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Ever wish you never tried it

definitely cocaine for me. not only does it ruin dreams in your life it ruins dreams in your sleep too. just obsessing about where the next bag is coming from/ being completely down when its done and not being able to sleep. ridiculous.:X
 
i wish i never smoked weed before. ya i know alot of people love it and smoke it everyday but i found it useless. It was just something to do that people i know were doing. atleast i had the foresight to quit when i did my old friends smoke herb everyday.
 
I dont wish i never tried it, but i wish i didnt hammer e as much as i used to - used to take it every single weekend for 2 1/2 years, even though i dont do it as much now i still need to take 3 pills just to feel something.

If id have knew then what I know now, id have made sure it was a once a month gig and to look after myself properly.
 
I wish I didn't start drinking as much as I do.

It's the only drug I have regrets about. Speed, E, coke, shrooms, acid, weed, nothing.

But booze :(
 
makaveli777 said:
definitely cocaine for me. not only does it ruin dreams in your life it ruins dreams in your sleep too. just obsessing about where the next bag is coming from/ being completely down when its done and not being able to sleep. ridiculous.:X
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Agreed...cocaine can be a horrible drug. Used in moderation, with some downers/opiates for the comedown, it can be really fun and recreational. I loved it when I had control over it, but once it begins an addictive cycle, its horrible, absolutely horrible.
 
smoking ciggerettes dipped in mystery liquid (probably cleaning product) i thought was pcp
probably all other use
 
I dont wish i never tried heroine but i do wish i never injected it. I always snorted then I decided to inject....4 times then BAM, im in the hospital, freezing cold, having doctors telling me to "stop being so dramatic." because im crying. The next day..all of my non-user friends decided to have an "online intervention?" with me. I want to quit. I can. they keep telling me " rehab rehab rehab" I'm pissed. I'm annoyed. I want a hit.


ps. today is the "day after":p
 
I regret everything every day. Never used heroin or meth but just about everything else (the common ones). I almost died a few times. My brain's been so fried I sometimes I think I am either dead or dying. I've lost many friends, missed opportunities with countless girls and blew off planning for my future. I'm very lucky though. Never been arrested, only been to the hospital once for drugs and none of my friends have died from drugs. I'm going to graduate from college in December with a solid business degree from a decent University. Despite my best efforts to sabotage myself--I held on. Right now I'm detoxing so I can get an internship that will hopefully lead to a career. If I can't get control now then I will have no future. I wish I had control the whole time though and that I didn't wait to realize that my life should never have revolved around how I felt every minute of the day. Love is all I want now and thanks to my decisions it is in short supply these days. Here's to hope.
 
spiralmind said:
yea sometimes i sit back and wonder what it would be like if i never started experimenting with drugs. i dont do much now i just smoke pot very occasionally and drink whenever its around. in the past ~4 years ive been a Fucking pothead, notice the big f, became a psychedelic-naut(?) -basically i got really into exploration of the conciousness, mainly with shrooms, tried lsd once on my 17 birthday (im now 18.. in 3 weeks.), had some fun with dxm (cough syrup) numerous times, had a few painkillers n shit, tried cocaine a couple times, fucked with morning glory a few times, fuckin tried crack once (no mas. fuck that shit.), rolled a couple times

..times man, good times.

but anyways, i went from one pure mutha fucker to.. whatever you wanna call it i know i wasnt a junkie, just liked to smoke pot alot basically, but for sure something has been done to my brain. i know its all me no one to point any fingers but fuck dude, im crazy sometimes. fuckuing literally. but back to the point i do sit back and wonder if id never blazed that first bowl. i love music and writing music, i love drawing shit, i love skateboarding, i love snowboarding, i love people, i love my girl, i fuckin love life.. but sometimes i wonder how much more beneficial or whatnot all these things i love would be, how much more creative and flowy i guess you could say this shit would come to me. my thought process is fucking shit at the moment, i too am in that "what the fuck should i say?" PHASE. i too am i confused mutha fucker at times. my biggest problem is listening to my own advice, even after giving it to others. i guess that pretty much sais whatever i was trying to say.
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Hah wow man, you sounds a LOT like me, age and everything. Last year my musical mates and I would go to one of our friends' house to 'jam' every week. One dude who had been a stoner for a long time bought some weed one night and I was thinking "floyd + weed is meant to be awesome and I LOVE floyd!". At this stage I was interested in no other drug but LSD but this dude reccommended I at least try pot first... so I did.

Well what these 'jams' turned into was just 3 of us smoking pot every week while the other dudes played their music. Soon I was buying my own and smoking much more frequently (this was during my last year of highschool). LSD was impossible for us to get due to our age and hence limited contacts so I got some HBWR from the net and did other things like nutmeg and DXM for fun.

I stopped smoking about three weeks ago and I have had 2 psychedelic experiences since this. Once on LSD and once on Mushies (2 tabs, 3 grams). I feel that I have also been changed... That I don't quite feel all there, not who I should be. My memory is quite pathetic at the present time, I sometimes mess up my sentences and frequently spell wrong, but related words on msn and word (like I might type on instead of off, like my mind types the opposite of what I intend but what I'm thinking instead). This actually sounds quite serious but it doesn't happen often and is quite subtle.

This really disturbs me as I have often thought of myself as someone who is quite intelligent and never really have any complications with my mind. Now I have stopped everything. I got into uni thank god and I am going to be clean for as long as until I feel right again, whether this be a year or forever. I definitely have to stay clear of pot and psychedelics as I think my mind just goes toooooooo crazy on them. I was fine with all my highs but one night I just lost it on weed, thought I was crazy and that hell was not a fire pit but the messed up state of my mind.

I am feeling a bit better already from quitting the weed but this is physical. Mentally I still feel a bit twisted. I really hope, hope to god that I'm okay. I didn't abuse the drugs like some people do, not even close... but I still couldn't handle it, keep note of yourself and never compare your brain to other's.

Drugs are not for kids :(
 
banksy said:
I still crave glue
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Ugh my god banksy !! Memories of stumbling obliviously through crowded streets with huge quantities of glue all down my shirt and pants is enough to remove any thought of glue breathing being in any way attractive. Bad karma.








zophen
 
I have some regrets (not trying glue isn't one of them). I think of all the experiences I have had, and I think I am glad I had them. I wish I didn't do the permanent physical damage to my body that I did, but I don't know if I would do anything different if I had it all to do over again.

I think the next time around moderation would be key. I would definately force myself to get more sleep.
 
if i had never taken an opiate i would be a completely different person with a completely different life. I know that i would lead a better life than i do and overall would be much happier but it was inevitable(spelling?) that it was gonna happen sooner or later, the fact that it happened sooner than later is the reason i robbed myself of a good childhood
 
opiumdreamz said:
but it was inevitable(spelling?) that it was gonna happen sooner or later, the fact that it happened sooner than later is the reason i robbed myself of a good childhood
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I know exactly what you mean. I feel the same way, I get especially pissed when I think about how much highschool I missed out on while smoking glass. Happened years ago, but it still bothers me that I traded away the rest of my youth for a meth-pipe.

Only a matter of time though. At least it happened at a point in my life where I didn't have much to lose. Like a career I worked hard to establish or children of my own.
 
meth/any opiate have taken over my soul, it's a long slow process to get it back, I don't know what I regret because I see life differently, I'm only 20 and my perspective on the vast majority of things is significantly different than others. I will say, though, these drugs were fun for awhile and then it was nothing but hell on earth, meth fuckin eats your entire body, oxys / h came after meth and sure enough picked up right where meth left off (altho i still say meth is the worst for you / best feeling).
 
scatterbrain said:
I don't regret taking any of these. I don't have a desire, or craving to try these again...but ecstasy and raves, that's another story. The desire/craving to drop ecstasy at raves for me is very intense. I experienced negative side effects of ecstasy (panic attacks, slurred speech, basically not feeling sharp as I used to) and I was able to lay off ecstasy for close to three years. However, I am really drawn to the rave scene...so much that after being clean for awhile, I started dropping ecstasy and going to raves again. I'd attend at the most three raves in a one year period and I would drop at the most 1.5 pills.

I thought I had strong will power since my previous drug experiences never caused me to crave the experience again. But ecstasy/raves proved me wrong.
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I totally understand. I wish I had never gone out to a rave or a club, because before doing that, i would only roll on very rare occassions, and I never really had any lingering desire to keep doing it. Once I got a taste of the raves and the club scene though, it made me want to go back and do it every weekend. Even now, it's still hard to keep away.

My only regret with taking E isn't because of anything it's done now, but I just worry that years from now when i'm older, all the potential long term effects will finally catch up with me.
 
I wish I had never tried using anything while on Drug Court. I get piss tested once a week and if I fail I go to jail for 2 years. But I kept getting away with it and now I use once a week, and all week long I am nervous as hell about whether or not I did too much, ect. I just lost my girl 5 days ago and I couldn't resist shooting up an OC 80 minutes ago. Now I know for sure I will fail my test on tuesday. I am in a bad bad place.

Don't do drugs while getting piss tested. You will get away with it, become cocky and do too much one week and all hell will break loose.
 
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