Enjoying life again without drugs, tips and personal experience welcomed.

[Cloroxtastebad]

About six years ago I began abusing amphetamines. This was during high school, and at the time I began I was a very happy person. I struggled with some anxiety, but it was manageable and I was a very social person. For me amps made life so much fun! I began abusing more and more to the point that amps controlled my life.

Now six years later I find myself lost. I have forgotten life without amphetamines. I cant remember the last time I was truly happy while not under the influence of them. Ive stopped all drug use except for prozac which helps with daily anxiety, but I want to rejoin the world.

Honestly, I'm scared of the world now. I've lost all my confidence that I once had, and with that I lost my motivation.

I have drifted away from most of my friends of which were and ramain unaware of how bad my problem was.

I cant remember a goood memory in the past six years that I wasn't on amphetamines... this makes me so sad.

Ive began liftiing weights again, and am taking it day by day. I haven't initiated any social event in some time while sober.


Any personal experiences will be greatly appreciated. I need some inspiration from others who have dealt with drug addiction problems of any sort. Thank you ahead of time.


Anyones experiences with life after drug use will be very nice. It helps me to hear how others have done it. I need some inspiration and any motivation I can get. Thank you ahead of time.

 

[herbavore]

Learning to stay in the present and celebrate all the small changes that begin to add up will encourage you to keep moving forward. amongst the friends that you drifted away from is there anyone that you could rekindle a friendship with and perhaps confide what was going on? Support is key and wherever you can get it you should go for it. What kind of things are you interested in? Could any of those interests lead to a group situation? (I'm thinking like a class through a community center or community college). A friend of mine took a Zimbabwean music class at a store (marimba) and got to know the other people really well and through practicing together they have become a social group. It's hard to just connect with people out of the blue as adults in modern society. (Wouldn't it be great if we were like little kids and we could just walk up to someone and say, "Wanna play with me?") the problem is that everybody starts to personalize and self-blame for their own loneliness when it is actually a modern epidemic. Congratulations on beating the addiction. Life is still going to be rough at times and learning how to handle that is a long process whether you have ever done drugs or not. For me the thing that has helped the most is mindfulness. Google it and you will get lots of resources. It is a great way to put things in perspective and gives you good solid tools to use in the present every day to help you set your compass.