to party & wasnt helping to pay for the bills and she was fed up with me and we ended up getting evicted from our place and she dumped my ass. i was homeless and thats when the military looked like a good solution to my problems.

thanks for the tip i will check the social out.
 
Not hardcore,just a young idiot that knew some seedy people. I honestly wish i never met some of them..

Your welcome mate..no good about you going off the rails..this just happened 4-5 weeks ago,and ive slept about 7 nights since.... Gotta b good now.

Hope you like the site.i would get in trouble for sitting on here for hours..
 
yeah like i said i was almost late for an exam i had to take this morning because of this site. sorry to hear about that and hope you're doing good now. i looked for the social but couldnt find it.
 
Haha the Lounge..Yes, it's the one place i don't venture into often on Bluelight. I prefer just to post/lurk in the focus forums.

If my memory serves me right, that saying is actually a quote from Jim Morrison and nah haha, haven't obtained it yet...still working on it :)
 
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