I wonder. I guess that's what i do the most. Spend time wondering about things. I'm employed in the 8-5 real world (or so that's what they call it). I refer to it as the rat race. Most of co workers are married or divorced except for the few young ones. I am one of the only ravers. One of serveral drug users. An almost daily smoker and i don't smoke cigarettes.
Yet i always end up thinking crazy things; Why do we bother with jobs? Why do we work? Why couldn't we get through life without money? Or fancy cars. I do ecstacy and i get to leave. I forget my daily miseries. The rat race where everyone pretends to be perfect. Where your act is exptected to be 'professional' whatever that may mean. If it means keeping your mouth shut cause you know your boss won't like what you have to say well then....
I consider myself a lucky person. I've had good parents and personaly i've always known what was important for me. What matters in my life. Being rich, famous, or whatever doesn't matter. What i do i do for my own reasons. Not because it's what i'm expected to do, not because it's cool. LIfe would be so much easier if people were more patient and understanding. Instead we have society that looks like a zoo. I don't know where this is going or why i bothered typing it out. I guess i just needed to put it somewhere... to yell it out wether or not someone listened. I often wonder what they will think of us 2000 years down the road. Will the earth be so polluted that life will start dying? Will we stop having wars? Will they look upong our proud inventions like television, money, kraft dinner and laugh?
I don't know, i'll never know, but the one thing that keeps me alive is the fact that i may have a role in all of it. Something i do know can help others. A friendly smile in the morning. Saying 'i'm sorry, excuse me' instead of 'asshole'. Believing in something good..
Yet i always end up thinking crazy things; Why do we bother with jobs? Why do we work? Why couldn't we get through life without money? Or fancy cars. I do ecstacy and i get to leave. I forget my daily miseries. The rat race where everyone pretends to be perfect. Where your act is exptected to be 'professional' whatever that may mean. If it means keeping your mouth shut cause you know your boss won't like what you have to say well then....
I consider myself a lucky person. I've had good parents and personaly i've always known what was important for me. What matters in my life. Being rich, famous, or whatever doesn't matter. What i do i do for my own reasons. Not because it's what i'm expected to do, not because it's cool. LIfe would be so much easier if people were more patient and understanding. Instead we have society that looks like a zoo. I don't know where this is going or why i bothered typing it out. I guess i just needed to put it somewhere... to yell it out wether or not someone listened. I often wonder what they will think of us 2000 years down the road. Will the earth be so polluted that life will start dying? Will we stop having wars? Will they look upong our proud inventions like television, money, kraft dinner and laugh?
I don't know, i'll never know, but the one thing that keeps me alive is the fact that i may have a role in all of it. Something i do know can help others. A friendly smile in the morning. Saying 'i'm sorry, excuse me' instead of 'asshole'. Believing in something good..
