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(EX)ADDICTS: How did YOU get clean? Ever been clean b4? How'd u do it? SHARE HERE!

Dear Ugly,
I am so sorry for your loss I too have lost several friends to addiction it is a nightmare and I hope that you have some support when you attend your friends funeral.
You're in my thoughts.
<3
 
I have always been a drinker - well since 18, but mostly socially.

Then I started drinking lots of whiskey everynight, it just built up like.

I was suffering stress at work, resulting in upper back pain every day.

My doctor give me Diazepan. Great Help.
Then me doctor died.
My new doctor did not like giving Diazepan, so we went thru Cipralex, Trazadone, Mirtazapine. Started to tremor like hell. Hated it could not write, use a mouse anything.

None worked for me, so my drinking just continued.
Last year I drank a bottle of vodka everyday for 5 weeks without any food, ended up in hospital for 3 days- given loads of Diazepan.

Gave up drinking then for 3 months, but still wanted one.
Started now just having a approx two pints of lager every night and a few spliffs.

Got my relationships with family on a better footing now.

Don't want to go back to that state.

Good luck to anyone with drink probs.
Drink is my worst enemy - if I ever can't get enough diazepan, I'll probably do it again.
 
ugly said:
I wish with all my heart that this beautiful girl had been able to get sober. She tried for a long time. She was only 21. She went on the nod....

and now she's gone. Her death has broken my heart. Her funeral Monday might shatter me.


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<3 hate to hear that ugly, hang in there. stay strong.. i hate the diese took another.
i to recently hear a friend of mine (a bluelighter) passed away from a drug overdose yesterday, and I just talked to him via webcam not even 48 hours ago.
these are dark days indeed. :[

what led me to wanting to get sober was the fact that my life wasn't going anywhere when i was high. was homeless at one point (living in shelters) and shit didn't seem to stop me. It wasn't until I found peace, before i could recover.

going on 90 days clean and sober.
 
if youre a drug user, and your life is in order and not messed up, there really is no need for you to get sober unless its giving you health issues. if youre life is screwed up, and youre on drugs, get off them immediately. its not going to be as easy to fix your life while youre using, so its best to take a break. once things are ok again, and if you really feel the urge to get that taste back, then go for it. but ONLY if you think you can handle it. dont be an idiot and restart the cycle, thats just fucking failure status. be smart, drugs are not as important as your life.
 
I keep trying to stop doing heroin, I have been on and off it for the past 4 years and just recently started IVing. Since I started shooting it has become soo unbelievably hard to stop. I have a 5 year old daughter and an amazing boyfriend.. they both need me to be clean. I want to be clean for them, but I love getting high and hate everything when I'm not high. I started suboxone for the 2nd time on wednesday.. So I have 3 days clean today.

Good luck to everyone!!
 
first things first, try to downgrade back to snorting. itll be incredibly hard to taper off if you continue iving, so eliminate the use of needles in your habit. little by little, you gotta take it one day at a time. make a goal for yourself to stop doing heroin, and slowly decrease. nobody else is going to make you stop, you gotta stop by yourself. if you really wana get off, then you can do it. if you like it too much, then you just may not be able to.

oh shit, didnt read the suboxone part, i thought you were still a hardcore addict LOL. ok good for you, at least you got it under control haha.
 
Thizz_Machine_138 said:
What does sober mean?
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sober means either completely sober, a point where you have significantly cut your use down and/or gotten your life in order from its inevitable downward spiral.


psychopath said:
You might not get that many responses. I would imagine most on this site are not entirely sober.
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well im sure many people have had periods of sobriety. i wanna hear everyones story. how they got sober, how they handled sobriety, and if they went back to using, why? did they just miss it too much, was sobriety shitty, did they realize they didnt give a shit. so if youve been sober at one point let me hear it. if your sober now, good for you, let me hear it :)


2manyopiates said:
Not enough funds / To young to be IVing opiates.

I just smoke weed now.
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thats where im at. for the most part. i do other drugs occasionally, but only on the weekends. and i never shoot any thing any more.


UGLY: im sorry for your loss. :( thats tough. my heart is with you.


thanks for all the responses. keep em coming. i love hearing peoples stories :)
 
Right now I'm 5 days clean and on suboxone. I want to get high every minute of the day. The reason I got clean this time is because my boyfriend is pretty much sick of giving me all his money to put in my arm, which is definitely understandable. I just wish he would understand that if I'm not ready to stop it's not gonna happen. I'm trying though...
 
^^I feel ya for the "I'm not ready to stop.."

My motivation to quit is to make my boyfriend proud of me. Of course it also would save me money, save my health. But I think i'm keeping it under control to not effect my life too drastically.

I feel like what would make me say enough is enough would be if I lost control, and everyone who I care about besides my boyfriend found out what I'm doing. If I would lose my job etc etc..

But why must people hit rock bottom to start making changes?
 
Neeoon23 I wish you luck on staying sober and to everyone else!
I hope that you also want to quit for your own well being.. I tried quitting for the reason of my boyfriend wanting me to before and on that alone it didn't work out cause I didnt really want to be sober for my self.
 
I totally get what your saying. The first time I went to rehab I definitely didn't hit rock bottom, I went to meetings and everything but I felt like I was so different from everyone there because I didn't lose everything I had because of drugs. I still had everything. Three years later, I have nothing. I lost my new car, my job, my family hardly talks to me. People used to tell me that it wasn't necessary to go through all that.. but for me it was. Just know that losing everything and coming extremely close to death (coma for 3 days) still hasn't been enough for me. If you can stop before it gets that bad, it will definitely make things a lot easier.
 
I had been using opiates for about 3 years, almost exclusively oxycodone, and nearly daily for about a year. My habit was getting pretty big, but I still managed to be pretty functional as far as school as work went. But it was definitely starting to become a problem. I had tried to quit a few times, but never too seriously.

Then I moved to Texas for the summer with a friend, and that's where I got introduced to black tar. Wow I spiraled out of control faster in 3 months with that stuff than I had in 3 years on oxycodone. I was IVing within about 2 weeks, and it was a rapid descent from there.

3 months later my only options were homeless shelter, jail, or rehab. So I chose rehab. I was very tired of the life, so I suppose that is why I got sober. Stayed completely sober for 6 months, then kind of forgot how bad it had gotten. I started using again, about a year ago.

Since then, it's been a constant struggle, with another stint in rehab. I was sober less than a month out of rehab the 2nd time, and that was about 3 months ago.

Once again, I'm facing jail or homeless, so I decided to get clean again. This time without rehab, and I think it is helping. Actually going through the sickness etc is making quite an impression on me. I'm only 5 days in right now, but I'm largely over all the physical symptoms.

Now the key is to just not forget this sickness, and how bad it really got. :\ Wish me luck.
 
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