tribal girl
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Hi guys, I've risen from the ashes to make this post which is not at all easy for me. FWIW I couldn't find a suitable thread to post this in during my search either, so please feel free to move it if I've overlooked something (though I'd rather you didn't for the time being though).
I'm gonna try to keep this concise. I've been using/abusing benzos for years due to anxiety issues. Now, I've always kept my dose as low as possible, and last year I was on max 1.5 of etiz a day 5 days a week. In around October I dropped to an average of 1mg a day, and that's mostly what I've been sticking to ever since. I don't consume any on weekends, and I get on average 9 weeks holiday entitlement from work a year which is generally where and when I go cold turkey. I know this is technically inadvisable but it has always worked and been fine up until now. For the record - I no longer consume any other drug, and I seldom drink these days either. The irony is I've actually been taking good care of myself by getting into yoga and going vegan and all that hippie crap lol. I've been feeling good.
Anyway, these past couple of days some wds have kicked in. This also happened once around a month ago but I shrugged it off as eating something which didn't agree with me. When this happened again last night it occurred to me what this was and after looking up benzo WD symptoms I was practically ticking them all off in my head. So I took 0.5 etiz and felt like I stabilised the situation. I also had some insomnia last night, and woke feeling a bit dodge this morning (palpitations) so took another 0.5.
I'm really apprehensive about talking to my family about this, and also in regards to going to a doctor. Is this something I'll be able to tackle myself? FWIW I have the next couple of weeks off work so I feel like this is a good time to start tapering off this evil drug for good.
Any advice is appreciated.
I'm gonna try to keep this concise. I've been using/abusing benzos for years due to anxiety issues. Now, I've always kept my dose as low as possible, and last year I was on max 1.5 of etiz a day 5 days a week. In around October I dropped to an average of 1mg a day, and that's mostly what I've been sticking to ever since. I don't consume any on weekends, and I get on average 9 weeks holiday entitlement from work a year which is generally where and when I go cold turkey. I know this is technically inadvisable but it has always worked and been fine up until now. For the record - I no longer consume any other drug, and I seldom drink these days either. The irony is I've actually been taking good care of myself by getting into yoga and going vegan and all that hippie crap lol. I've been feeling good.
Anyway, these past couple of days some wds have kicked in. This also happened once around a month ago but I shrugged it off as eating something which didn't agree with me. When this happened again last night it occurred to me what this was and after looking up benzo WD symptoms I was practically ticking them all off in my head. So I took 0.5 etiz and felt like I stabilised the situation. I also had some insomnia last night, and woke feeling a bit dodge this morning (palpitations) so took another 0.5.
I'm really apprehensive about talking to my family about this, and also in regards to going to a doctor. Is this something I'll be able to tackle myself? FWIW I have the next couple of weeks off work so I feel like this is a good time to start tapering off this evil drug for good.
Any advice is appreciated.
