lab ether- experienced- realizing infinity
[note, this was written about 7-8 months ago, i had just misplaced it until now, things in brackets were added today, oct. 13, 2001]
I had acquired 3 quarts of lab grade diethyl ether, which i had divided equally among 20 ounce bottles. Huffing really isn't my thing, but I figured I'd give it a shot anyway. I did it roughly ten times in the course of this past month, mainly when I had no weed [I was a beginner potsmoker, and had no consistant contacts.] When I tried it yesterday, something remarkable happened.
T 0:00:00 [Hour:Min:Sec]
I grabbed a 20 oz bottle and a towel and went to the woods behind my house. I Splash roughly half an ounce onto the the rag, place it against my face and begin breathing deeply. I keep the rag against my face when breathing, taking full deep breaths. The first breath or two I cough a bit because I put a bit too much ether on the towel, and it is overwhelming in the sense that the amount of ether going into my throat was just too much. I slow my breathing slightly, and it compensates perfectly. It has a taste sightly like rubbing alcohol, only a bit sweeter.
T 0:01:00
The normal buzzing in my head returns. My best description of it would be like a weed buzz that gets stronger, then weaker, over the course of a few seconds. I begin to see tiny colorful spots all over the place. I notice the towel seems dry, so I splash a little more ether on it. On a side note, it can be hard to tell when the ether is gone, since the smell stays on the towel, as well as on my breath. So if one were to do this, check the towel or rag for wetness, if it's wet, then it still has ether on it.
I continue huffing.
T 0:05:00
The buzzing is getting stronger, like a powerful weed buzz, turning to a normal weed buzz and back. I can't really think about much, I'm just concentrating on breathing in and out, to fill my head with a stronger buzz. I splash a little more on and continue.
T 0:08:00 - T 0:08:05
The world around me seems to be disappearing. Not visually, but my personal realization of the world starts to disappear, and the only thing left of the world, is a flat circle of land with me in the middle. I am the only one left in reality. I start to understand everything within this world. Why the trees are growing, why the air is here. It is a type of complete understanding that I have never encountered before. I see that everything in the world is somehow connected with everything else. Two random points are connected by a line. I realize that the points in a line, can connect until they form a circle. The circle isn't the end of the correlation of existance though, (as in the circle of life) it in turn becomes a plane (math plane, not airplane.) The plane in turn becomes all reality, and everything contained withing reality. And I am here, in the middle of this infinity. Just concentrating on breathing. Infinity itself is just just one point, which is reality. When I sense what infinity really is, my realization of the world seems to return.
T 0:08:06
I stop huffing. I begin thinking about what I just felt. The five seconds of full understanding was so amazing. It was the most powerful feeling I have ever recieved, and it was off something that I didn't could produce introspection. I start to think for myself now. The understanding is gone except for the memory of it, but the buzz is still there.
T 0:09:00
I cap the bottle and stand up. I feel like I'm drunk. I can't seem to move without stuggling with my steps, and swaying a bunch. I go back to my house and take a shower, hoping to get some of the smell off of me. I can't feel the water in the shower. [x-rated side note, children under age 18 don't read!
i remember i tried masturbating in the shower that say, like i usually did, but the urge wasn't there. i'm sure if i really wanted to i could have, but i just didn't want to, which is odd to me since it was something i always seemed to do once a day back then.] The drunken like disorientation fades away over the next fifteen minutes.
T 0:45:00
My shower is finished. Over the course of the shower, the buzz drops to the equivalent of about two bowls of average weed, still pulsing on and off, and I feel automized. In other words, everything I do has no feeling it. I just do what I need to do, i.e. dry off, put on clothes. I think it's because I'm distracted by what happened.
T 1:00:00
Back to baseline. I still have lingering thoughts about what happened, but physical effects are gone.
[as it turns out i never had the urge to huff ether after this day. i ended up selling the rest to some friends who were practicing home chemistry. to this day i have never experienced anything that can compare to the power of this experience, with the sole exception being salvia. for a similer, although much older trip report, try this link: "http://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php3?ID=12811"
on one last note, if anyone can find a case of ether only deaths or brain damage, send me a link please. i've searched high (snicker) and low, and haven't found anything on this once medical anesthesiatic.]
[note, this was written about 7-8 months ago, i had just misplaced it until now, things in brackets were added today, oct. 13, 2001]
I had acquired 3 quarts of lab grade diethyl ether, which i had divided equally among 20 ounce bottles. Huffing really isn't my thing, but I figured I'd give it a shot anyway. I did it roughly ten times in the course of this past month, mainly when I had no weed [I was a beginner potsmoker, and had no consistant contacts.] When I tried it yesterday, something remarkable happened.
T 0:00:00 [Hour:Min:Sec]
I grabbed a 20 oz bottle and a towel and went to the woods behind my house. I Splash roughly half an ounce onto the the rag, place it against my face and begin breathing deeply. I keep the rag against my face when breathing, taking full deep breaths. The first breath or two I cough a bit because I put a bit too much ether on the towel, and it is overwhelming in the sense that the amount of ether going into my throat was just too much. I slow my breathing slightly, and it compensates perfectly. It has a taste sightly like rubbing alcohol, only a bit sweeter.
T 0:01:00
The normal buzzing in my head returns. My best description of it would be like a weed buzz that gets stronger, then weaker, over the course of a few seconds. I begin to see tiny colorful spots all over the place. I notice the towel seems dry, so I splash a little more ether on it. On a side note, it can be hard to tell when the ether is gone, since the smell stays on the towel, as well as on my breath. So if one were to do this, check the towel or rag for wetness, if it's wet, then it still has ether on it.
I continue huffing.
T 0:05:00
The buzzing is getting stronger, like a powerful weed buzz, turning to a normal weed buzz and back. I can't really think about much, I'm just concentrating on breathing in and out, to fill my head with a stronger buzz. I splash a little more on and continue.
T 0:08:00 - T 0:08:05
The world around me seems to be disappearing. Not visually, but my personal realization of the world starts to disappear, and the only thing left of the world, is a flat circle of land with me in the middle. I am the only one left in reality. I start to understand everything within this world. Why the trees are growing, why the air is here. It is a type of complete understanding that I have never encountered before. I see that everything in the world is somehow connected with everything else. Two random points are connected by a line. I realize that the points in a line, can connect until they form a circle. The circle isn't the end of the correlation of existance though, (as in the circle of life) it in turn becomes a plane (math plane, not airplane.) The plane in turn becomes all reality, and everything contained withing reality. And I am here, in the middle of this infinity. Just concentrating on breathing. Infinity itself is just just one point, which is reality. When I sense what infinity really is, my realization of the world seems to return.
T 0:08:06
I stop huffing. I begin thinking about what I just felt. The five seconds of full understanding was so amazing. It was the most powerful feeling I have ever recieved, and it was off something that I didn't could produce introspection. I start to think for myself now. The understanding is gone except for the memory of it, but the buzz is still there.
T 0:09:00
I cap the bottle and stand up. I feel like I'm drunk. I can't seem to move without stuggling with my steps, and swaying a bunch. I go back to my house and take a shower, hoping to get some of the smell off of me. I can't feel the water in the shower. [x-rated side note, children under age 18 don't read!
i remember i tried masturbating in the shower that say, like i usually did, but the urge wasn't there. i'm sure if i really wanted to i could have, but i just didn't want to, which is odd to me since it was something i always seemed to do once a day back then.] The drunken like disorientation fades away over the next fifteen minutes.T 0:45:00
My shower is finished. Over the course of the shower, the buzz drops to the equivalent of about two bowls of average weed, still pulsing on and off, and I feel automized. In other words, everything I do has no feeling it. I just do what I need to do, i.e. dry off, put on clothes. I think it's because I'm distracted by what happened.
T 1:00:00
Back to baseline. I still have lingering thoughts about what happened, but physical effects are gone.
[as it turns out i never had the urge to huff ether after this day. i ended up selling the rest to some friends who were practicing home chemistry. to this day i have never experienced anything that can compare to the power of this experience, with the sole exception being salvia. for a similer, although much older trip report, try this link: "http://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php3?ID=12811"
on one last note, if anyone can find a case of ether only deaths or brain damage, send me a link please. i've searched high (snicker) and low, and haven't found anything on this once medical anesthesiatic.]
