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(EX)ADDICTS: How did YOU get clean? Ever been clean b4? How'd u do it? SHARE HERE!

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The question is simple...to all yall who been addicted to dope (and opiates too of course, but it seems like we got a overwhelming amount of heroin addicts in here) and managed to quit....How did you do it? Even if you quit once and started usin again..How did you did it, when you DID it? Even if it didnt stick around for ever, you DID get clean at one point, and u deserve some major props for that. Some folks aint even made it to that spot yet, so here we gonna school em, becuz i KNOW alot of yall addicts in here , esp, from the stamp thread, has asked me and others for help and advice on just how the fuck you beat that damn monkey. So, heres some questions to get you thinkin:


Did you go to a residential rehab program? How many days/months did u stay for?

Did you do the 12step program and go to NA meetings?

Did you go to detox (not rehab, just a 3-6 day stay to kick)?

Did you go to IOP (intensive outpatient)?

Did you go to jail?

Did you get sentenced to probation?

Did you go to a half way house?

Did you go to any other type of hospital like a psych ward?

Did you do counseling (psychologist/psychiatrist, drug counselor, etc)?

Did you get inspired to get clean by a ultimatum (parents kickin you out if you didnt get clean, wife/husband/boy/girlfriend threat to leave you if you didnt stop usin, etc)?

Did you have a intervention?

Did you use any meds to make urself more comfortable while you kicked? Which ones?

Did you kick without no help, and just quit and deal with the W/D's?

Did you do a detox with methadone or sub and then get off them after the detox?

Did you choose to use maintenance therapy with Methadone, Suboxone/Subutex and continue taking them long-term after you finished kicking?

Did you choose to quit and make the move completely by yourself?

Did somethin happen that forced you into it, like gettin arrested, parents/job/S.O. findin out, gettin hurt real bad in a car accident or fight and bein confined in the hospital where you could not leave to use so had to quit, or havin some kind of court-ordered treatment?​

And thats just some starter questions, shit. Any info at all behind how you stopped using. We all do it different. Rehab dont work for everybody. Not all of us need NA, or therapy, or wtfever. Some of us needed to get locked up and get clean in jail to stop. Some of us just willingly realized we had a problem, confessed it and went to the dr to get on sub or meth, and had a non-eventful, voluntary recovery. Its different for all of us.

Some of us ended up in the streets, some of us got kicked out, some of us was able to just chill at home with our folks providing us love and care thru the sickness. Some of us said fuck this, I aint gettin clean, but ended up bein forced to when we got into a situation like the back of a police car, or court-mandated IOP with daily piss tests.

My point is, LOTS of shit goes into why people get clean. not too many of us just wakes up like, Yo, i gotta problem. Let me just get my ass into treatment, and do it smilin the whole way. Usually we fightin, kickin and screamin all the way out the door on the way to 'recovery'--watever that is.

So i want to know how YOU did it.

I know lots of people has hit me up in the past askin me how I got clean. I was a hopeless dope shooter and really didnt give a fuck if i lived or died. And here I am clean 6 mos. Shit, I aint tryna get into my story here in the first post, but Im just sayin---ANYBODY can do it. If i can, you can. and I just want the ones of us who managed to quit this shit, even if it wasnt forever and was only for a little while, to post our stories here, but more important HOW WE DID IT---The techniques, meds, tools, plans, processes, and programs we used that got us here, so that other people who needs help can learn from them and hopefully get some ideas about how they can do it too if they feel like they wantin to do it.

so, please , post away. Share HOW you got addicted, the STORY of how shit was for you WHEN you was addicted, and HOW you got out of it. Share as much detail as you can, the more the better, cuz people who is using and wants to stop but dont know how, they like to see specific details that they could try using too, you know?

I aint tryna get all sentimental and shit. you aint gotta get into all that deep shit about how you got beat as a kid so you used dope. Its cool if you aint wanna get into that, I just wanna hear how you got OUT. But im just sayin a little history behind your use. especially becuz so many people be like yo, i am the worst addict EVAR. nobody is as bad as me. THOSE people got clean, but thats cuz they aint me. *I* could never get clean, im just beyond help. And you KNOW thats just your crazy ass head tellin you that shit cuz you scared of quittin, so you just try to convince urself that u might as well not even try. I was like that you know . But when I seen others like me do the hit I figured hey maybe I could. thats why its important to add a little bit of your story too, so people can identify to you and be like damn, he was usin just as much as i was and got locked up just like me and he got clean too, mabye i AINT hopeless after all!

So, I hope that wasnt all too long for yall to read. I just wanted to cover all the bases so yall realize that you can talk about ANYTHING about how you quit --we tryna hear abotu YOU!! all those times you got high and started gettin on some of that talkative , deep shit, and people told yo ass to shut the fuck up cuz they tryin to nod? now is your chance to let it all out. When you was on e pills and just was DYIN to tell your life story but couldnt cuz your girl just kept talkin and talkin? well nows your chance to take the mic and talk til you done. HERE is the place where its ALL ABOUT YOU, so tell us your story and how you got from bein a no good drug addict wreck to clean maybe not serene but definately not no more a feen!

POST AWAY.....
 
it was mostly the countless times of being locked up, and all the money I was losing.

suboxone is for sure a miracle drug, but I did even have to come off of that when I stopped it.

a big help for me was that my dealers all got different numbers and my former players in the game are long gone (dead, jail, on the run, etc) so I have nowhere to turn to (easily) for the stuff.

and now, I dunno I like being clean. if I can get clean anybody literally can. I was your stereotypical wanna-be rock star holier than thou dope trash. now I am just content with using other drugs and living my life outside of the needle.

in other words, I always did the whole I'm trying to get clean thing. but one time... it just worked and everything clicked.
 
A lot of people do not consider being on MMT or Suboxone/Subutex being clean and sober. Most of these people come from the 12-step groups like Narcotics Anonymous or Alcoholics Anonymous. I couldn't disagree more. Methadone via MMT has helped me get my life back in order to where I can actually function like a normal human being. I can hold down a job or go to school. I'm not always sick, looking for dope, or too busy being high/nodded out. Being clean is so much better than being strung out...I'd urge anybody who is sturggling with addiction to take the steps they need to take in order to regain a normal life. For opiate addicts who absolutely cannot stop using, get into a Buprenorphine program! If that isn't possible, maybe try MMT (it isn't for everybody). But do something. Being stung out is not a cool way to live.
 
I was on suboxone maintainance for almost 2 years, and the withdrawals from that were horrible. I have been off of the suboxone for 18 months now.
But the real way that I got off of dope was by moving to an area where it isn't around. Even when I go back to my parents house where there is dope in the area, if a dealer isn't showing up at my doorstep I aint buying, not going out of my way for it.
When I first moved I looked for opiates for a little while, but gave up pretty easily.
I currently use about 10 times a year, and don't know if I will use again. I won't be back in the dope area until like June, so its a long time off.
 
I don't want this to sound arrogant because it appears simple, but truthfully it was as simple as stopping and beginning to create my life all over again. I've been clean for almost 3 months and don't even have cravings anymore (took awhile to go away). Every time I thought of using I just remembered the fact that it truly got me nowhere and I couldn't escape my pain I had to face it. Once I faced my pains (something I'm still doing) I started to slowly improve until I realized how much I was cutting myself off from living by being on heroin all the time. Once you see how much you are seriously just wasting your life (we are going to die and when we do pain will no longer exist, heroin is just an illusion) it's not that hard to stop.
 
Why are all (or most) of the questions in this forum aimed at dope users/addicts? It kinda narrows down the number of people who can reply. You can get addicted to other substances, ya know. Meth, coke, crack, benzos, etc. Maybe you should rename the thread "(EX) DOPE Addicts...." so I didn't have to waste my time clicking on it.
 
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Well I don't think it would apply to you since you're still an addict. Hence my hesitation to give a response. :p


I'm pretty sure polls would show that there's a lot more opiate users. I've never even seen speed or meth (just stuff like adderall). Whiile there is painkillers in every part of the world. Plus I think dope heads would tend to be nodding in their house by their computer and likely to be on a site like this as opposed to an uppers person.
 
Carl Landrover said:
Well I don't think it would apply to you since you're still an addict. Hence my hesitation to give a response. :p


I'm pretty sure polls would show that there's a lot more opiate users. I've never even seen speed or meth (just stuff like adderall). Whiile there is painkillers in every part of the world. Plus I think dope heads would tend to be nodding in their house by their computer and likely to be on a site like this as opposed to an uppers person.
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^ I may be an addict, but I have had periods of clean time. And trust me, where I come from there are more meth-heads and speedfreaks than junkies or dope feens. People on uppers are just as likely to be using a computer. I mean, fuck, I'm spun right now! Got my glass pipe sitting right beside me.
 
to Sweet P, cause bein a dope fiend addicted to heroin, opiates, etc.. in general is a whole other level of addiction, and your playin with somethin God or whoever put in your body to begin with(dopamine)-its like original sin- you don't know pain til you been deep in withdrawal from a bundle or more a day habit, the combined mental/physical pain is excruciating in so many ways that act in synch to make you crazy-and when you pull yourself thru that it is a major fuckin accomplishment however you do it- thank god we have to enough real drugs here in NYC/NJ area that we dont have to resort to that evil chemical shit speed- anyway i been clean 3 diff times, each between 2 and 3 years, and it is great, for me everything just kinda starts to click when i am come through the fire, but gettin there is incredibly difficult for heroin/opiate addicts, we dont go on benders w/o sleep, for us it is one long 24/7/how ever many YEARS period, where the subsstance is in our bones as a necessity every minute of every day-everytime i did it it was cold turkey but i wanted it really bad, deep in my bones, it always ends up with me being so pissed of that something has this much control over me- twice with dope, which is a soul/bone crushing affair for like 14-21 days roughly, and once when i got kicked off MMT at 15mgs (cause i didn't like the assholes at the clinic havin control over me), didn't hurt as bad, but was neverending, took like 6 weeks before i felt like myself and could sleep even lightly- its part of the gig when you re a junkie, just a little easier when you've done it once already- and know there is light at the end of the tunnel-cause thats mighty hard to believe when your in the thick of it, and even the hair on your fuckin head hurts-how i did it was simple; just hid in my house,took lots of hot showers, smoked weed, watched TV/read and let the clock do the work which is harder than it sounds- corny as hell, but time does heal all wounds
 
I was addicted to cigs,never smoked too much,around 3 every day...now after two years I definately stopped smoking.I stoped before two but that wasnt longer than month,I wonder if anybody will read this,nicotine addiction is so boring compared to all IV meth,coke,opiates addictions.I feel much better,with my new addiction = kiwi,the best fruit in the universe ;)
 
My boy that I ran with at the time went to jail. I think like 9 months. In that time, I still had connects and all that, but I was in college, I knew I could make it out in the world, and didn't want to throw all that away.

So, I decided to stop shooting dope. I wanted to rise above that and empower myself. Was tired of being a slave it. No suboxone, no methadone, and no tapering. Just cold turkey.

Shit fucking sucked and the needle fixation took even longer.

Anyway, heroin habit that had the span of a couple of years (2.5 or so), I quit. Never looked back and never fucked with an opiate again. They disgust me, now. I consider myself a stronger person for it and feel as though I can overcome anything.
 
I have been on methadone for about a month now, and it was the greatest decision I have made. It literally saved my life. Before that, I was pretty much at rock bottom. Rehab a couple of times, unsuccessful. Tried kicking cold turkey a million times, unsuccessful. Tried suboxone, unsuccessful. I had stole from family, legal trouble, and I was still shooting dope ONTOP of a cancer diagnosis I got back in November..

Since I got on methadone almost a month ago, I have not used dope, and it is quite a good feeling. I hope to stick with the 'done for quite some time then gradually taper down. Will I chip once in a while, while on 'done? Possibly. But due to my financial situation (ruins), I cannot afford to be spending money on handfuls of opiates. I currently am not working since I am undergoing chemo therapy.
 
Hey whats up i guess my story is simular to all yours.. i started with norcos after fucking up my back i herniated 2 disks really bad i could hardly walk ...so i got surgery and it worked great but they gave me perc10's after surgery to recoup. well when i ran out of those i just used all the 30k work mans comp money on dope dahm it was alot dope. .
i did dope for about 5 years and i lost my job becouse of the economy so i had to quit ..i went into detox and moved to nc to get away from the sean ....funny thing is i found dope down here but it crap and exspencive so i just smoke haze and eating advan from my doc...but everyday i feel the urge to comp some sick bundles and go to town ....i look at it like this. i'll be addicted to heroin the reast of my life its always going to be in the back of my mind ...
 
forced rehab

not allowed to see friends or family

not allowed to go outside

like jail just not in "permanent" isolation

it doesnt work though

whatever makes you afraid to die will work

so now i am afraid to die but still want to use ?? makes no sense

addicts go hard and are not afraid to die
 
Getting locked up 4 times is the only times I've been able to stay off opiates for an extended period time in the last 4 years of my use. And I used rarely inside still. Always knew I'd go right back when I got out too, no hesitation. No I'm a CP'er and will likely be on opiate medications for life due to my health condition.
 
Fuck it, nothing will get me clean... I'm just gonna keep using till I die. I'm being sentenced in early May for 4 separate drug-related charges, but even that won't stop me. Meth will be the end of me.
 
I moved 1000 miles away from all my connections, to a place in which I knew nobody. In all honesty, that was the only way I ever could have possibly done it. I would have given in and given up every second of every agonizing day I was going through withdrawal, and even though it was nigh to impossible, I STILL sat there and tried to scheme ways of finding some opiates!

I don't think I have ever felt stonger than the night in early September, '08, when I realized the physical symptoms had pretty much abated, (it happened gradually and took a LONG time, so it was about three weeks into it), and that I had beaten it.

A poem by Edgar Guest I like:

"Somebody said that it couldn't be done

but she with a chuckle replied

that maybe it couldn't but she would be one

who wouldn't say so till she'd tried.

So she buckled right in with the trace of a grin

on her face. If she worried, she hid it

She started to sing as she tackled the thing that couldn't be done...

and she did it".
 
JustaChippa said:
I moved 1000 miles away from all my connections, to a place in which I knew nobody. In all honesty, that was the only way I ever could have possibly done it. I would have given in and given up every second of every agonizing day I was going through withdrawal, and even though it was nigh to impossible, I STILL sat there and tried to scheme ways of finding some opiates!

I don't think I have ever felt stonger than the night in early September, '08, when I realized the physical symptoms had pretty much abated, (it happened gradually and took a LONG time, so it was about three weeks into it), and that I had beaten it.

A poem by Edgar Guest I like:

"Somebody said that it couldn't be done

but she with a chuckle replied

that maybe it couldn't but she would be one

who wouldn't say so till she'd tried.

So she buckled right in with the trace of a grin

on her face. If she worried, she hid it

She started to sing as she tackled the thing that couldn't be done...

and she did it".
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great poem
 
the bass player from the meat puppets was in a real bad spot , he went off the deep end after he lost his mom, then his wife od'd then the pigs raided his place. his dog got loose and got hit by a car ~


i think he was doing it all crack, dope, pills ~ and just self destructing

well it was the day after christmas a few years ago he was at the post office with his girl, his girl dipped into the post office, and he got into a fight with some bimbo over a parking space ,he was 300 lbs and toothless she got a security guard and was like this guy is scaring me

the security guard was like you gotta move and he hit him with his stick, so cris the bass player takes the stick off him and starts wapping the security guard upside his head
cris dropped the stick began walking back to his car, and the security guard shot him in the back

so he spent some time recovering in the hospital
he kicked in jail, he said it was ruff, laying there smelling puking pissing off the over inmates

in the clink he lost the weightt , started playing bass again , meat puppets reformed , cris is still clean
http://www.magnetmagazine.com/2009/05/11/qa-with-the-meat-puppets-cris-kirkwood/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cris_Kirkwood
http://www.phoenixnewtimes.com/1998-11-12/news/shooting-star/
 
I was clean for 4 months off of a 300mg a day of oxy. I kicked cold turkey. I remember how great I felt on day 6 when I started feeling normal again. I am even worse off than before. Last time I quit after losing everything. A Mercedes Benz, a 80,000 a year job, a house, the faith in me of everyone that loved me. Why in the fuck I started again I will never know.

I took a week off of work in 2 weeks. Going to try it again. I see myself going down the same path. I got my old job back at a lower position for less pay but still good money especially for the work I do. The same behaviors are reappearing. Missing work because I'm "sick" or if I force myself to go I am miserable and it shows in my performance.

God be with me that week. I know I am headed in to hell. Like the previous posters said, not taking anything from anyone elses withdrawal with different drugs but opiate withdrawal is fucking rough. I attempted suicide weeks after it was done because of the never ending depression.
 
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