Evolving

As I sit here, I feel incomplete... perhaps more accurately... I feel unfinished.

This isn't a bad thing. What's important is that I actually feel.

I can't describe it as 'uncomfortable'. If I were to put a finger on the closest way to explain is that I am curious.

I'm curious as to what life's challenges is molding me into. I know it won't be a bad thing because I'm making a conscious effort towards changing the way I am accustomed to reacting to events and situations.

Since I feel unfinished, I wonder when I will be at the point that I will be mostly complete.

Ya know what? I think what is most important in this foundation I'm trying to build is balance and stability.

This slow process is starting to pay off in HUGE ways.

I'm glad I didn't succumb to using in the beginning of this total abstinence thing I started. It was fucking difficult and I really didn't think I was going to make it.

More difficulties will present themselves but they won't compare to the hell of obsessing about getting high and knowing that I can't.

'Problems'? Nah, I'm gonna start calling them 'challenges'.

 

That is a great way of thinking OD!

And.....are we ever complete?
We are always (hopefully) learning new things, gaining from experiences......
I think I would fail life if I felt I knew it all and had no more growing to do!