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Ever wish you never tried it

I think my biggest regret was trying cigs at age 13 [1967] & now I'm still smoking those damn things.
Those are 1 tough give-up, but nothing compared to opiates.
 
Cocaine. The love-hate relationship. The first time I tried it I knew it was going to be my favorite drug, and I've never been proved wrong. The problem is - its too good, too short, too tempting; all around: too powerful. I've had some pretty unhealthy coke binges - I'm talking 2 months of 2 to 3 grams a day; going almost 2 weeks without eating - losing 30 lbs - dangerous. I love the drug to death, even know - which is why I wish I'd never seen it, or even heard the word.
 
Yeah, I actually wish I'd never started smoking tobacco either. I started smoking it heavily after I couldn't smoke weed, it just became a mechanism to stop myself, whenever I'd have my friends light up a bowl/joint/whatever I'd just light up a cig.
It's really bad now, I'll freak out if I don't have cigarettes availible and I know I'll die from it one day if I don't stop. The fucked up thing is that when I used to take pharmeuticals all the time I had no desire to smoke, I'd never smoke on opiates/benzos because I'm just so calm and happy and a cigarette would speed me back up, then I get on probation and adopt a habit that will one day kill me and doesn't really have any beneficial effects except for the decent buzz from the first cigarette of the day.
 
^hallucinogens, one part of me is glad ive tried them and discovered there is more to existancthan to eat sleep and shit, but another part of me wishes I had never woken up. I also cant look at carpet or other patterend surfaces without seeing patterns on it and i notice i have floaters and other things in my visual feild which I probabbly had before but now I notice them more not to mention the bouts of anxiaty I get from time to time. I know all of this will go away with time, its just a pain in the ass atm.
 
being rich by the wrong means.
it makes you feel shallow and un-wholesome (if that is not a word then i have invented it for the emotion you feel when this kicks in)
i thought it was what i wanted, what would make me happy, so so so wrong.

bit of a weird one
 
H. It's weird, I love it..but never should have tried it. I kicked it about 7 months ago, I've been sober since then, pretty much from anything. Well I'm trying to be sober.. I went through a bunch of shit with that addiction, it lead me nowhere good, just into a bunch of shit i couldn't handle. If i had it, i'd probably still be getting into it, even though i know i shouldn't.
 
I like to party. I smoke lots of bud. I love drinking. I love MDMA. I first smoked weed in the summer of 2004. I went a whole year without it until I smoked up again in late July of 2005. Since then, I've been smoking everyday. First, I started off with the $10 a gram dirt weed. That was fine enough to get me by. Within a month I had moved up to the more expensive weed, like hydro. Now I need 2-3 blunts of EXCELLENT weed to get my feeling good. I wouldn't say I wish I never smoked up before, because that wouldnt be true... I wish I never smoked as much. If I could smoke a few blunts every weekend, that would be fine. Its not necessary to smoke 2-3 blunts during a day.

MDMA.. I love it. I love being on it. I love loving everyone when I'm on it. I took my first pill in the winter, and every weekend I plan on doing it. I did it for about 4 weekends after my first roll. Then I realized what I was doing and stopped.

I'm doing good now though. I roll about once a month. And I smoke about 2-3 times during the week, and about 5-6 times a weekend. Its great. I can actually enjoy being high now. Like I said, I would have to smoke like 3 grams before I got high- or take 3 high quality pills before I actually rolled. Now, a blunt does me in, and one pill makes me roll balls.

I know its probably nothing compared to what some of you meth, H, and coke users go through... but it was hard for me. In order for me to have a good time on a Friday night I'd need a half ounce of good dro or haze, a couple rolls, and a bottle of Grey Goose. Now all I need is a gram or 2- and that just to lift the mood up. I'm proud I was able to overcome that. And, it's just one reason why I don't want to try coke- although I probably will end up down that road at some point as well. I just hope I limit myself.
 
I guess ill jump on the bandwagon and say that I wish I had never tried crystal meth also. Shit turned me into a friggin zombie, I wasted so much money on that stuff. It just eventually got to the point were I was just asking my friends "What the hell are we doing buying grams of this shit if its all gone in about an hour and a half just to stay up all weekend?" Then I quit, never touched it since
 
mepat1111 said:
I wish I had never tried MDMA. I love the stuff and I don't want to give up, but I know if I had never tried it in the first place, it wouldn't be a problem. Also while some people call weed a 'gateway drug' cos it can lead to harder drugs, MDMA was my gateway drug.
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I wish to add Ice (crystal meth) to this, it is fucking aweful.
 
Coke for me, when i'm on it, I love everything, i feel such a better person, and then as I come down i think of all the money i'm spending on it, and how I keep exposing people to it. I feel so awful ,and i'll be like, i'm just gonna flush that half gram i have left from that quarter o, and next thing you know i'msitting here after finishing it off in two short blow, within the hour i'll wish i had never heard of it, can't really blame anyone 'cuz i sought it out after i first started smoking pot.
 
ALL THE TIME

I don't regret trying drugs really, I have learned a lot through drug use.

I do regret trying IV drugs. Now that I know how it feels I can only enjoy drugs this way. Snorting coke isn't even a high anymore, if I can't shoot it I won't use it. Same for meth. And H. And any pills. When you don't know what you're missing you can't crave it. It sucks hanging out with other people doing coke, who are snorting it, or swallowing E, and you don't even feel high because you're comparing it to the IV rush. You can never go back, that's the truth.
 
Hey squidhead, I too am an old head as my handle suggest. Been toking weed for 35 years and will toke to the grave. Have a bit of an oxy thing going on which will be tough to leave behind.

You know what I wished I never tried: being straight, just can't do it.
 
oldhead said:
Hey squidhead, I too am an old head as my handle suggest. Been toking weed for 35 years and will toke to the grave. Have a bit of an oxy thing going on which will be tough to leave behind.

You know what I wished I never tried: being straight, just can't do it.
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Hey my brother!! Always nice meeting another 'old head'=D. Speaking of Oxys, I had a bad back injury in 2000 where I was put on a Methadone Maintenance Treatment Program:\. Doc had started me on the Oxy 40 mgs, but they just didn't seem to help that good. The methadone really helps with the pain & the buzz is a bit better than Oxys. If you're getting those by Rx, you may want to give methadone a try%). You may just switch!!
 
I wish that I had never tried psychedelics and codiene. The first because I was not and I still am not prepared to share my private thoughts with the collective unconcsious and the second because addiction is a bitch when you spend all your time and money on it for absolutely nothing at all.

......and gambling, for the same reason as #2.
 
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