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Bluelighter
I have been experimenting with Escaline for a month and a bit now, not very often as I have had to work a huge number of shifts and have a personal rule of not taking a substance if I have to work the next day. Anyway, after an interesting but pretty light 75mg trip, and a stronger, enjoyable but not much more than hedonistic 125mg, I decided to take the plunge and go for 200mg.
It would be very pertinent to indicate to those who haven't read much on this chemical that this is about twice as much as most people are taking and I truly felt the chemical had more potential than I was experiencing at lower doses. That said PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE be careful and work your way up as this is a novel chemical without much true idea as to safe boundaries.
I think it is safe to say that I have a pretty great idea of what Mescaline has to offer now but from everything I have read, Mescaline is a soft and gentle ride; this was anything but. For the first hour I started feeling a build up of energy and contentment and having used it several times in the past I had little anxiety so I was enjoying it as much as possible, listening to music and laying on a couch. Around an hour and twenty minutes, I all of a sudden start getting overwhelmed a bit by the music, icons on my computer start to breath, all the album art on iTunes starts to get extra depth and shimmer.
At this point I have to take my headphones out and turn towards the couch to close my eyes for a bit and the close eyed state is seriously weird. Thought patterns start building on themselves and jumping off into tangents while abstract visuals of swirling lights and dye spreading through water build up and disintegrate and change. I get lost for a couple minutes and then open my eyes and everything is still just breathing a bit, shimmering, but my thoughts return to normal, analytical and cohesive assessment of my situation.
I start getting zaps through my body that make me arch my back or jerk around and the feeling is pure ecstasy, but again becomes overwhelming so I close my eyes again and get lost in.... something..... maybe a repetative thought cycle or complete dissassociation, either way I open my eyes again and forty minutes has passed with no explation of the time loss. The open eye visuals at this point are pretty crazy, everything is covered in a swirling overlay, the ceiling has fast moving paisley gears cycling around eachother in unnaturally fast motion and my enire vision keeps shifting an inch or so back and forth like everything is phasing in and out between two states of existance. There is shifting colour scales in the corners of the room and the books on my book shelf keep lighting up and growing and shrinking in such a way that looks like various ones are becoming more prominent and the artwork on my walls all become three dimensional. The visuals are so intense and everything is happening so fast I can't help but puke like I've never puked before, I feel better after this but the onslaught of stimuli is still a complete mess of visual input.
Many random trains of thought come up along the lines of human achievement vs. the cost of growth etc. but every argument is presented with its counter argument and moves so fast I just typically can't be fucked to follow along and ignore it more than anything else. The high was super pushy and intense and about four hours in I start to get pretty bad tremors and feel unbelievably weak (I also fast before psychedelics so this definitely didn't help. One other thing is I'm a caffeine nut, I would have had at least 1-1.5grams of caffeine throughout the day so who know what effect that had on the trip).
I also find with escaline there is no blissful glowing post-plateau, I'm completely spent by the time I get there and generally just feel completely used up. At 6 hours I feed my cats and make the most ridiculous attempt to pill one of them (eventually sucessfully) and having made sure that I meet my major resposibility before crashing out I then take 4mg etizolam and everything becomes amazing. I find etizolam to be pretty euphoric on its own and it isn't able to kill the trip but it takes it to a much happier place where everything is still trippy but finally slowed down and enjoyable. Music is orgasmic at this point and I want to cry with absolute joy at finally getting to experience what I wanted.
All in all, this ended up being about as visual and powerful as a three tab acid trip or about 4-5 grams of mushrooms. I found it to be easier in terms of psyche, at no point was I confronted with anything I couldn't think my way out of or even bothered by at all, I was left with a depersonalized analytical ability to parse every thought. On the other hand, TOO much stuff going on to really take anything from it, no lessons really learned, kinda felt like being on a rollercoaster that you realized after you got locked in that you wouldn't have got on if you knew it was going to be quite that crazy. That said, I'm a glad I did it, I love broadening my experiences, it wasn't scarring in any way and I feel like I've gone on a journey or run a marathon and life has been refreshed. My overarching feeling though is that it certainly is a key to the same psychedelic places as acid and mushrooms, but it does not feel like the right one to use to get there.
Hope this is informative and be careful but have fun! Feel free to ask any questions and I will do my best to answer.
It would be very pertinent to indicate to those who haven't read much on this chemical that this is about twice as much as most people are taking and I truly felt the chemical had more potential than I was experiencing at lower doses. That said PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE be careful and work your way up as this is a novel chemical without much true idea as to safe boundaries.
I think it is safe to say that I have a pretty great idea of what Mescaline has to offer now but from everything I have read, Mescaline is a soft and gentle ride; this was anything but. For the first hour I started feeling a build up of energy and contentment and having used it several times in the past I had little anxiety so I was enjoying it as much as possible, listening to music and laying on a couch. Around an hour and twenty minutes, I all of a sudden start getting overwhelmed a bit by the music, icons on my computer start to breath, all the album art on iTunes starts to get extra depth and shimmer.
At this point I have to take my headphones out and turn towards the couch to close my eyes for a bit and the close eyed state is seriously weird. Thought patterns start building on themselves and jumping off into tangents while abstract visuals of swirling lights and dye spreading through water build up and disintegrate and change. I get lost for a couple minutes and then open my eyes and everything is still just breathing a bit, shimmering, but my thoughts return to normal, analytical and cohesive assessment of my situation.
I start getting zaps through my body that make me arch my back or jerk around and the feeling is pure ecstasy, but again becomes overwhelming so I close my eyes again and get lost in.... something..... maybe a repetative thought cycle or complete dissassociation, either way I open my eyes again and forty minutes has passed with no explation of the time loss. The open eye visuals at this point are pretty crazy, everything is covered in a swirling overlay, the ceiling has fast moving paisley gears cycling around eachother in unnaturally fast motion and my enire vision keeps shifting an inch or so back and forth like everything is phasing in and out between two states of existance. There is shifting colour scales in the corners of the room and the books on my book shelf keep lighting up and growing and shrinking in such a way that looks like various ones are becoming more prominent and the artwork on my walls all become three dimensional. The visuals are so intense and everything is happening so fast I can't help but puke like I've never puked before, I feel better after this but the onslaught of stimuli is still a complete mess of visual input.
Many random trains of thought come up along the lines of human achievement vs. the cost of growth etc. but every argument is presented with its counter argument and moves so fast I just typically can't be fucked to follow along and ignore it more than anything else. The high was super pushy and intense and about four hours in I start to get pretty bad tremors and feel unbelievably weak (I also fast before psychedelics so this definitely didn't help. One other thing is I'm a caffeine nut, I would have had at least 1-1.5grams of caffeine throughout the day so who know what effect that had on the trip).
I also find with escaline there is no blissful glowing post-plateau, I'm completely spent by the time I get there and generally just feel completely used up. At 6 hours I feed my cats and make the most ridiculous attempt to pill one of them (eventually sucessfully) and having made sure that I meet my major resposibility before crashing out I then take 4mg etizolam and everything becomes amazing. I find etizolam to be pretty euphoric on its own and it isn't able to kill the trip but it takes it to a much happier place where everything is still trippy but finally slowed down and enjoyable. Music is orgasmic at this point and I want to cry with absolute joy at finally getting to experience what I wanted.
All in all, this ended up being about as visual and powerful as a three tab acid trip or about 4-5 grams of mushrooms. I found it to be easier in terms of psyche, at no point was I confronted with anything I couldn't think my way out of or even bothered by at all, I was left with a depersonalized analytical ability to parse every thought. On the other hand, TOO much stuff going on to really take anything from it, no lessons really learned, kinda felt like being on a rollercoaster that you realized after you got locked in that you wouldn't have got on if you knew it was going to be quite that crazy. That said, I'm a glad I did it, I love broadening my experiences, it wasn't scarring in any way and I feel like I've gone on a journey or run a marathon and life has been refreshed. My overarching feeling though is that it certainly is a key to the same psychedelic places as acid and mushrooms, but it does not feel like the right one to use to get there.
Hope this is informative and be careful but have fun! Feel free to ask any questions and I will do my best to answer.
