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(EX)ADDICTS: How did YOU get clean? Ever been clean b4? How'd u do it? SHARE HERE!

lozgod said:
I attempted suicide weeks after it was done because of the never ending depression.
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I did the same about one week ago... because I can't function as a normal human being without meth. Without it, it's impossible to feel happy, and I don't have the strength or motivation to do anything. It's a shitty existence.
 
Sweet P said:
I did the same about one week ago... because I can't function as a normal human being without meth. Without it, it's impossible to feel happy, and I don't have the strength or motivation to do anything. It's a shitty existence.
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I tried hanging myself in the closet and the rod broke from my weight. I drove myself to the hospital after that and did a week inpatient for depression. Helped a lot. Did you seek help afterwards? Going to jail may save your life. I did 4 years in prison but it was before my addiction. I seen it save a lot of addicts though even if most did end up doing the same things when they got out.
 
The title didnt say opiates or dope because with the character limit, the title would only fit if i said ex-addicts. If i tried to include "ex dope addicts" it would not of fit in the title box.

8) ;)

Anyways....

Straight up, heroin and opiate addiction is different than other kinds of addictions. (just as those addictions is different from heroin addiction.)

it aint that one or the other is worse or not, but NOT ALL ADDICTIONS ARE THE SAME...As far as TREATMENT and RECOVERY goes.

i absolutely DO NOT belive that recovery is recovery. I dont think that kicking dope is the same as kickin meth. I dont think that gettin clean off alcohol is the same as gettin clean off crack. Each PERSON and each ADDICTION is different. And the different addictions, to the different types of drugs, all have different ways of quitting and recovering.

The process of recovering off opiates will be different than it would be from another drug.

It aint got nothing to do at all , personally, with any type of drug not bein a "real" addiction, or bein "worse." I didnt get to specify in the title becuz there was not enough space to type that in the topic. But the thread is about opiate addiction,becuz there is things SPECIFIC TO OPIATE ADDICTION when you are tryin to get clean. Straight up.

It dont mean that you cant talk about the other addictions. Shit, for all i care go and copy and paste this text and make it for Meth and Amphetamines. Have your meth conference in there , it will be all good. But im just saying, even tho NA and all that bullshit believes that a drug is a drug is a drug, and recovery is recovery, i disagree 100%. I believe that addicts can help other addicts, but when it comes to MAKING A PLAN of HOW TO SUCCESSFULLY QUIT--The advice from people who BEEN THRU IT BEFORE with the SAME drug that you are tryna get off, is the best advice.

I hope that clears it up, and PLEASE DO NOT POST NO MORE QUESTIONS ABOUT WHY IT AINT XXX DRUG OR ZZZZ DRUG. THIS thread is for heroin and opiate users to answer. If you want to talk about recoverin from other drug addictions feel free to discuss that in another thread. :) If anybody else gets on the debatin bandwagon and want to argue about why it should or shouldnt be this or that drug, you aint gonna get a belt to your ass or nothin, but I will unapprove the post tho. Just cuz now that we got it all straightened out I just dont want to see the thread goin off topic. Cuz I really want to see wat yall got to say, and I would be disappointed if it just turned into some shit about whose addiction is worse or more valid or w/ever. Ight folks?

I hope that u understand better now why the title was the way it is, and why the topic is wat it is. If you got some issue wit that still you could PM me or you could just say hey, I want a meth users lounge here, so Ima copy this topic and replace opiates with meth, and that would be just fine with me , everybody deserves their representation, but real talk, Im a (ex) dope feen. Im interested in dope. So I ask about dope. Aint no hatin goin on here, but Equal employment opportunity only applies to races, not threads about drugs on message boards, so dont go complaiin about un equal representation of your drug of choice. ;) "be the change u wish to see" 'nall that....

PS-I left a few of the beginning posts that was questioning the topic, but I unapproved the ones that was just bickering and shit like that. You know now why the topic is the way it is, so we dont need those posts in there to inspire other people who is just reading this thread now, to jump into a debate thats already over. :)
 
Not a dope user but an ex-opiate user. I was prescribed Perc 10s aka "yellows" aroud here, but it was basically an opiate free-for-all every day. I was doing like 60-100 mg a day of Oxycodone , plus 40-50 mg of hydrocodone, daily, on top of that. Not to mention random Oc 80s, Fentanyl Patches, Dilaudids, Actiq Pops, whatever I could get my hands on at the time.

This went on for a lil under 3 years before I had a desire to clean up. The fucked up thing was that no one really knew about my problem. A few friends of mine knew I liked to get bent on PKs but I don't think they really knew the extent of it. My girl didn't know, my parents didn't know (wasn't living with them but was/am still very close), shit even my doctor didn't know. I was blowing through my script of 120 Perc 10s in about 2 weeks then doing whatever I could get my hands on or W/D'ing until my next script.

For a few months I was tellin myself "okay at the end of this month you gotta try to get clean" and finally one month it just happened. I found the best Bupe doctor in the world in the BX (I hear horror stories on here with bupe doctors; sorry ya'll). She told me I was young and basically I'd look back on this point in time and say "I can't believe that was me"; which is what I'm kind of doing now. But anyway I went on Bupe for 2 years and tapered myself down to 0.5/mg day... now I've been off Bupe 3 weeks (although I had a stash of Vicoden that I've been taking to help with the Bupe withdrawals so I guess after that runs out I'm officially clean).

Either way I did it on my own; no 12-step, no P.O. breathin down my neck, none of that. I got lucky that my habit was where it was and wasn't that out of control. My friends who have/had dope habits have all ended up in jail or had some foul shit happen to them. I consider myself lucky it was just the pills. There were so many times I was goin through WDs and by the 2nd day I was ready to cop some dope. I used to live like 5 blocks away from the Ps and thought I could just walk over there and cop. One time during WDs I made it like 3 blocks and turned around, thank god. For all u with dope or even pills addcition like me ur in my prayers
 
what made you get sober

Im interested to see what made everyone say enough is enough. what finally made you realize that things had gone too far and it was time to embark on that long journey of sobriety? And how well are you enjoying this sobriety, do you wish you could go back to using or have you made a good life for yourself?

I was in the game for 2 years, and then I started shooting coke. in 3 short months my boyfriend and i were completely different people. started stealing and ripping off our friends, stealing from family, trading all our things, shot up so many times i could hardly use my arms without them falling asleep. so by the end of the summer, we decided enough was enough and sent our selves to rehab. all because of this little drug called cocaine, i gave up 2 years of drug use in just 3 short months.

now ive been mostly sober for 6 months, and i find myself wishing i was back there. making a sober life worth living is hard, but i am glad i got clean. i just have to remember how bad it was, and how bad it could be again.

what are your stories and how are you dealing with sobriety?
 
Bad trip on Mushrooms back in 1997 stopped me from doing psychedelics forever after doing psychedelics for 7 years. I never stole for drugs, at least not yet.............:o
 
My last experience with staying away from substances was when I stopped drinking for like 9 days in november/december. Knocked over 3 trees and cut my best friend's face open in a car accident (which luckily I didn't get a DUI for). Made me realize I am an irresponsible shit when I drink too much for a long period of time. Now I'm far from sober, I still drink 5-6 days a week and still do drugs regularly, but I am not going as wild since then, and I have been really good about not getting behind the wheel when I drink. I suppose I am not dealing with sobriety at all, and it's not much of an accomplishment but it's my version of self control i guess.
 
^^ i find that when its just "managed" it gets out of control eventually. we "managed" our addiction for another year after getting caught the first time, and then it slowly but surely spiraled out of control again.
 
I was sleeping in my truck, had nowhere to go, no food to eat, so I figured last resort was to beg my parents to help me out and they said ok and helped me get into an outpatient program. Sober for about 6 months and then I just decided I didn't give a fuck.
 
I quit doing meth when I found out my mother was a meth addict and was hiding it from me and my sister. We've both been sober from methamphetamine since 2007
 
no money, lost friends and family, almost lost girl friend, lost jobs........i could go on?

flipped truck

shelter

food
 
Prison.

Edit: To elaborate: 5 year prison sentence for internation drug trafficking. Was 19 at the time and involved with some real hardcore people. Used to be an enforcer for a local crew and was roped into heroin addiction as a method to deal with my daily problems. Was paid in heroin by the local crew and put to work shaking down people that owed money.

Attorney General eventually caught onto our activities and put the hurt on us. Was offered a walk by the Assistant Attorney General in exchange for my testimony about the activities of the local crew and the things I have seen. I refused knowing that I would literally be killed if I talked. I seriously mean that too, these people were not those flashy type gang members that flaunted their shit, they were very low key and -very- serious. I kept my mouth shut and did my 5 years. Entered the prison and kicked cold turkey off a serious heroin addiction. Man was that fun.
 
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This sounds like an AA/NA meeting.....

Also, this should be in bad trips shouldn't it?....

You might not get that many responses. I would imagine most on this site are not entirely sober.
 
I was clean for 3 year after two events:

1. I feel into a deep strong love. Got high as hell the nutural way.

2. I had a break through trip on salvia. It was fucked up and life changing.


But, once we broke up, and my life kinda fell apart I started using.
 
I stopped LSD because I got scared to death one time.
I stopped Oxy because it's not the same.
I stopped drinking because it makes me sick to see what it has done to my mom and my sis.
I smoke weed though.
I like speed once in a while.

So I am not really "sober" like a mormon or something. But I'm not on everything anymore.
 
I'm actually "not quite sober" but feel like I'm at the tail end of my explorations with MDPV (i.e. stimulants) and other drugs... nearly 30 years after I first tried stimulants, messing with them on and off.

It has become mostly trouble, and the pleasure limited to a few aspects that are not worth all the trouble. Doesn't work as an avoidance... I don't feel like I'm trying to avoid anything. So as a pleasure? Not much there either. It all seems worn out, and the simple peace of not jacking around with my state of consciousness.... far better.

I just like the sexual boost of stims at this point and have to finally decide that is not worth the big mess associated with it. It's also a reason to socialize sometimes, but it would be easy enough to find other reasons for that... hell, a volunteer job or something would take care of that one.
 
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I wish with all my heart that this beautiful girl had been able to get sober. She tried for a long time. She was only 21. She went on the nod....

and now she's gone. Her death has broken my heart. Her funeral Monday might shatter me.


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