ETHYLPHENADATE addiction!

[Tony Williams]

Ok throughout my life I've "always had something" 15 it was caffiene galore then 18 started on using Cocaine and Mephedrone (Meph before it was known by the public). No problems however I grew addicted to GBL and I could never shake it, I was using heroin and OC also (the needle) however I wasnt addicted to opiates until I shook my gbl addiction for good and traded it with opiates - fast forward. to just after last summer ........ A drug that got me was Ritalin, having add I found the focus great then gbl'ed to bed anyway for the past 2 months I had Concerta (XR RIT) and ALOT of ETH. I used all the Con ages ago but daily I am using stupid ETH it just keeps me awake and usually I am up the next day then I crash it's so stupid, I will wake the next day at 5pm and at first no cravings but in the end they get the better of me. I do have alot of work and stuff to sort so it's more of the "stimulation" I am addicted to........ past fewdays here is an example...........


TUESDAY I wake up
skipped bed TUE>WED - no sleep
went to bed 10pm the day before (WED)
woke at 5pm! (THUR)

this stupid 2 day cycle. I am getting a safe (captureddisapline) soon so I can lock it and no access till I say then forceful deal with wd's/comedown.

What's sad is I weigh 10.8st insted of 11.5st

I am taking alot of supplements, multivitamins and complan (meal replace) w/ protein shake, Lately I've forecd more food down me. I have Meph, MDMA but I don't touch, just this and lately I got back on the Heroin but I've kicked that for the past few days.

Ok it's 4.11am I might finsh up and try and sleep rather than the ol' staying up a day.

Anyone else have a simailr addiction? I wanna stick with my racetam supps and just 1-2 energy drinks. (the old days)

 

[blakmike]

Come on now, you really should flush all the stimulants if they're starting to scare you. Easier said then done, right?

I always, always wish I had though, four days later with arms full of nasty needle scars from using that last functioning rig for the final two grams.

Good luck....