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Ever wish you never tried it

I wish id never done DXM...Everytime I look at the half bottle that is still remaining in my bathroom but I know this shit is going to get me pretty sick but the effects are great....even better than hydro.
 
I'm thankful for taking drugs, but marijuana sucks.

Methadone is what helped me through the summer, whenever I was overwhelmed with court, community service, girls, and bullshit it would be a great escape. It's nice to be able to be totally high and nod out nearly every other day at school on some kind of opiate. I guess I regret doing weed, because it's just a waste of time and money, and I've gotten sick so many times from getting in on a huge rotation where someone else is sick. Some people seem like they just pretend to like the drug, to get friends and smoke with people because they have nothing better to do. Weed has fucked up my friends so much. I had three good friends that smoked, and they all managed to have long criminal records by the end of the summer. Now, two of them are away at bording school.

It's so stupid.
 
i can't say i regret trying any drug...only thing i can say i regret getting into was needles...
 
Though I don't really regret anything except weed in some instances, there are a few I could have done without. I wish I never would have put poppy pods in boiling water and drank what was strained out. That shit did a number on me. Not to happy about how many people I introduced into it either. I was never addicted or anything, never even had much of a tolerance (could only do it so often due to the fact that it halts my digestive tract for days), but quitting (I hope...so far so good) leaves a huge void in my life. I REALLY feel like my mind is missing what opiates bring to it...I'm so much happier, energetic, outgoing, AHHH! Why oh why.
 
The worst part is how worth it it is. All the shit that they can bring you through, all the problems they cause, are worth the experience. There's nothing like them. They're your experiences now. Nobody can take that away from you.
 
i don't wish that i never would of done anything...but i do wish that i could have all that money back...shit i'd buy all new furniture, new plasma tv, etc etc....with just the money that i've spent in the past couple years....there was a time were i was hopelessly addicted to getting high as fuck off of coke, dank ass bud and alcohol(tequila or jack daniels) every day all day...when i look back i really have no idea how i was able to walk away so easily....everything just sort of lost it's appeal, i moved into a much nicer/better place, broke up with the girl that i was with for all those years, and distanced myself from my connects......lately i've been really really craving any kinda of opiate....but if i get my hands on some and a good connect i have a feeling that i'll really regret that...anyway that's my rant
 
On one hand I know every single time I use a srug I am taking a step backward in my life but on the otherhand I feel like life is so desolate and pointless that just waking up in the morning is running a mile in reverse. So to put it all in perspective the damage drugs do to me (alot actually) is more than worth the small bit of temporary happiness it brings me.
 
"So to put it all in perspective the damage drugs do to me (alot actually) is more than worth the small bit of temporary happiness it brings me."

I felt that way for a long time. Now at age 27 I'm realizing that the last 5 yrs of my life have been a total waste. I started with valium, then began eating kpins, along with a myriad of other pharms. When I really got going, I would eat as many 10-20 valiums and/or klonopins at a time and drink or mix them with other shit. It's a fucking miracle my liver hasn't exploded.
There is so much stuff I can't remember, and what I can remember is embarrasing. All the blacking out and passing out, the relationships that I've fucked up and all the people I hurt. I've done so much stupid shit it's hard to deal with. I went cold turkey off the klonopins about 6 months ago simply because my supply ran out. What a fucking nightmare that was. Klonopins are not to be fucked with. Now I'm 3 weeks off all pharms and trying to cope with withdrawal. My mind is so scattered I feel like I'm insane and the depression is fucking unbearable. Anyone who thinks benzos are harmless is in for a world of hurt. Thatisall.
 
I am not one to ever take back anything I have done, but I sometimes do wish I have never went under the needle with any drug. it changed my whole perspective on drugs and made me never ever snort any drug that I can shoot past that point. if I can't put my dinner in my spoon I don't want to eat at all ;)
 
I wish I'd never ever allowed myself to be prescribed Benzo's for an anxiety disorder...biggest mistake of my life. 8 years later I'm still trying to get off them and I really believe now if I had never ever been given Benzo's ever my anxiety disorder would not be as bad as it is today (to the point I'm on disability and practically unable to work :( ). Benzo's are just fucking evil I hate them...I'd rather go cold turkey off of any narcotic habit than off those fuckers....fucking brutal :X
I regret trying Heroin for where it lead me, basically up shitcreek without a paddle, but although I'm clean from H now (and Methadone too) and will never and have no desire whatsoever to take Heroin ever again..I don't hate it..not like I hate Benzo's. Part of me regrets taking any drugs at all, but then I think well it was sort of like a baptism of fire, it forced me to really look at myself and the inner me and begin to work on that and work through a lot of issues that perhaps I wouldn't have otherwise. It's the same with my Anorexia, I wish I never had it but at the same time it's forced me to face up to and deal with aspects of myself and the past and how I cope with things and start to move forward into becoming a more balanced person. If that makes sense :\
 
I always look at this thread, but never answered. I'm still not sure. I had my fun on the drugs I've done.

Wish I never tried crack tho.
 
I've had fun, but at the same time I wish I had never known that fun existed. I can't allow myself to have such fun ever again (until I'm like 60 an retired).
 
dramamine was the only one...the "trip" was ok some Hallucinations also I was quite uncomfortable and could barely walk. But the hungover of this shit its terrible at least for me :S not worth it
 
No. I would feel like I'm a half a person if I'd have lived my life not having experiencing many different realms of the world, different lifestyles, different crowds, different drugs. The ups, the downs, walking five miles during the Chicago winter to get a few pills, to experience withdrawl, being locked up and having the fuzz trying to get you to crack, getting into arguments with judges because you smirked at him, hopefully most people walk away from this world with a few lessons learned. No, I'm very happy I tried drugs, I'm not interested in experiencing the highs of squares. People that base their happiness on having good grades, having a clean record, or having a good job. This is the philosophy of large segments of my school, there's a bunch of Asian kids (read a bunch not all of them, believe it or not theres white kids that act like this too) that sit class all day with a firm posture, turn in their homework everday, address the teacher properly, and having drawn out conversations about their GPAs outside of class.
 
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