Epitaph

[CARESS]

I often wonder that they will say,
When I am lost to this world and gone away.
How will my friends remember me?
Will my life be all it was meant to be?
The shoes I've tried so hard to fill.
The times I should have run and yet stood still.
Will my life's goals be realized?
How do I look through other's eyes?
I only display parts of the whole of me.
For fear of disclosing too much for all to see.
Am I the parent I dreamed for myself as a child?
Are there times I should have been meek and mild?
The adjectives of me aren't pinpointed with ease,
Like a fleeting thought of a feather on the breeze.
Mother, teacher, daughter, friend,
Poet, lover, sister, where does the list end?
What will they say about me when I'm gone?
What legacies will I leave that will live on?
Who's lives will I touch, what hands will I hold?
Will I live to see the day I grow old?
I am a small ripple in a big pond,
Of beings in the here and now and beyond.
Or am I the waves that rake the sand?
Each day I'm still discovering just who I am.
So what will be said after I go?
Will I be missed by the ones I've loved so?
Or in thinking of passing, am I missing the clue,
That we determine the why and the how and the who...
By the actions we take every day.
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With All My Heart,
Caress

 

[applesbliss]

that was beautiful Caress! I would smack you around with a trout but that would probably ruin the moment. Probably.

applesbliss
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"First: Do no harm."
"Or we can take cid, turn on a porno and have...psychonaut orgy! :"

 

[CARESS]

Applesbliss,
Thank you so much. It seems we all come to a point of wondering what our affect on the world will be, I think.
And I find the "Applesbliss Patented Trout-slap" very enjoyable! So no, you wouldn't ruin the moment.

Your Friend,
Caress

 

[Angelight]

my sister,
beauty is not even the word. You never cease to amaze me either. No matter what you are feeling, or whatever bridges you are crossing right now, your amazing ability shines through in every piece that you contribute to this place. I love you darlin, and this poem is wonderful, just like you are

all my love
ange

 

[Afrodellico]

Hello Caress!!!!
There's only one word to describe your passion: LOVE.... u r all love!!!
Take Care!!!!
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Afroman

 

[HakunaMatata]

Dear Beautiful Caress,
It's taken me this long to read your poem. Sometimes although I see a post or two from you here and there, I wait for moments of pure tranquility before I touch them. And they have never ceased to fill my days with renewed hope, love, peace and beauty.
I don't think any human being ever completely and utterly pays the exact deserved homage to the human heart. I don't think we're expected to, since we are merely human and so very flawed at that. I think it's the constant act of redirecting our energies, r****ffling our spine, and restarting on a journey towards kindness and compassion....where we remain true to our humanity.
Humanity is not about not fucking up. It's about realizing that we do, and then doing something about it.
And to answer your question as best as I can. You shall have left the most beautiful of beauty behind. Your words will be shared from mother to daughter and then from her to her children as well. You've already touched the lives of people you've never locked eyes with. People wish nothing but greatness for you.
Loads of loves,
-Amina

 

[CARESS]

As some of you already know, I am going through some legal issues surrounding child custody. I find it necessary to lay low for awhile...well, even lower that I have been already.
I hope my silence is not interpreted as indifference or distaste for the board or any of the wonderful Bluelighters I have grown so close to. For so many of you have touched me in countless ways.
Thank you for your unfailing support and compassion. I do NOT intend to stay quiet for long, as it is not in my nature

.
I will continue to write, on paper now, and will share my thoughts and feelings with you all at some point soon.
It is certainly a shame that all of this personal upheaval was caused by someone I used to love who used sketchy means to find me in Bluelight and can ONLY see this board as a "drug board". He has totally missed the point, don't you think?
I realize my words here may be cryptic, but further details now could prove hazardous to me and the three little people I love most in the world.
Just know that I will miss so many of you and will only be gone a short while.
Much Love,
Caress

 

[Expansion4u]

-Caress- you seem like such a sweet person I wish you the best of luck!
Whatever happens remember it is not how others look you but how you see yourself.
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You can only MindFuck yourself!