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everyone saw this coming to me.

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dat_boi_simon

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yea, so im 9/10 people that has abused ecstacy.

and today, being introverted and considering it to be my last
time for a good long while, a break, and back to the norm

Everyone saw this coming, and i wont even deny it.
theres magic, no doubt, its just i need a long break.
and Ecstacy is becooming a drug, not something to enjoy.

i appreciate everything, Everyone here that has contributed
to my endless "E talk" but i wanna say that,
"Everyone thats helped me to this very day. Thank you"

im a pretty ignorant fellow, but i know the limits and threshold
of Ecstacy and drugs.

The reason behind this thread is the way im feeling right now.
I dont think ill ever forget today, and last week.
At first i thought it was just me, maybe my body acting up
but today confirmed it.

my palms are sweaty, my teeth grinding, i feel like im on ecstacy
but my heads in reality, which means im not really Rolling to
that level. its the reality thats hit me, i spent the night thinking and
everything and ive come to the conclusion that this
Product should be saved for another day.
Not every week.

Im just ranting and shit, but alot of people dont come to that conclusion
until its too late. And im quitting early b4 it has a negative toll on me.
This is my body's way of telling me that This is a Drug, not Magic.


PS: go ahead, call me a ignorant annoying faggit.
but i think i did the right thing today, and making
a big decision for my life.

Again: i appreciate everyone. it sucks that today will be a long
time before i do it again.
-Feeling sick alot lately because of it, and thats not right......
-need to excercise and eat healthy.
-i lost alot of weight
-music doesnt combine with reality, its just Beats and shit.
-I lost the magic, but ill definitely recapture the moments in the future.

Ill come back twice as strong (: a stronger mind, vitality and a soul.
my girlfriend and life is very important to me, not some street drug i can buy for 10 bucks.

-making peace with this Magic, rather then hating it for the rest of my life.
 
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Nobody will call you anything at all!

I understand where your coming from and Im sure that everyone that has abused Ecstasy has had the same thoughts at one time or another.

The good thing is that you have realised and you are taking the step needed to get your mind/body back in order (some people dont realise this and just become 'lost'). Ecstasy can be a fun drug when used safely - if you dont use safely then you will end up paying the price (same with all drugs).

The amazing experiences you had on Ecstasy dont go anywhere :) they become a part of you and for some shape the way you live for ever.

Enjoy your sober break, take care of yourself and your girlfriend and be safe.

Bear :)
 
Good luck! :)

I've been there.. I've managed to do it (i abused the fck outta MDMA) so I'm sure you can too!
 
thanks everyone, the motivation i need to keep on the sober path lol.

another thing that has contributed to my nausea and etc,
is that i beleive i have Food poisoning, starting from last week.
my stomachs been hurting all week long.


i kinda regret not listening to the people at first lol
i shoulda spaced out my rolls big time....

word of advice, "follow everything the people tell you on here"

it will make you a better person xD
 
I had a pretty serious addiction to MDMA (I did it almost everyday. maybe 2-3 days a week I wouldn't do it) so I know where your coming from. The first week or so is hard. You won't receive any physical withdrawls but you will receive mental withdrawls. Do everything and anything you can to avoid taking "just 1 more pill" when the mental withdrawls set in. Best thing you can do is find something that will occupy most if not all of your time. Any spare time you have while trying to kick an addiction, will be spent thinking about that drug. I hope your road to recovery is as successful as mine! I've stopped using MDMA for about a month now. I feel I have hardly put a dent in the mental recovery process, but its definitely going there!
 
Plenty of people on this forum still post but have stopped using MDMA because they were in a similar boat as you- what once was a beautiful thing, starts to take over your life. Even more frustrating, can be people insisting that MDMA is not addictive or harmful- all drugs can be addictive and harmful. I'm sure you have most of our total support *hug*
 
^ yeah but avoiding this forum might aid giving up..

I sure know this place makes me wanna get high alot :p
 
On the the next drug!

Really we all have had crazy thoughts in our head, just take a break if you think your doing too much. Life is awesome and a long journey.
 
Most people think it's whats inside the drug that makes all the magic, but it's really just what it does and thats leak a lot of seratonin. I've gotten to that point and it's not fun, giving your brain time in between rolls is vital and souldn't be overlooked, unless u want a shitty roll. Keeping the magic and all the love isn't as easy as it would seem.
 
Yo bro weed is the best cure of negative effects caused by other drugs. Stay away from the X for some time, good luck.
 
hell yea my dude, if you haven't abused it you can't really speak on it, the dumps is always open and waitin just stay focused and move forward, the only obstacles you see are the ones you allow youself 2 see
 
I was probably on that path maybe already doomed...
This summer I did it every week or 2 weeks then the last roll didnt hit me at all so i freaked and waited about 3 weeks and it took a molly capsule and a regular pill to get me going and it wasnt as intense...

I got scared i lost the magic so i havnt rolled in about 7 weeks now hopefully next time the feeling will come back with just one.
 
Congrats bro...way to go in recognizing it's time for a break before hitting rock bottom. It took a prison term for me to learn not to let it get that far, so you're taking the wise road. Stay sober for awhile and don't subsitute other drugs to try and deal...not that there is a substitute for ecstasy anyway! :-)
 
I was going down that same road bro.
It sucks major ass!
Its like u have to take E to feel the right way.
I have took a 6month break from my abuse, I will be rolling on friday tho.
Get better bro and stay strong!
P~L~U~R
 
well, for all the input i appreciate it all,

Now here's my story, of what ACTUALLY happened.
and no, i dont do any type of Drug but Ecstacy.

At 1:30 AM when i woke up i took a "pink pill"
-i waited 1 hr nothing.
At 2:30 AM i took a "Green pill" which got me kickstarted and rolling.
-i had alot of negative thoughts in my mind and my stomach was aching.
-i was rolling, but it wasnt a pleasent roll.
-i thought maybe it was just me, or my body, or im not rolling hard.
-so at around 5:00 i decided to take another "Green pill" since i was rolling.

Now heres where the problems started.
-I decided to go do community service at 9:00
Why? because i assumed i would Stop rolling after 3-4 hours.
(i thought wrong.)
-i was rolling completely from 9:00-11:00 i was Peaking also.
-i was kicked out because of my inability to walk or move.
-i was floored Badly on the ground, laying and just rocking.
-my friend came and picked me up at 11:15
-i was a bit sobering up due to the sun.
-i went to his house until 1:30 and just layed down to kinda rock the mood,
-i went home, my pupils werent dilated Due to the sun, but nonetheless i was still rolling.
-i got home, and i caught a fever, and my stomach ache didnt help.
-i had really intense Chills, severe hypothermia, i nibbled crackers because
i needed food in my stomach, and my stomach ache was due to the food.
-So my girlfriend came home and i was scared she was going to catch me....
-i just laid down closed my eyes and tried to sleep, (although i couldnt)
-so i took a Tylenol PM, 2 doses to knock me out later on.
-so she left at 6, and i finnally fell asleep around 7-7:30

-Conclusion

i took 1 pink pill and 2 green pills.
i was rolling from 3AM to 7PM

A Total of 16 Hours my pupils were dilated and my body feeling High.
-i Cought a fever mid way.
-and had severe and intense Stomach ache's.

Now my question for everyone here.

If i was rolling for 16 hours, can anyone explain why it happened that way?
or maybe something was mixed in?
 
Trust me, don't start trying to analyze your experience... You'll just give yourself a new lease to use ecstasy again. I did the same thing "it was just shit pills, I'm fine" and I continued to party myself out... I got so bad with the ecstasy that I still to this day have panic disorder and the vast majority of my abuse happened from 2004 to 2006...

Just take it as an eye opener and let it go. Don't analyze it or you'll end up in a cycle. And its not a cycle you want to start. Just take a nice long break, let your body recover, and when the time is right, you will know.
 
I have no idea what the 'pink' and 'green' pills were in terms of MDMA purity. But it sounds more to me like you were unfortunate, and got struck by some gastric bug of some kind at the same time.

Don't over analyse things. Take time to recover and you'll be fine.
 
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