Psychubus
Ex-Bluelighter
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Confession Time:
When I was 15, a part of me wanted to find out whether love was real or not. I got the idea when my fuck buddy at the time revealed to me that he was getting engaged to his girlfriend, and couldn't see me anymore. Relax. I gave love the benefit of the doubt for a while. After all, being young and naive, wasn't there all a time when we placed too much faith in it?
But then, as I grew older, I started having sex with more and more guys who ended up being in relationships. Sometimes I knew, and sometimes I did not find out till later.
Yes. I am the girl that has sex with your boyfriend.
I began thinking to myself, there's no way real relationships could be this empty and devoid of substance... But there was only one way to find out for myself. So I set out on a conquest, to try and mount as many hitched men as I could, and see where it would go. During this long term study, I had sex with almost 30 men whom all had girlfriends, fiancees, or wives.
Before you think this is some kind of slutfest gangbang audition video (lmao CREAMPIE!), I have been having sex for QUITE a number of years so it's pretty spaced out. I picked guys who varied greatly in both body image and personality. Drug users and non drug users. Party types and introverted types. Republicans and Democrats and independent party members. Religious followers and atheists. Younger college kids and older family types. Some were metalheads, ravers, bikers, bodybuilders, punkers, emo types, and even hippies (lol). Whatever their image, I always changed my own persona to appeal to my target's, in hopes of attracting them. Since I adore and appreciate all sorts of men, this was not difficult for me.
Granted, some guys took ages longer to convince than others. Some dropped their boxers the instant they thought they could without getting caught. Others took up to a half year to score. I even had to use alcohol or drugs with some (all consentual though, no "slipping" drugs or anything). While some may argue that people's characters change under the influence, what the fuck do you think is going to happen next time your b/f or g/f goes to a party and gets wasted then?
In the end, it didn't matter how serious they once claimed their relationship was. It didn't matter how much they swore they could ONLY love their girlfriends. It didn't even matter if they were already married and had kids. Even the ones that I thought were the most genuine and caring towards their lovers, I split them apart. I always, ALWAYS somehow found a way to maneuver myself into his pants.
People are so goddamn impressionable. A few swore to leave their current relationships for me. Some even said disgusting things like "Why can't my girlfriend be like you?" I even got a few to call their girlfriends while we were having sex.
Maybe I shouldn't have found out the truth, for the sake of my own sanity.
My Conclusion:
I am convinced that if anybody is good looking and charming enough, they can brainwash ANYBODY under the right circumstances. Everybody out there who goes on taking their boyfriend or girlfriend for granted because they believe they would never cheat is deluded.
Genuine relationships might exist, but I don't know if I'll ever find it. Even when it's time to get serious with somebody, I don't ever let my guard down. I especially develop this mistrust the instant I hear lies like, "You are the only girl I could ever find beautiful." I literally get sick to my stomach when I hear crap like this. A relationship that is based on lies (even ones that are "good") will probably suffer a fate of adultery.
So, I've been celibate for a loooong ass time now. I'm kind of sick of sex, so I don't really mind. I guess all I really wanna say is, to both guys and girls, that it's really petty to make your partner jealous. In the end, it only causes a lot of pain for no reason, and would it have been worth it? Treat your partner with sincerity and respect while you can, if you really love them, that is.
That's all. :/
When I was 15, a part of me wanted to find out whether love was real or not. I got the idea when my fuck buddy at the time revealed to me that he was getting engaged to his girlfriend, and couldn't see me anymore. Relax. I gave love the benefit of the doubt for a while. After all, being young and naive, wasn't there all a time when we placed too much faith in it?
But then, as I grew older, I started having sex with more and more guys who ended up being in relationships. Sometimes I knew, and sometimes I did not find out till later.
Yes. I am the girl that has sex with your boyfriend.
I began thinking to myself, there's no way real relationships could be this empty and devoid of substance... But there was only one way to find out for myself. So I set out on a conquest, to try and mount as many hitched men as I could, and see where it would go. During this long term study, I had sex with almost 30 men whom all had girlfriends, fiancees, or wives.
Before you think this is some kind of slutfest gangbang audition video (lmao CREAMPIE!), I have been having sex for QUITE a number of years so it's pretty spaced out. I picked guys who varied greatly in both body image and personality. Drug users and non drug users. Party types and introverted types. Republicans and Democrats and independent party members. Religious followers and atheists. Younger college kids and older family types. Some were metalheads, ravers, bikers, bodybuilders, punkers, emo types, and even hippies (lol). Whatever their image, I always changed my own persona to appeal to my target's, in hopes of attracting them. Since I adore and appreciate all sorts of men, this was not difficult for me.
Granted, some guys took ages longer to convince than others. Some dropped their boxers the instant they thought they could without getting caught. Others took up to a half year to score. I even had to use alcohol or drugs with some (all consentual though, no "slipping" drugs or anything). While some may argue that people's characters change under the influence, what the fuck do you think is going to happen next time your b/f or g/f goes to a party and gets wasted then?
In the end, it didn't matter how serious they once claimed their relationship was. It didn't matter how much they swore they could ONLY love their girlfriends. It didn't even matter if they were already married and had kids. Even the ones that I thought were the most genuine and caring towards their lovers, I split them apart. I always, ALWAYS somehow found a way to maneuver myself into his pants.
People are so goddamn impressionable. A few swore to leave their current relationships for me. Some even said disgusting things like "Why can't my girlfriend be like you?" I even got a few to call their girlfriends while we were having sex.
Maybe I shouldn't have found out the truth, for the sake of my own sanity.
My Conclusion:
I am convinced that if anybody is good looking and charming enough, they can brainwash ANYBODY under the right circumstances. Everybody out there who goes on taking their boyfriend or girlfriend for granted because they believe they would never cheat is deluded.
Genuine relationships might exist, but I don't know if I'll ever find it. Even when it's time to get serious with somebody, I don't ever let my guard down. I especially develop this mistrust the instant I hear lies like, "You are the only girl I could ever find beautiful." I literally get sick to my stomach when I hear crap like this. A relationship that is based on lies (even ones that are "good") will probably suffer a fate of adultery.
So, I've been celibate for a loooong ass time now. I'm kind of sick of sex, so I don't really mind. I guess all I really wanna say is, to both guys and girls, that it's really petty to make your partner jealous. In the end, it only causes a lot of pain for no reason, and would it have been worth it? Treat your partner with sincerity and respect while you can, if you really love them, that is.
That's all. :/
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